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I've talked to friends and read many posts about what is most important in their life. What matters to them the most; what truly resonates with their soul. A major one I see a lot from friends, internet, and society in  general since it's been a large issue for years and years is sexuality. The debate and fight to get gay marriage passed and the neverending plight to stop discrimination and hate that comes back the other way. There are other major social issues that I see over and over again as well since no matter how good it may seem on the surface compared to so many years ago, something like racial tension will always be around, lurking underneath an innocent exterior or blown right up and smashed into your face if someone massively influential happens to promote it. (We all know who I'm referring to here) Regardless, there are lot of these kinds of thing that people are very passionate about, and very passionate about making them right, making them better.

I have the fortune of not having much attachment to those kind of issues due to not running into much conflict. I guess the word a lot of people use is privilege. For instance, though I am Asian, specifically Chinese, not only do I not run into much racism at least as much as some of my other Asian peers is because I take up the majority of the Asian populace (that or Indian, I'm not entirely sure who has more population at the moment) and I happened to grow up in an incredibly multicultural neighbourhood. My area was so diverse, that there were more Asian people in my high school than white people. White people were the minority. I never really got flak for my race as I grew up. so I never was as passionate as many other less fortunate folk in terms of fighting it, and thus cannot understand to quite their degree their plights. 

I also have the fortune of living in a very liberal city, but not only that, growing up in a family where my brother came out as gay. Although the fallout of that with my family itself was not pleasant, I learned early on that there was no reason whatsoever to be bigoted to people who prefer one sex to another. I learned very early on thanks to my environment that people can like whoever they please and that's seriously not even the in the top ten of issues we should even be concerned about, but we have to because bigots will always exist and always discriminate. In a perfect world you would think most if not all people would be focused on issues affecting the entirety of the human race, such as global warming and its impact on humanity and their quality of life, or helping out those escaping from war-torn authoritarian countries. No, there's still this major debate that people need to care about who people love, and there's still this major debate about racism and sexism and all these other hot-topics that if we were all decent people would in a utopian society would not even be in a blip in our radar, yet here we are.

And it is an important fight that will likely be endless, but that isn't a reason to never fight, for if we never do, we will never improve. Many wonderful. outstanding individuals over many years have progressed us to where we are today, where slavery in its most traditional sense anyway, is no more in many countries, and everyone above a certain age can vote. Still, as important as these issues are, what really resonates with my soul and frankly in the large scheme of things isn't nearly as important as these issues is friendship.

Yet due to how I grew up, it has affected me very deeply. It's impacted who I am, what I like, who I befriend. It shapes my personality, my attitude, and my perspective. I don't think I've yet to run into anyone who is as moulded by this desire for friendship as much as I have, but again I don't know other people inside and out, so I can't be entirely one-hundred-percent sure. When I was very young. I was this small Asian girl about to start school. I remember how small I was because not only were there photos, but because for the entirety of elementary school and even middle school, I was the smallest person in class, bar none. It's possible I forgot a year where I wasn't and happened to be slightly taller than some other student who didn't stick around the school for long, but for most of it all I was the smallest. It's not hard to forget either. I remember one of my gym teachers referring to me and my other smol brethren as munchkins, and my best friend I made in primary school to this day had always nicknamed me shrimp. I am small, and people will not let me forget.

Before I continue let me repeat that I do have the memory of a goldfish, and for whatever sadistic reason it is in human nature for us to be more likely to remember the unpleasant memories over the good ones. Or it's possible I had a miserable childhood, but whatever the case, when I was in kindergarten I only remember making this one friend. We weren't that close since I don't even remember his name, and I don't consider him the first friend I made, since a kid and their family moved into the basement suite we rented out and she became my very very first friend. Still, due to that girl being two years my junior the first friend I made in school was this boy. My single memory of our friendship me as a young child crying uncontrollably hidden under the biggest, very much unsafe slide we had at the playground, and this boy who I assume was probably responsible felt bad and was trying to apologize or cheer me up in some way. I don't recall how. I only recall that it didn't work. He had to stay behind a year for whatever reason my smol child mind could not comprehend, and I moved onto the first grade.

The only thing I remember in all of first grade is that our school was so small some classes did not even have their own classroom. In first grade my classroom was in the gymnasium. That's it. That's all I remember. (In fourth grade my class was in a library until the portable classrooms were finished construction and then we moved there. There was another grade, probably second that was also in the portable classrooms, but I think we also had a legitimate classroom at one point too, so my memory is faint. Only reason I remember this is because I distinctly remember being super excited to have a Gameboy Colour of my very own with a copy of Pokemon Blue. I guess I made out my new fun toy to be too fun because someone stole it from my backpack not very long after. I never saw it again. D<)

Second grade though was when my friend who lived downstairs started school, and unlike me who made that one kid friend and her as a friend she found a clique right away. Unfortunately being different grades causes problems because she'd bond with these other kindergarteners, and I was two years older and then though I was her friend, she'd rather be with these other similarly aged peers. I remember this one time one of her friends had a birthday party, and I was upset because I wasn't invited. Of course I wasn't invited because I wasn't really close to her friend, but I thought since I was her friend and this clique was like, three people outside of me that we could get to all be friends or whatever and it wouldn't be bad if I joined them too. Or in other words I begged my friend's friend to invite me too, and it it worked, but I really wish I didn't do that, or at least it didn't work because that whole party ended up being very awkward. Still, that friend of mine who had this clique was still my friend probably due to our proximity of living spaces, so the year went by.

Third grade luckily I made a friend but the evils that were DIFFERENT GRADES continued because this friend was in the fourth grade. For whatever inane reason the school had this one BIG KID area reversed for ONLY the fourth grade kids. Keep in mind I was in a very small school, and it was called an Annex so it only went up to the fourth grade until you were shuffled over to a full-fledged big Elementary school that went from kindergarten to seventh grade. Some areas in the country, and well the world have a thing called middle school, which we didn't really have in my area, but that second elementary school was pretty much my middle school so when we get to that part I'm just gonna call it middle school anyway. Now obviously my fourth grade friend would of course want to be in this big kid area. All the other big kids were there. It was the cool thing to do, and hanging out with a friend a year younger than you may lead to kids making fun of you or looking down on you for not being in the cool reserved big kids area. I may never know my friend's reasoning, but she was my best friend this year. I never called the kid that had a clique my best friend, but I always referred to her as my first friend and someone I was close to. Third grade was the worst year of this school for me. My lack of any friends in my own grade was quite a disadvantage and this was the first year I experienced everyone's favourite past time in school, BULLYING! I also had the meanest teacher of all time in this year, and remember several times crying during the year of suffering.

Pull a seat and grab a cup of tea because I may be stuck in third grade for a while. During this tremulous year, I was one of two kids that caught head lice. Unlike the other kid who only had a little and thus, was probably caught from me, I had head lice all over my head. I had to have treatment and my hair cut quite short. This one girl bulled me relentlessly for this short hair. And I 100% know I am cis because despite being a super tomboy I seem to be very passionate about letting people know I was not a boy. I do not look like a boy. Fuck you for calling me a boy. Go the fuck to hell. This was not the first time this happened. For you see, I actually had a few friends outside of school that lived on my street. I had this older female friend likely already in middle school, and this boy a year younger than me who introduced me to THE NINTENDO 64 HOLY FUCK. We spent a lot of time bike-riding and playing video games. I am blessed to have spent time outdoors for my early childhood because let me tell ya the moment I got a computer and access to the internet the outside was a long gone memory. Anyway when that older female friend found out I had this friend who was a boy, all hell broke loose. She had this insane concept that boys and girls could not be friends. PLEASE KEEP THIS IN MIND. THIS IS AN ONGOING THEME. And told me if I did not de-friend this boy this instant, she would de-friend me. To make matters worse, she said the fact that I HAD a friend that was male meant I was TURNING INTO A BOY. I ran off crying. My dumb smol child brain believed that I was turning into a boy because of this, but also being one that is a dumb smol child, instead of defending my male friend or staying with that female friend I stopped hanging out with the both of them entirely. I lost two friends because of this stupid concept. That male friend of mine was probably super upset too, that poor child. However the best part of this terrible little incident is my very first friend came and comforted me while I was crying. 

And this whole choose one or the other kind of thing did not stop there. My best friend in school in the fourth grade and I also made this other friend as well. Now this may be relevant, but my best friend was white, and this new friend was native. So even though it seemed like we hung out with one another (we ate lunch together, I think?) my best friend would constantly bully my native friend. This was odd because I was not that close to the native friend. I'm quite sure it was my best friend that befriended her anyway. Or "befriended" I should say, but being the dumb smol child that I was, I did not defend my native friend. That's just as bad as doing the bullying yourself, but I guess at this point I wasn't willing to be assertive or helpful whatsoever because it's quite clear I have this desperation for friendship, and I'd do anything not to rock the boat and lose anymore friends. If given the choice to defend the poor kid being picked on or staying friends with the alpha female, my choice was to do nothing. Because I didn't want to invite more conflict. I feel pretty bad about those kids I did not defend though. I was not a strong person.

Finally, this friend I wanted to stay my best friend moved pretty much after the third grade. I was only friends with her for one year, and I did not help this other friend of ours, and it was all just sort of pointless now that I thought about it, how much I wanted to stay friends with her due to my inaction and thus enabling of her behaviour but perhaps if I did defend that third friend we would be friends instead. Even so that was not the worst part of this year. The teacher making me cry in front of my dad who berated me as I cried was not the worst part of this year. The losing of two friends due to an ultimatum was not the worst part of this year. Being horribly bullied by this girl with head lice was not the worst part of this year. I had a fallout with my very first friend. I felt like she was bossing me around and I was just letting her, and being submissive so I don't lose her as a friend and so did whatever she wanted, whatever she said. I don't recall what exactly caused us to fight, but I stood up for myself for the very first time and it blew up, and this first friend of mine stopped being my friend. We had this feud, this grudge. Every time I walked by she would turn her head and huff, and to have lost all my friends in the span of one year, including my first was a crippling blow. It only further fueled my desperation for friendship, but not only friendship. True friendship. It's not as if this first friend was terrible or toxic because I do remember the fond memory of her supporting me when I was crying, but well, the moment I tried to be independent, or how I felt like I was being bossed around was the moment I lost her.

Anyway I fucking hated third grade, but yay for fourth grade! I may have entered it friendless, but there was this new kid in class. And we became friends pretty much the moment I met her, and she was the one who always called me shrimp and stuff. Unlike all these other friends who were all different grades, weren't even in my school and of different ages, and not someone I clung to or put on a pedestal or whatever, this friend was my peer of my same grade, and she would pick on me a lot. But friendly picking. Like, the first friend where we can make jabs at each other and not step around egg shells. She has been my friend since fourth grade and is still my friend. Of course at this point I was sort of broken, like friendship is SUCH A HUGE ISSUE FOR ME NOW that it eclipsed everything else. Most people would say the point of school is not only for academics but also to become socially intelligent as the years go by. How to treat other people, how to make friends, all that stuff that is healthy for the human psyche. Yet I put all my buns in that second basket, and so my grades were always average except that one weird year I was top of the class for math somehow. I felt like the KING OF THE WORLD and was DESTINED TO BECOME A DOCTOR, but I digress. For anyone reading who knows of my planned trip to California next year, this friend, also known as Tofumold or some other food-related name will be coming with me. However she has never been an affectionate person and doesn't have this friendship complex like I do, so I started having these expectations like "I wish I had friends that would hug me! Because on TV friends hug!" and other such things. She doesn't do that. So while she is my very best friend since childhood, my years of struggle with friendship before this year gave me these humongous expectations to find these ideal friends cartoons like to feed me. Who are these perfect friends that are always on television!?

Also at the same time all this regular grade school stuff was happening, I was enrolled in a Chinese school that took place every Saturday since I was four before I even started regular school. I never made a single friend in this school. I was extremely bitter about this, and though I mentioned being bullied in third grade, the first time I was actually bullied was when I was four by other fellow four-to-five year olds. Like what the fuck? Kids still have souls at this age do they not!? Anyway my lack of friends gave me an incredible lack of motivation to do anything at this school let alone learn, and I was a pretty terrible student. Around tenth grade I outright refused to go back to the school, I was so fed up. In hindsight the idea of being in this school to retain my knowledge of my own native language was very important because of how many people that spoke the language and lived in the area, but I also understand why I never retained it and never managed to learn much of anything. My mindset was so stuck on this whole friendship thing, this thing I wanted so much but struggled so hard to obtain and when I did, to keep, and if I did keep was it even sincere in the first place? This insecurity struck with me my entire school life, and its remnants still remain with me to this day.

So anyway fifth grade came around, we were off to a new school to the wonderful experience that is middle school. Or the years of my school where douchebaggery was highly contagious and infected most if not everyone including myself. Bullies everywhere! IT'S TRUE! MIDDLE SCHOOLERS ARE SOULLESS HUSKS OF A HUMAN BEING! In an effort to not be at the bottom of the social ladder with my friend, there was this probably mentally handicapped kid with a speech impediment that everyone made fun of. We were not exceptions and it was not a proud moment of my life, but just like all the other times of inaction and trying to be with the majority to not stand out and all that kind of jazz it was a thing I did. School feels like this whole dominance kind of thing where followers will always look towards the strongest alpha student, follow their ways to not be seen as weak and thus be picked on by the populace. It's like survival of the fittest; savage animals trying to stay alive. That's why bullying is such a difficult issue to solve, and sometimes the only way to fix it isn't any sort of the safe, peaceful methods the faculty or parents always attempt, like ignoring the bully or telling a teacher or whatever. Those never work. The only time I've seen someone successfully fend off a bully was to stand up for themselves and punch them back, even if they are also suspended or even the only one suspended because of how backwards school rules are. My god, school is like prison. I've always heard to earn respect or to keep yourself from being a target is even if someone fights you, you must fight back. You can't run to a prison guard or try to hide or anything of the like. Even if you lose the fight horribly, as long as you stand up for yourself people will respect you. THAT'S SCHOOL. Can't tell a teacher, can't be a snitch! You're gonna get punished for being in the fight regardless of who initiated! AND YOU WILL BE BEAT UP ANYWAY. Survival of the fittest everyone.

Around this same time I made some friends! Yay! A few female friends and people I even invited to a birthday party. I even had this silly game I had with one of them where we'd grapple our hands and try to push each other like we were sumo wrestling or whatever. I remember fond memories of eating dried noodles from its package and people playing Pokemon cards, Yu-Gi-Oh, and soon even Beyblade. The trends were here! Of course during said birthday party all hell broke loose. I'm being melodramatic probably, but I'm pretty sure I cried at most of my birthday parties. Or at least was not particularly happy about them. Maybe I'm just a sensitive little bitch, who knows. But the one year I remember this being very warranted. One friend I made was like another one of these alpha females. I don't know why I keep calling them this, but it's like this one girl I befriend who is bossy and I always listen to and such. They command the room. They are the leader. Anyway I have this male cousin of mine, two years junior who I was very close to over the years. The markup of my family tree is sort of complicated but essentially we were the only people in our family of similar age, and everyone else was either just being born, or was not born, or was way older than us (including my brother who is over seven years my senior) so I became fast friends with him and he is a huge influence of my life. He introduced me to LF2 and Negima a few years down the line (attempted to introduce me to Re:Zero but after the debacle that was Negima I learned better >_>) He also had like every game console in existence. I remember playing games on his PS Classic like Worms and Gundam, on his PS2, his PS3, his PS4, his Nintendo 64, his Gamecube. He introduced me to Smash and is just as passionate about it as Souless is. (He once brought a CRT TV to a BOAT so he could play Melee properly with his friends. On a boat. Like don't even get on a boat to be on a boat, go on it to play Melee! To be  fair his father was a fisherman so he probably had been on boats most of his life, but still!) I also got him to play Soldat for a few years. It was nice.

So yeah, when this happened a fucking third time, there was no longer inaction or fear of losing a friend. Because my alpha female friend I had made this year was appalled that I had this male cousin who was my friend. She was like NO BOYS ALLOWED! She and the other (female) friends I had invited to the party locked themselves in MY OWN ROOM declaring it a BOY-FREE ZONE, and instead of joining them all I was outside the door with my cousin who was crying. FUCK. THESE. PEOPLE. This was MY birthday party. That was MY room. And this was MY cousin who I had been close to for YEARS! I didn't care that ALL OF MY FRIENDS were in there with her. I STAYED WITH MY COUSIN. I was so angry! I was so appalled. WHY IS THIS CONCEPT OF MALES AND FEMALES BEING FRIENDS SO TERRIBLE? We were EVEN related! I don't even! Holy fucking shit! 

And you know what? I defended my cousin and didn't lose any of my friends. Not even my alpha female friend.

Of course she moved away a year later. If it had gone down similarly to previous incidents, I may have lost friends and then the one I would have kept would have moved away anyway. I avoided this happening a second time by defending my cousin. We also made some male friends at school we'd play a form of tag with all the time, but we were always the ones chasing them so I assume no one wanted to pick that role and we were willing to be the sharks to try to eat them because we were not particularly high on the social ladder at school. I remember very little of sixth grade aside from not being fond of the teacher, but outside of school it was around this time my first friend moved away and another kid, a boy a few years my junior moved in. We became fast friends, played LF2 and NHL 97, and for a brief period of time this other kid in the neighbourhood played those games with us too. This was also around the time I got my first hamster, and I think I influenced HIS life quite a bit because we really enjoyed manhandling these hamsters (I know better now, lol. Imagine if my parents had any presence in my life during these times of turmoil how different this would all be) and when he finally moved like 90% of my friends do he got himself his own hamster. I got a boy to like hamsters. Cute. He also played Beyblades with me and it seems like though I struggle to keep female friends, I always find similar hobbies and interests with this guy friends and always actually DO stuff together. This never seemed to be the case with most of my female friends. Luckily my very best friend also enjoyed video games, so there was that to bond over. Alas I do not remember much else of this year, so moving on to the seventh grade which i do remember quite a bit.

During this year, we made friends with these two boys that sat at our same table. I actually knew one of the boys for a long time to the point that my family would be like "OH IT'S SPOTTO'S BOYFRIEND!1!" playfully or whatever, but only became friends this year. What's amusing to me is that the OTHER boy actually confessed to my best friend at the end of the year. She didn't recuperate, but that's sort of interesting. I only stayed friends with the boys, but one thing that truly touched me is on my birthday I was given this sketch of myself with a little doggy (because I loved dogs a lot!) and balloons everywhere out of the whim. I still have that drawing on my wall to this day and it is my favourite birthday present ever. I did not have to invite him to my birthday party to get a present. He just did it just because. I wonder if he too liked me beyond friends, but idk. I was still struggling with friendship and my brain was wired that boys and girls could be friends that I never really thought about romance whatsoever. I was a smol child with a smol child brain. Pretty sure I still have a smol child brain now too. 

Anyway it was a generally happy year except that one time I threw up in front of the class during quiet time and got relentlessly picked up by this asshole jock. I also remember this year (or was it the last?) where the popular girl made me do her homework. YAY MIDDLE SCHOOL! But still, I had close reliable friends who I didn't feel like were just friends just because, but people who really cared about me. This was the year I was king of math. Is there a particular reason for that? I don't know. But I think I do better in academics when I'm not flailing about drowning trying to make friends. For once in my life, I felt stable. I had a good friendship with the boy that lived downstairs, and spent lots of time with him and this other kid. I was friends with the kids at my table. My best friend was still here. This was not a year where I yearned for friendship. I had it.

Then everything changed when high school attacked. 

Luckily me and my best friend went to the same high school but due to where our school was located and where people lived, basically everyone at our grade split off to four different high schools. I never saw those boys again. In high school we did end up making some friends... all female. it was a very large clique with say 8-10 people, but due to my everlasting status of being near the bottom of the social ladder and my friendship complex, me and my best friend were not anywhere close to alpha female position, let's just say. I had this desire to make more friends, but CLOSE friends just like with my best friend. But in a clique there's usually even more inner cliques. Two girls will be best friends and do all the stuff together. Same with these other two girls. I came into this clique with my own best friend already, but we weren't all in the same classes ALL the time. And these friends of mine were closer to these other girls probably because they didn't put each other on pedestals or have clingy friendship complexes, so it was difficult to really grow close. I liked the girls that were nicer to me and such, but even then. It was also at this time my time on the internet went on a rise and I found friends online. Online friends who shared VERY close interests to mine since we could communicate over long distances and I didn't know anyone in my school with very similar interests. Due to such, I grew much more closer to these internet friends. I think the most significant of these were the BIFF. Today, only two of the BIFF remain but they have become ultra close friends with me especially Akira, and now I've learned that best friends are few and far between, but will always be there with you. It's not all about having sixty thousand friends and expecting them to all be as devoted as the few.

Akira is the other friend coming down to SFO with me! Let me talk about the internet friends too! We all bonded over Beyblade. Obviously no female friend of mine in high school gave two shits about Beyblade, so the internet was all I could turn to. Unfortunately my best friend who I do share interests with we always sort of miss that interest by a few steps. Like how she prefers RPGs and I prefer shooters, or how she likes Yu-Gi-Oh and I liked Beyblade. We were close! SIMILAR GENRES EVEN, but no cigar! Only the internet could solve this everlasting problem, and solve it did! I began writing stupid stories on crack about Beyblade characters and made friends in the fanfiction community. I had been writing as a hobby since I was like nine on my brother's ancient laptop, so it was not unfamiliar territory for me. Since making friends was SO rad to me I became very attached to these people like I knew them in real life, even if all we had was Beyblade. But once that interest faded, a majority of them faded as well because we didn't really do anything else nor have similar interests otherwise. It was more like a club that liked this one thing, and once people left the club because they weren't interested, it was no more.

No hard feelings or anything... well except this one incident where one of our club blocked us all of sudden, and I foolishly, like the foolish desperate clingy person I was, tried all I could to at least COMPREHEND why someone would do this. Since she really only blocked me, I reached out through another friend, and talked to her. She dodged all our questions and then proceeded to block everybody. I could never understand, but one of my friends told me to let it go. So I did. It was a difficult decision, but to be fair I did step on her toes by not respecting her decision to exit from our lives by trying to reach her beyond her powers that be. I still don't understand, to this day.

Back to high school though, and I don't really feel like splitting it by year so we're just gonna have one giant blurb about high school in its entirety. Since I was closer to my internet friends and couldn't truly reach over to these high school friends, I began having the same problem I did with my very first friend. Where they would do things and not invite us, or only invite us if no one else was able to go. One of my friends gave me ample advice when she realized my little friendship complex. Don't do things for other people before doing things for yourself. I don't remember the exact quote, but basically I was so eager to please i never really thought about my own self considering my very average grades and all, and just tried to do whatever I could to stay friends with people. It's a theme of my life, man. I also had one friend I made some year later (Grade nine? Egads I remember nothing) who I found rather obnoxious, but she was probably the type of person I should have stayed friends with over several others because no matter how much I expressed to her that she was annoying, she was still very accepting and friendly to me. I wish I stayed friends with her. She was one of those people I felt would be one of those once-in-a-lifetime friends if you gave them a chance, but I sadly did not.

There was also one year, later on maybe in junior or senior, where there was this friend who was basically Pinkie Pie in real life. She had ALL OF THE FRIENDS and was nice to ALL of the people, including me, so low on the social ladder! I really wish I could have been a closer friend to hers, but because she had so many other friends it was a nigh impossible achievement. There was also one year where I suffered some of the worst bullying. In sophomore these girls were transferred to our school and she would not stop at anything to call me names or throw pennies at me because I looked like a poor kid. (I wasn't actually that poor in terms of the school. I was just not one who found importance in appearance so I kind of looked like someone who didn't care and was more, let's say, homely than other kids. Or if you wanna bully me too, you could call me a hobo! Because I looked like a hobo. Gee I wonder if my parents had more of a presence in my life I wouldn't always dress up like a hobo to school) 

Back to the internet that I was increasingly spending more time on because I felt so much more accepted on there. Also they can't see me, so they can't tell me I look like a hobo! After discovering LF2 and playing so much of that game, I found another game that this website covered too called Soldat. Alas my friend I spent oodles of time playing games with who lived downstairs moved away, but I immersed myself in Soldat. I found many friends, a clique that in video games called a "clan" and got to see these same people in these same servers over and over again. We had fun, fun times shooting each other in a competitive environment. Though again like the Beyblade days many of these people faded away, there were some I stuck by for a very long time and still talk to today. We call ourselves Spectral Infantry, but I think I'm the only one that does that now because Discord exists and nobody cares about the clan name and my Teamspeak is dying. Regardless, it's not the name that is important, just like the name BIFF was never really important. (It stands for Best Internet Friends Forever. I hope that is the case with the two I am still friends with lolololol) but the people that still stick around. Also obviously a majority of these friends are guys. Because all the guy friends I've ever made friends with NEVER antagonized me for being friends with them despite being a girl, or never purposefully excluded me because if they want to spend time playing say, Path of Exile when I do not even play that game who am I to feel excluded? I don't play that game. It was a lot more transparent I guess. I felt more stable amongst them. My ability to friendship was finally levelling up, but those back at school were as stagnant as ever. The same feelings, the same kind of inevitable conclusions.

It's very important to not only share interests but share hobbies when it comes to friends. Video games were the thing that kept me going with these people. On the other hand, though I share less interests and hobbies with the few female but true friends I have left to this day, I still feel very close to them because we bonded on an emotional level. We understand each other, and we will be there for one another. Both of these have taught me that I do not need to be doing a thing with a person 24/7 to stay friends with them, or trying to be complacent to keep as many friends as possible because only the important friends are the ones that you really need to keep. The ones that will keep you going and motivated like they do me. At the end of high school, the one friend I became closest to outside of my best friend, who gave me a handmade birthday card out of nowhere, encouraged my graphic design and caused me to win the grade-wide competition, and actually gave me HUGS what the fuck, brutally chastised my appearance throughout high school with the harshest words possible over the internet. I blocked her immediately and we are no longer friends. It was one of the worst friendship breakups I have had, on par with my very first friend,. People who were there for me but obviously had some sort of pent up issue with me that the first sign where either I mentioned something or I was out of frame physically they unloaded their frustrations with me. Why couldn't they be honest from the get-go? I guess because I was a sensitive, eager, clingy person with a friendship complex, and the moment any conflict arises could be the end of it all, like it was. But it always blew up in the end because of it. It always ended friendships.

It always hurt.

And now the consequences.

I have had a pretty terrible year in terms of loss and family and pain, but in terms of PHYSICAL pain I went through several dental treatments to get my teeth fixed. Root canals, crowns, and surgery. Oddly enough despite all of those things I mentioned, the worst pain was the first cleaning I had after several several years. Because my teeth were so bad I was very sensitive to temperature so any cleaning felt like the absolute worst. Somehow cold air was worse than giant pointed steel needles being stabbed into my gums. I also buy separate shampoo and conditioner now, and pay for my own toothpaste, floss, mouthwash and toothbrush because my parents cheaped out and always bought the crappiest toothpaste possible, the cheapest 2-in-1 shampoo, and really all the other tools that though I do not blame for why I've had self-esteem issues certainly contributed a small part to it. Oh and I started buying some of my own clothes because throughout all of high school it was hand-me-downs all the way down, and since I was a tomboy I rejected 50% of it. So i kept wearing very old clothes that started getting tattered. My money at the time was going into things that were more important, like computers and video games. THUS THE HOBONESS! 

But the other consequence was where my interests ending up lying. I was so in need of friendship that every single thing I've ever watched, friendship was the most important issue to me. My very first OTP, ship as it were that I blame the whole Beyblade fanfiction community for getting me into, was KazumiSayo. See my icon? STILL KazuSayo. They are relatively minor characters in the grand scheme of Negima, but for what they had I enjoyed them immensely. Kazumi I saw as a role model because she wasn't a character that really developed per-say. She was kind of ideal from the get-go. She did not care about being in cliques or being friends with a cast herd. When the manga started she was in no cast herd, she was alone. And she was fine with it. She was still confident, still spunky, still had the best voice, still was extremely attractive despite such. (How do attractive people not attract friends?) and was very kind.

Then Sayo came along. Sayo was a ghost who had been alone for like some ridiculous amount of time, like sixty years. No one could see her until her teacher just happened be a wizard. Then when her existence was exposed, it was Kazumi who befriended her. Now at first I wondered why Kazumi of all people befriended her. I could see it in terms of practical reasons, like Sayo being a ghost would be ideal for Kazumi's need for intel, what with being an aspiring journalist and all. Meanwhile Sayo's need for a friend is extreme because she has been alone for sixty years and she hasn't become a batshit insane murderous ghost yet. Kazumi gives her this need. in terms of who is giving more and who is receiving more, it looks one-sided.

I guess what I'm trying to say here is that the most healthy and best relationships are when two people improve one another, and while Sayo who I essentially related to since she desperately needed a friend will become a better, more whole person thanks to Kazumi, what does she serve for Kazumi beyond the practicality? Does she make Kazumi a better person? At first I believed maybe Kazumi might be susceptible to becoming the stereotypical yellow journalist who would do anything to get a story. She did toy with the idea with exposing magic to the world, but it wasn't difficult to convince her to keep it under wraps despite such a story being an ample opportunity to launch her career straight into the moon. She also mentioned when she first became friends with Sayo that letting the world know of the existence of a real live ghost would also land her in prime territory to be one of the most renowned journalists out there, yet she is the one that convinces herself not to do so because that would be unfair and plain mean to Sayo, who does not need the attention of the world right now. She does not need to be a zoo exhibit or to be experimented on by scientists or studied, she needs a friend. That's exactly what Kazumi provided. I suppose Sayo fills out the role of keeping Kazumi in check. She was a wildcard for a moment when some members of the class opposed Negi's side of the battle, and Kazumi for a while was working for the supposedly "evil" side (it was more like a huge moral dilemma and no one was painted as an irredeemable bad guy, but still) but once context was given to Kazumi she switched sides pretty easily.

But still, their relationship served to fuel my need for a friend. One who for no reason would be your friend. Like a dog! I love dogs. I always wanted one but it was never right to ever get a dog due to their upkeep and price. Dogs are those kinds of unwavering companions that no matter what will always be loyal. No matter who you are or what you look like. That's why I loved Kazumi and Sayo so much. I saw this character who I looked up to, wanted to be like who gave unconditional support to this ghost character, who needed it above all else and overlooked her own ambitions to do so. It was a heartwarming friendship I wanted out of anyone at all. Still, it didn't serve the ideal kind of friendship I was looking for where the two characters could help one another to be better people.

Touhou came along to bring with it oodles of odd female friendships. I am very attached to female friendships as you can see. With guys, it's just play video games with them to bond because competition or whatever. I even watched Beyblade to figure that out too. But I could not figure out female friendship. I had such a hard time retaining female friends. I've run into so many problems and incidents involving all of that, so my interest was very high for how media portrayed female friendship. That's one of the many reasons I jumped between so many favourite characters and thus so many different OTPs in Touhou. So many different depictions of friendship and devotion! I loved it! One of my first favourites was Murasa and Nue. Unfortunately at the time they were in one of the less popular cast herds, so finding anything notable and meaningful that portrayed the two was a bit of a challenge. The depiction they usually got was that Nue was alone and sort of excluded from the main cast herd that being the Myouren Temple because she was a bit of a prankster/troublemaker. And she felt she needed to be alone (also she was sealed for like several hundred years) but secretly she wanted some form of companionship. Murasa was the usual person she'd  be paired with for that companionship. I remember reading this touching doujinshi where Nue is all self-conscious and stuff, gets attacked by some scumbag humans (not that humans ARE scumbags but these guys tried to kill Nue when she never provoked them, so... ) and they involved one of the legends associated with Nue in the conflict. The nue was shot down by some famous guy (I forget his name) by either his amazing enchanted bow, or he was so amazing he could shoot down mystical youkai like nues. So this guy that was trying to kill Nue had this bow and that guy's name too, so even though youkai usually very easily overpower humans this was not the case here.

Anyway Murasa pops out of nowhere and takes the arrow for her. It's treated as very melodramatic because Nue acts like Murasa is dying even though youkai can brush off such physical injuries plus Murasa is ALSO a ghost and ALREADY kinda of dead anyway, but yeah, this relationship was kind of like KazuSayo to me. My favourite character at the time was Murasa, who was portrayed as this badass ghost pirate captain who was very confident. She had a pretty depressing backstory too, but it wasn't given much detail thus that one story I wrote up about her history. This story serves to teach Nue that no she is not alone, and she doesn't have to feel like an outcast among the cast herd she is associated with. Murasa though I don't see what she learns or how she becomes better by being friends or more with Nue. It again, feels one-sided. Nue doesn't really touch upon any of Murasa's backstory or anything like that. They just happened to know one another. Also the game that came out right after introduced this buddy of Nue's from the outside with a similar ability where they have trickster pranks together and all, and sort of killed the illusion that Nue would ever be insecure to need friends that badly, or whatever. I dunno. I don't know what to think about it, lol.

Of course, moving beyond that I began to like MokoKene. Or KeneMoko. Again a similar OTP to KazuSayo. One person is SUPER LONELY. This person, Mokou, has done something to give herself immortality that causes her to be ostracized by society since she never seems to grow old, so she becomes increasingly withdrawn and a hermit to society. She does this for a thousand years or so. (This is getting absurd, isn't it? Lol. SPOTTO IS SO LONELY, SHE ONLY IDENTIFIES WITH PEOPLE WHO ARE ALONE FOR ABSURD AMOUNTS OF TIME) Of course unlike Sayo Mokou actually does go about killing a whole bunch of people, but moving on we come to Keine, a half-youkai whose character is the basis for the initial conflict between humans and youkai. The perspective of a half-youkai is most unique. (Though Keine is only really a youkai once a month since she is a WERE-hakutaku, so... ) anyway Keine has more of a human-leaning view than a youkai view despite her affliction. Mokou is someone though technically a human, her behaviour over the years and her own immortality makes her out to be more like a youkai if you think about it, but Mokou's first friend after many centuries ends up being Keine. I think there's something truly heartwarming when the protagonists need to go attack Mokou and despite Mokou being INVINCIBLE, Keine still goes out of her way to try to protect her and lead the protagonists away anyway. Keine gets beat up and they go for Mokou despite her efforts. She did this at first to protect the village earlier in the game, but near the end of the game the only reason she fights the protagonists again is solely for Mokou. It's sweet, isn't it?

This spawned a ridiculous amount of the most adorable fanworks I have ever seen. KeneMoko is a fairly popular pairing in Touhou, especially when you consider harem lead Marisa isn't part of it, nor does it involve any other protagonist that usually manages a harem of their own. The characters themselves haven't really been that relevant for several years either, until recently when Mokou showed up in a fighting game and some outsider they introduced Mokou ends up befriending and let's move on from that. Keine is especially irrelevant at this time though, haven't not appeared in anything with any significance since pretty much after her first appearance. Sigh. Well that's how it goes I suppose. It's the same with Murasa too. Not all too relevant now.

So I moved on to the last one I'm gonna mention from Touhou. It's relatively recent, so give me a moment. For the last few I kept sticking with this one lonely character who needed a friend. Or a dog, I guess if you really think about it, but for AyaSanae, this time the character, Aya, was not someone who was well, lonely. Her traditional characterization is usually this confident journalist who will do anything to get a good story, no matter how immoral it might be. At first this portrayal was more prevalent in fanworks, seeing as it was a funny exaggeration for the cast's only media representative, but the creator very quickly adopted a similar portrayal himself, so Aya sort of became a caricature of her initial characterization. I don't know either. Anyway, in-universe she was not the most popular person in the world. All of her mainline ships didn't really serve to improve Aya as a character, as Aya was usually the dominant member and would boss around the character paired to her. I hated that. It took me a long time to really look at Aya as a character I would bother liking. Like, who cares? She's not the role model Kazumi was and she has no qualms about how to achieve what she needs in her career, and she isn't lonely at all!

...or is she?

AyaSanae, a rarepair came along and it came with a very refreshing take on Aya. While yes, Aya isn't exactly human (but we keep applying human-like qualities on values on all the other youkai and non-human species of Touhou anyway, fanworks!) she's not really a well-rounded character with any depth to her motivations. Like why is she a journalist? Why because her crow tengu species are all avid reporters too! Well that doesn't make Aya particularly unique even if she is the most notable of the group. Still, as someone with a friendship complex I can't really swallow that Aya doesn't resent in some way that she may not be popular or have any friends. The character most associated to her in canon, Momiji, canonically hates her or at least has a very strong personal feud with Aya. Aya's other character most strongly associated to her is Hatate, who is just another crow tengu journalist meant to be a rival that makes Aya look like the best tengu around. It's not really all too reassuring. But in comes Sanae, an OUTSIDER with a unique perspective who believe or not, when this ship is portrayed, makes Aya a BETTER PERSON.


So how this all works is that Aya seems to fancy Sanae for whatever reason. I dunno. Figure it out yourself. The point is, Aya feels she can't really approach Sanae properly in that kind of manner because most of her relationships to people are strictly business. Not only that but Sanae is a human and that may look badly on human-youkai relations due to Sanae being involved with the goddesses who sort of want to take over the mountain for their faith which is also where the tengu all live and take claim to. It's a bit of a mess, is it not? There's some agreement in place for both of them to co-exist on the mountain, but it's just not good for tensions if most notable tengu and priestess responsible for spreading faith get together, is all I'm saying.

Yet thanks to fanworks bending canon rules, Aya's acquaintances who are more like close friends in this universe encourage Aya to go after Sanae. Sanae's goddesses want her to be close to Aya too, so they can improve goddess-tengu relations, and if they're friends that'd be good or whatever. So Aya gives Sanae a tour but Sanae doesn't really like Aya because who actually likes Aya, I mean c'mon. Then over time we run into Sanae's own issues of adapting into Gensokyan society, since she came from the outside where she had a normal (sorta) life at school with friends and modern technology, and now has no real peers here and has a completely different life with completely different technology, like magic! Aya comforts her in her very own youkai-like way, in that she hasn't much to say because she can't possibly understand, so she just pops out her wings and envelops Sanae in it. Give her some physical comfort. It's all Sanae needed... and for once, this relationship doesn't start off one-sided or stay that way, anyway. The two help one another. Sanae to adapt, and Aya to be better.

Because unlike Aya's more popular pairs, she's not bossing Sanae around and Sanae is devoted to her anyway for no real reason. Sanae makes Aya second-guess herself, makes her flustered. Sanae's go-for-it attitude and eccentricity is unpredictable to Aya. Every time Aya thinks she has control of the situation, Sanae surprises her. I can't really go into much depth about these two because they are a rarepair and everything I mentioned came from one very talented doujinshi artist, but this person (man? idk) singlehandedly not only made me like this ship, but like Aya! But anyway, Sanae's existence humbles Aya and gives her this sort of humanity and empathy she was sort of lacking, that made her more relatable. But this still wasn't to the level of give and receive I was hoping for, but the farthest I've found so far. Though Aya provided Sanae opportunity to adapt and supported her, I don't see Sanae as a character improving, but she does get a friend and acclaimed to Gensokyo and maybe her own character doesn't really need improving because she isn't as obviously flawed as Aya. Who knows! Still, it's the closest yet.

Potential for such a thing came from this next series, one very not-subtle about what they're trying to achieve with the show since it's titled as Friendship is Magic. MLP.

It took me a while to find a character to like actually. I most related to Fluttershy at the time, but my values were a lot closer to Pinkie Pie's. So I was like "wait, why not just put them together!" which was something somewhat possible due to their interactions in the most innocent of times that was season one. In one of the earliest episodes, Pinkie Pie defended Fluttershy's sensitivity, and kept her and Rainbow Dash (who has known her for years mind you) from pranking her. When Pinkie saw Fluttershy being bullied, she came up with a plan to get the bully back. When Fluttershy needed courage to jump over the chasm in Dragonfly, Pinkie's song encouraged her enough to go over. Not her other friends who were clearly exasperated (especially RD) about her keeping them from progressing very far. Pinkie kept her positivity up and supported Fluttershy wholeheartedly, no hard feelings whatsoever. Then several episodes down the line, for some reason Fluttershy despite being the shiest, most timid of them all, was so happy Pinkie was okay when she went missing (and was most worried for her as well) she jump-tackled Pinkie to the ground the moment she saw her. This would seem out-of-character if we didn't note all these things Pinkie did for her earlier. I thought a lovely cute little friendship was happening. It was one-sided though, but it was blossoming.

Then the most innocent of times concluded. One flaw of Pinkie Pie the writers began to make more and more apparent was her...insensitivity? Which I thought was quite odd because it seemed like she grasped this concept pretty well in season one. I suppose that same episode Fluttershy glomped her in she did start a war with her insensitivity with her not-very-good (rather unusual for Pinkie) song to make sure the ponies and the buffalo could get along. Maybe it was a botched attempt at humour, I'm not sure. Anyway Pinkie seemed to lose this concept and probably unintentionally made the whole Luna situation in Luna Eclipsed worse, then her sense of reality or how other ponies felt dwindled quite rapidly, like in the Friend In Deed episode where she could not grasp Cranky's need for her to leave him alone, if only because Pinkie is SO desperate to make him a friend and doesn't care, or just doesn't understand. Then there's that one episode about the cake she was protecting that was all kinds of wtf in terms of friendship, so let's not go there.

Then of course Pinkie realized with such clairvoyance how her own clones were terrorizing the town in the season three episode. I'm inclined to believe Pinkie didn't realize how overbearing she was until she saw several dozen copies of her acting in the most one-dimensional way possible. Finally in season four despite being one of the strongest Pinkie Pie seasons to date (there is a lot of "I realize I am in the wrong and can see you are unhappy and understand your sensitivity" in Pinkie Apple Pie and Pinkie Pride respectively, maybe even Maud Pie!") we had... Filli Vanilli.

I have spoken so much about this episode, but it really slammed on the pedal and floored it when I was already in the wild wide and hoping to any higher power of existence who could hear me to let us slow down. She was NOTHING like this in season one, and here she is making Fluttershy cry with the most obvious, over-the-top cries, sobs, and wails I have seen and somehow Pinkie cannot see what she is doing that is wrong? I just do not understand how people defend Pinkie in this episode, I can't. It was finally here that I realized the old vision of PinkieShy where Pinkie is the one who can help Fluttershy become bolder and closer was wrong. Or at least, only part of it. If the canon is going to run off with this type of characterization, Fluttershy is the one who needs to make PINKIE the better person! If both parts of what I see does happen, then yes this would be the first time the relationship will be pretty evenly-sided, where they help one another.

I mean Pinkie has her insecurities! Her most infamous episode had her breakdown believing her friends no longer wanted to be with her, and she clearly is very clingy to the friends she has despite having more than anyone. I can relate to that! But despite my idea of the two helping one another, over the years and seasons Fluttershy never needed Pinkie to become more assertive or bold. She did that on her own, through many situations with many friends including her animals friends, and Pinkie wasn't there to support her with as much presence as I hoped. It's like Fluttershy became better and didn't need Pinkie at all. It became a one-sided affair once again. I was so frustrated with this pair that had so much potential in season one. I really thought if the two were close friends it'd be a really heartwarming kind of thing. Two people so very different, with different ideals, but both sharing this same kind of sensitivity, both understanding one another. It would be the closest thing to the ideal pair I have seen, but the engine barely started before the car broke down entirely. An introvert and an extrovert who can both understand what it is like to be an introvert and an extrovert. I really wish this concept was explored.

In what i call a bit too little too late, an episode finally popped up that actually featured the two together though they still shared their conflict with Rainbow Dash and Applejack. There was great pressure to do well in a sporting competition, and surprisingly both Fluttershy and Pinkie buckled under this pressure. At first Pinkie buckling is more surprising, but after Fluttershy's character development you sort of don't see it coming either. Regardless Fluttershy is the first to burst about this towards RD and AJ, and is the one to bring up the problem that paves the way to the well-rounded perfect solution MLP likes to do. Meanwhile Pinkie becomes withdrawn under this pressure, and is the one who is unable to let RD and AJ know what she feels. She actually seems like the more sensitive one of the two! For whatever reason this made the two of them feel like they have a lot more depth than before, but this aspect of the two characters hasn't been explored since, and I'm not really expecting a Pinkie and Fluttershy episode actually focused on only those two anytime soon. :\ 

So if a show literally titled Friendship is Magic wasn't the way, what was?

I found a show called RWBY. The title of the show is the first letter of each protagonist who are paired into a group. Their goal is to go to school to learn to fight monsters, and then fight monsters with that group for the rest of the foreseeable future. Or at least in school, but from the existence of teams that existed well beyond school I'm thinking that is not the case. Anyway we are given tidbits of some background information on these four characters, and they get thrown into the school to learn to work together to defeat the monsters and subsequently become better huntresses and people as a result! I watched a trailer called the White Trailer. It had this character who exemplified all these feelings I've had in my entire life, though the lyrics weren't particularly subtle about it. This beautiful girl, who could get hit in the face and get a RAD SCAR despite her beauty, was all sad and lonely. She is entirely by herself in the trailer and only fights this construct which isn't even technically alive. I felt sympathy for her and loved the music and animation of the trailer. I knew she'd be my favourite character immediately, but in the large scheme of things she was sort of fitting my stereotypical pattern of favourites.

Until she opened her mouth in the series itself.


But yet, I still loved her.


Weiss Schnee was this type of person I had conflict with so many times in my life, but I never really saw these people's own perspectives. I had such negative interactions with them, or at least my friendship with them always ended poorly that I never really saw it from their side or understood who these people were. Weiss was like, someone who guarded herself deeply and had a lot of issues inside, and she did it by being bossy and mean. It took her a while to accept those around her, but it also didn't take her long to change herself or see that she had to be supportive if she wanted to keep these people around, these friends. She learned pretty quick actually, so her first impression wasn't really all that significant in the large scheme of things. Seeing her White Trailer and then how she acted I knew right away Weiss wasn't actually like this at all, and unlike a lot of people became intrigued with who she was and what she'd become because of it. Because we already knew there was something about her that didn't match how she behaved.

At first I followed the crowd and shipped her with whoever was most commonly shipped with her, but this was a young show, so anything could change. And change it did because the core of the plot for much of the first three seasons was the conflict between the White Fang and well, everyone else, but mostly the Schnee Dust Corp since they're the ones that led the White Fang to their reputations and extreme beliefs to this day. The person on the side of the White Fang, or at least formerly and with a lot of faunus baggage left in? Blake. And it seemed like Weiss and Blake were very integral to the plot for a lot of these reasons. Well mostly Blake for plot and Weiss for character development, but you get the idea. Weiss needed to shake off her racist upbringing if she was to keep these comrades of hers by her side and for them to become an expert, efficient team of huntresses. This included even accepting the former terrorist group member with an endless amount of issues, Blake. Weiss really came to her own as a character over these episodes, and it even seemed Blake was turning a leaf as well, willing to let people into her life despite having been closed off for years in fear of discrimination and conviction! 

Then of course all the shit happened and it turned into Naruto. Where nobody graduates, the group breaks up, and the broodiest, angstiest person runs away. I guess since this show isn't blatantly titled FRIENDSHIP IS MAGIC I can't expect it to focus on friendship as the core theme of the show, but I had assumed so anyway because of the title of the show and the premise, that these four girls of vastly different background and history must come together and fight monsters. The fact that Weiss and Blake had all this conflict to get over, and all these scenes where they were helping one another, Weiss forgiving Blake for running off with her problems, Weiss trying to force Blake to talk about her problems to the group, Blake choosing Weiss over the White Fang when they were about to kill her, finally letting go of her criminal past and what really needed to be done, to the point that by season three they were amiably having a tea and coffee date with one another. They were willing to spend time with each other outside of training, outside of arguing about their vastly different upbringings and opinions and were friends THAT HELPED ONE ANOTHER BECOME BETTER PEOPLE.

But instead shit hit the fan.

Weiss let go of her racist ways and accepted how poorly faunus were treated. She became nicer, and more supportive as a result. Blake let people into her life more often, began to trust more, and these people who should be enemies at any other time are not. That's heartwarming. That's beautiful. That's friendship! Heck, even beyond! This is the greatest potential for the greatest ship I have ever seen, but of course, of course, this show has decided writing as a priority is like fifth fiddle to things like adding more characters than necessary in every season and not bothering to develop any existing ones, killing random characters off for shock value, and putting more stock into developing side characters and minor characters over the main characters while ignoring and writing out the interpersonal relationships and interactions I watched the show for AMONG THE FOUR GIRLS. They had it! They had in right in their palms and tossed it right over a cliff! THEY HAD IT!

A non-one sided relationship in which two people can help one ANOTHER improve, and not only that their BACKGROUNDS improve. Fix the White Fang, fix the Schnee Corporation to get rid of all the corrupt terrorist bullshit that infects both their backgrounds and them as people. The two being together could solve them as people and SOLVE THE PLOT but it was flung off the cliff, not knowing what they had. I do not expect them to make this ship canon, but their mere friendship is all that is needed for some of the most heartwarming, wonderful, uplifting, and hopeful kinds of solution possible. This is why I like some horribly dark, twisted series a lot despite their theme because the ending of these things (such as Dangan Ronpa) is always one of hope despite all the shitty hardship and death everyone faces. And yes, RWBY is not over yet, I suppose the show too can achieve that same kind of thing, but when we had so many misprioritized plot points and focus on random one-off characters in such a large ratio of the show, the characters of team RWBY no matter their potential is shuffled to the side and in the end I don't even believe they have a friendship at all. There is no training montage where they learned those team-up moves they had in that one season two episode. It was not as if they did not have time because they had a whole plot about Jaune that did not move the plot whatsoever about his own problems I don't give one flying shit about. The solution didn't even matter because Pyrrha dies anyway. Like what the fuck? Yang goes out of her way to reveal some of her backstory to try to help out Blake from imploding inside due to her worries on White Fang activity, but I can't even believe she'd do that because when Blake and Weiss were arguing in season one and Blake ran off, Yang did absolutely nothing. What changed there? Was there some moment of bonding they had that made them closer so Yang would do such a thing? No because they wasted time doing pointless shit that did not improve on the relationships of these characters at all.

Blake had to resort to random faunus monkey dude to support her in that episode, and now he's the only one doing it which is troubling. If they were to be friends then it would be Weiss, Ruby, and Yang that would help her get past what her issues now especially since what Blake is going through affects her team the most, especially Weiss, but most especially Yang because she lost an entire arm trying to help Blake and Blake instead of accepting this traumatic support or helping her friend instead just runs away and leaves them to be,. But this random faunus monkey dude can totally follow her around. That's okay! Is it because he is a faunus? IS THAT THE ONLY REASON!? Ruby is so preoccupied by defeating the enemy themselves she never considers say, staying home to support her most traumatized sister a little longer, or trying to find Weiss or Blake. It's investigate what happened to Beacon, fuck my friends. Yang understandably is too shaken up to do anything for some time, so she is forgiven, but Weiss cannot even leave her father's side. She is stuck there, so she is also forgiven for not reuniting with her friends. But why bother when no one comes after her, and her final conclusion after escaping her father is to find her sister? She clearly doesn't believe they are worthy to seek out and only her sister can support her, and who can blame her!? Fuck her friends! There is no female friendship in RWBY and that's a fucking disgrace. They have no idea how to develop it whatsoever and instead develop male-female friendships that aren't even friendships because EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM HAS ROMANTIC SUBTEXT. DOES FRIENDSHIP MEAN ANYTHING TO THIS SERIES AT ALL!? WHAT THE FUCK. Penny and Pyrrha were amazing supportive friends! EXCEPT THEY DIED. OKAY. AWESOME.

It was the most promising and it crashed hard, into a trainwreck that was so bad I finally looked away from it. Yeah the action, choreography was great, but that's not what keeps me watching a series. That's not draws me to a series. It's the female friendship I so long to watch. It's why of everything that has been recommended to me in the past few years Little Witch Academia is on the top of the list because I don't see any of these themes in all the other mystery, comedy, actiony things people recommend me. Maybe I'll give it a chance, but I just feel so cynical after RWBY, that I had to write a giant story to fix this severe problem. That I'd rather just play video games and give up watching stuff forever than to put in hope for what I like to see in stories. It's why I'm so apprehensive with starting anything and would stick to the same series and franchises I have trust in over and over again. And it's because of my friendship issues throughout my entire life that I'm stuck with such a specific kind of theme I really want to watch, and see done well. Maybe I just want validation? I don't know. 

Things like Touhou and Overwatch where everything does not hang on one cohesive story is a lot more approachable than some anime or cartoon people recommend. Since the story is not released all at once and speculation is rampant, plus we can always enjoy them both in other words like actually playing the game or listening  to music, it doesn't depend entirely on what canon says. I really like Mercymaker in Overwatch for the potential of Mercy being one of the few people that can help Widowmaker recover. Also it's hot, but that's irrelevant. It's extremely one-sided though because I do not see Mercy benefiting as a person helping Widowmaker, merely doing what she usually does that she has devoted her life to, but it follows the pattern of the kind of pairing I like. Anyway despite that there's not a lot of canon to back this up, it's just an idea and the fans power these ideas. Most likely due to the story being all over the place and with so many other characters this ship is free to be as large as the imagination desires. There's a chance something will come around to throw it off, but due to the nature of these series I can usually ignore it.

One final last thing I forgot to mention in quite possibly one of the largest rants i have written of everything ever, is that I also had a friend in between Beyblade and Negima, a fandom friend when I was into B-Daman briefly. We made up a lot of story and artwork through our roleplays and I spent a ridiculous amount of time with this girl. Sadly she drifted away eventually, so I couldn't think of anyway to put her in this rant since I mentioned so many of my other friends. Still, i do wonder how she is doing and if she is okay because when I met her she was going through some difficult times. I have no real way to contact her but I hope she's doing well.

Ultimately, friendship is hard. True friends are the few that stick by your side unconditionally, and most people have no idea how to depict the kind of friendship I'm looking for in media. At least of those I've seen, but RWBY has dampened my spirits to the point that I can't be bothered anyway. Just gotta stick with what I already have and cherish who are still around. Thank you my friends. Even if we drift away someday, I am glad you were around when you were. And it's definitely true that a lot of us will not know what we are missing when people are gone. I probably still have a bit of a friendship complex, but throughout all of this I went from this positive outgoing person who really wanted lots of friends to an introvert who would rather stay inside and sleep all day. I do still want to have friends, but I don't have the effort anymore. And I know a lot of people are like this too, but even if they don't talk to me everyday or even every week, when we finally do speak again we can pick off where we left off, like time does not affect our friendship at all, and that's the best feeling to have. We're all adults now anyway. Responsibilities take up our time, but still that doesn't mean drifting away is something that is guaranteed. 

This has been Spotto, and I have revealed quite a bit. Adios!
spotto: (hong kong *STAAAAAARE*)
I may not be the greatest artist out there, but I enjoy putting pencil to paper and creating whatever swirls of lines and creatures as I please. I like to show people too, but I am surrounded by many others who are simply far superior to me in my art and so I never stand out. People may comment on them, a single word, perhaps a small chuckle at a dumb joke, but otherwise when I draw it's a personal thing. Drawing is the kind of thing I'll always do, even if no one cares or if they blatantly point out to my face how bad it is. I'll probably always draw.

In fact I probably have the most passion in my artwork than anything else. I'd probably be happiest if I were given compliments on my crappy doodles over other things I do that I may not have as much enjoyment doing. But, if it's not good it doesn't deserve praise, so... I just mingle forward with my mediocre stuff. I decided to compile a bunch of doodles I've drawn over the past few months, just to show myself and any others I may show how inconsistent and messy my style is. I still haven't transitioned well to a tablet (I've tried many times) since the way I draw on paper is as far as I can tell rather different than others. I have a very hard style of writing, when I print words my pencil is grinding on that paper, almost putting grooves through the back. (Though not to the extent of my brother who basically has an abusive relationship with his paper, but that's understandable since his wrists don't work properly) I know drawing and writing much lighter would be far better and far less messier for my artwork, but I just haven't been able to adapt yet. This is why I think my tablet stuff isn't working out, I think. The tablet itself has far less friction than paper and I can't get that comfortable tight position down onto it like traditional media. It feels like I'm skating on ice rather than walking on ground really.

I'll get a hang of it someday, but I've had my tablet for like five years. Ha.

Anyway I put ALL the doodles in one image just so you don't have to click many links, in fact I'll just display it right here in gigantic and huge glory. I'll actually cut it because I remember that I still exist on LJ, and therefore there might be people there to still use that friend's list, and may see this gigantic block of crappiness on it.

art here )And of course to comment on it!

The very first image was a pretty random little doodle. I drew it when I was playing quite a significant amount of Hisoutensoku with my friends. I decided to draw them cosplaying their mains, but I never got around to finishing beyond the poses. Cunchy, the faux-hawk dude has his hands positioned like a pointer or a gun because he mains Reisen. Also adding bunny ears to hair like that is somewhat awkward, lol. The guy next to him, Magus, was meant to be Suwako but I never got around to adding that hat. (I also suck at drawing hats anyhow) Below Cunchy is Souless, meant to represent Meiling thus the high kick. I tried to copy Remilia's hilarious crunching pose with Edmendduke, but I did it without reference so it's totally wrong. You can tell I actually got around to adding her the and wings on. I did like practicing poses on that one, and I thought adding a face might ruin it since I left it faceless for so long. (I threw impromptu ones on with the computer ololol)

The second image is actually a Touhoumon image I drew. I was chugging along through the Elite Four and the most surprising death of my game occurred right there. Every time I faced that Momiji (and other Nuzlockes I followed too) she was a joke. Always killed her in one shot, never a threat. But my weapon against Momiji is my Ex-Keine, Cranium since she's part fighting and Momiji is normal. And every time I'd kill Momiji with a Brick Break or something, but then the champion used Earthquake this one time. I was completely shocked when Cranium died in a hit (and she's one of my tanks too) and was pretty much my favourite Touhoumon at the time since she was so dependable so yeah, quite surprising. Anyway I learned that Ground is super effective to Steel, which Keine is also a part of therefore why Cranium died. I sent out my Alice, SockPuppet out to avenge her afterwards, thus the image! THEY WERE FRIENDS FOR A VERY LONG TIME, I GOT THEM AT AROUND THE SAME TIME. So yeah all dramatic and sad and stuff, or at least that was what I was trying to do.

Here is the pony dump! This first image is of TERRIBLE quality (even moreso than normal!) because my mom put a wet rag on top of it. >: SERIOUSLY I really liked how I drew this one and she soaked water all over it, blargh. It is of a Werewolf!Fluttershy and a Zombie!Pinkie Pie, or as I like to call them Zombie Pie and Lycan Shy. I've read like three werewolf-shy stories and liked them quite a bit, and Pinkie tends to become the zombie in zombie stories (or at least zombie pictures) so I thought it'd be cool to draw em! (Also at the time I was all into supernatural stuff for a few weeks) Zombies and Werewolves are pretty cool man.

The Pinkie on the right is just a random doodle, liked it enough to scan in. I also drew Fluttershy as a hockey player as you can see, with a fierce expression because on the rink you must have passion to protect your teammates and to intimidate others to boot! I had a terrified goaltender pony as well but it's quite awkward because trying to put goaltender equipment on a quadrupedal creature is really odd. I also have many other doodles of other sports played by ponies but they had weird concepts or just plain looked bad. (Though I did draw Pinkie bouncing a basketball with her chin olololol) The last pony is a personal pony of me, or something. I dunno. I like top hats.

Yes, I still draw Beyblade stuff...oddly enough it tends to be Rei. As you can tell from the two images I do not draw him consistently at all. One looks younger but with closer-to-canon hair, etc. I just realized they have similar poses despite the fact that both images were drawn in different times, even different months. Maybe I like Rei pointing at his chest or something, like a "LOOK AT ME!" kind of gesture. Pay attention to Rei guys, not Kai or Takao or even the bubbly Max. Rei's there too even if he's the mediator and everyman dude. Oh yes and my fingers are so awesome, are they not?

I love drawing animals as well, especially goofy ones. ...yeah that's all I have to say about these ones.

The first image on the left is actually an Ed. I dunno why I randomly drew him but I did, gave him slightly different hair. Or at least I assume him to be Ed. Anytime I throw glasses on something it's likely to be Ed, I dunno. Maybe it isn't Ed and just some dude with glasses, but when I see some Asian with glasses I automatically think Ed. He kind of fits that stereotype y'know? Not to mention I met him and he is Asian, has short cropped black hair, and glasses. Durr.

I threw this demon guy in because I liked his expression. The horns and stuff were last-minute editions. Originally it was just a face with a small fringe, lol. I always have a hard time drawing profile'd animals with their mouths open, so I liked the one I included here. Trying to figure out the perceptive and angle of all the lined up teeth and meaty gums etc. of a mouth, especially an animal mouth is a bit of a challenge but I love drawing them a lot either way.

Finally a few of my manly men drawings. Of everything you see on this picture, I draw shirtless dudes the most. I DON'T KNOW WHY either. I just like improving on how I draw muscle so shirtless dudes ALL the time! It's why I cannot draw clothes because I never draw clothes ,or females because I never draw females. That's why my clothes sucks and my females look male. I cannot do it lol. I always just default to a guy with no shirt on. The one on the left I added for his face though. He looks kind of cool. Also if you've noticed I still do that spiky hair thing. I think I'll blame DBZ for influencing so much of what artstyle I have P:

ANYWAY THAT IS MY ARTS. That is all and thank you for taking a look if you did, even if everything looks smudged and rough as hell. They're just doodles and scraps anyhow.

Perhaps someday I'll have the patience to colour. >_>
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Man this week has been odd.

During the weekend I ingested quite a lot of tea, simply because I was tired of pretty much all the drinks in my vicinity and even beyond. Beer is not exactly a drink you take in often, and even though I do occasionally have a glass, it really does taste like bitter piss. Juice is always clogged with sugar and you always feel a little jumpy when drinking far too much of it. Water is tasteless and milk isn't a flexible drink at all, considering I contract stomachaches if I consume it at certain parts of the day. Everything I've ever drank that I've loved before no longer has the same charm as my memory seems to I just tried some tea...and even that didn't quite hit it up.

Anyway as a result I felt like I was drunk...somehow. I'm not sure, since I've never really been drunk, maybe a tad tipsy that one time but I never really indulge in alcohol. The resulting caffeine (and I have absolutely no idea how much caffeine is even in the tea, or how much of the leaves I'm even supposed to throw in) made me incredibly fidgety. I could not go one second without moving a limb or darting my eyes and for some reason my morale crashed down into the gutters. I felt like an alcoholic at the bar, drowning my sorrows and complaining to a bartender in the number of first-world problems clogging up my life. And at that point I didn't even know why I didn't have the restraint as per usual to flood the waters of the internet of my unhappiness, as I usually do. I always think "well, my problems aren't even many other people have much bigger ones and mine are just inconveniences in comparison. It's pretty pathetic to get worked up over nothing."

Yet, due to this lovely drug called caffeine, I had no qualms about spilling out what I thought was wrong with my life and how much, in my eyes, it sucked even though in reality I'm a very lucky person with awesome awesome friends and an incredibly supportive and helpful family. And I'm glad that I did. I learned through that experience that a lot of my friends are in similar situations...there's probably a reason we all gravitated towards each other in the first place other than we enjoy the same game or anything like that. That I am not alone in how I feel and the whole misconception about males not really being as emotional or sappy, I suppose, as females is mostly a misconception. It's okay to let out your feelings to a guy friend and not just a girl friend. If they're your friend they aren't going to look down upon you or judge you. My trust was not in the right place before, and I jumped over this most recent hurdle thanks to caffeine.

Even so, thanks to these friends and this lovely fandom I am currently enjoying...I've felt like a better person today than a year ago. Today I went to obtain a few ponies from McDonald's...a year ago I couldn't even imagine myself calling a bunch of restaurants asking about toys. I always thought it was so embarrassing and stupid to be doing that, to ask a fast-food joint about their cheap little plastic toys when said toys are not even for a child. In fact, seeing as I am female it would probably be a bit easier and less taxing to walk up to a cashier and request ponies, or call several stores to know if there are ponies there. I am quite the shy and intense terrified individual. It takes up a lot of courage to even post public messages on an image board, even as an anonymous!

And when I obtained those toys? I immediately left the restaurant as fast as possible, but I could not keep in my excitement and threw my arms up in the air the moment I left the door. I unfortunately forgot to zip up my wallet and coins went flying all over the place, so I had to pick them all up, and as embarrassing as it felt at that moment. I easily forgot about that qualm and remained perfectly happy mere moments later. If this was me of the year ago, I'd still be worrying about all those staring strangers wondering why that girl was so incredibly happy and stupidly clumsy. Now? Now I do not care.

Finally, people are all different and they react and take in the sights they see in all sorts of different ways. Just because one friend found an incredible movie or book absolutely life-changing doesn't mean it would do the same to you, even if you too enjoyed the book. Looking for happiness where someone else found some is incredibly counter-productive, because seeking happiness does not always lead to happiness...the definition and how happiness is obtained is not as simple as seeing something that makes someone else smile, and doing the same. People are different and have different views and opinions about everything, even though they may not agree and perhaps often if not always disagree, the difference is what makes humanity special. Although some days I end up questioning why certain groups of people make certain decisions or how they came up with their illogical or nonsensical opinion, that doesn't mean all of humanity is terrible and life is a pointless shallow pursuit.

I was going to make this post a pony one, just listing a few videos and moments from the latest episode I especially I'll just tack it on.

Anyone notice that all the manual labour in this was being done by earth ponies? DISCRIMINATION I SAY!

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Man my favourite ponies have been abusing each other quite a lot lately...

To end this post, perhaps my first attempt at one of these letter things at the risk of sounding like a sappy and cheesy long-gone pony fan, if only because I truly did learn a friendship lesson:

Dear Princess Celestia,

A few days ago I learned that keeping your feelings or problems huddled up inside is not the best way to go about in life, and friends are there to lend a helping hand or a listening ear. Never feel that you may be a bother or your problems too miniscule to be heard, a true friend would never hesitate to help.

Your faithful student, Spotto

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Nice to know I can sit back and have a pitcher with the best ponies.

A week or so ago I heard that not only were the Sedin twins picked to go to the All Stars game (obv.) but Edler was invited this year as well! It made me actually excited for this year's All Star's for once, but he didn't get to do anything during the show. I was very much anticipating Edler showing off his hard shot, which is easily over 100 mph, but no. All he got to do was pass for one of the events (and no it wasn't the passing event) so yeah... :\ Not to mention being the last defensemen picked, but eh...he's always been underrated.

So once again having even a small amount of excitement for a completely pointless event was unnecessary! :X

In other news I made a website. No it's not one of those "Spotto felt like web designing randomly again", I just thought to gather up everything of my clan into one place. Here it is. Besides if I feel like web designing again it'd likely be an actual layout for this blog, lol. thoughts on the latest pony! The Super Speedy Cider Squeezy 6000!

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This was the episode. You can go home now.

If you want the abridged version, I thought it was okay.

The episode was well-received by many pony fans and I suppose it has to do with the new villains who reminded many of that swindler from the Simpsons promoting his MONORAIL. I don't know why I didn't like it as much as I thought I would. I guess it has to do with many factors, including but probably not limited to my incredibly high praise of The Last Roundup (hard to match that awesomeness) or that I actually didn't like the villains themselves. I found it very jarring that they had different pony anatomy to the whole town. Everyone else had the same body type and these guys were much taller and ganglier, which also made their song-dance number all the more off-putting. I didn't find the song all that catchy by the way unlike many others besides the "cider" chanting part from the audience. I even tried to watch the original where the song was heavily inspired from and didn't find it all that catchy either, maybe this type of song isn't my thing? Near the end of the song I was mostly muttering to myself "Wow, this song is REALLY long..." ...and why do one-off villains I don't give jack-all about get such a freakin' long song before AJ even gets one for herself!? I thought since they were singing AJ might get a rebuttal song later on, but their song went on for WAY too long so it was impossible for AJ to get a song later else have little of anything in the episode itself. Blah.

Rainbow Dash not being able to get a drop of cider was rather amusing though and I loved the intro of the episode. Seeing Fluttershy's cottage again is very welcome, but the episode isn't about her. (She's been put with Rainbow Dash A LOT this season...this is just a really silly theory, but I think the writers are putting these two together for a purpose, like they don't know how to write them as well as last season so try to play them off one another. It would explain Rainbow's slightly exaggerated personality this season and Fluttershy's MIA-ness. I've only seen them play off one another for on-screen gags, similar to Pinkie before she got her Baby Cakes episode and brilliant Last Roundup showing)

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Their faces are so weird from this angle. :\

Applejack was pretty awesome this episode. I did love her letter to Celestia, very much surprised me. I didn't think she could be so smug, so it gave her a little bit of jump in character :D. I think I've had an Apple Family overdose this month though. They've been everywhere this season and I don't know why. I can't say it's a bad thing necessarily, but I wonder why they decided to give them so much more screentime over other minor characters. I mean yeah, Spike got his own episode but he's been missing in a few episodes this season and is hardly ever a supporting cast member in the vein of the Mane Six, so I'd see him getting more episodes than the Apple Family. Plus it'd give Twilight more screentime after losing her letter to Celestia excuse to appear in every episode last season. I also want to see more of AJ WITHOUT her family, but that doesn't look like it's going to happen very often this season. Plus with the Apple Family being so prominent, Apple Bloom is getting far more showing than her own friends who IMO are much more entertaining. (WHERE IS THAT SCOOTALOO EPISODE, HUH!?)

In terms of this episode, I give it an A-OK. Not one of my favourites and I wouldn't watch it multiple times, but it wasn't bad. The episode DOES have the greatest title AND acronym of all episode titles: TSSCS6K! Lol. Next up is another Rainbow Dash episode, after that the Valentine's Day one with the CMC and a Pinkie one...I do hope a Fluttershy episode comes about soon. Again, NEED SOME FLUTTERSHY!!

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I don't mean that kind of Fluttershy, Dash.

With that above gif, only Pinkie and kind-of Dash haven't been seen asleep in bed. (I'm thinking since Dash can sleep on anything, be it a cloud or a tree, she doesn't have her own bed P:) With Pinkie however, her room seems to have been ret-conned to be much smaller since the babies were born. Simple explanation really, when Spike destroyed her house in Secret of my Excess it was rebuilt with more rooms so there's one for the babies now and Pinkie's room is a lot smaller. That doesn't explain where the hell the Cakes were staying in Party of One, but maybe they sold their house to rebuild the bakery and now live above with Pinkie?? Who knows.

That has all, Spotto out.
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this is long so I cut it )

I think I should post more interesting ones. Oh well, this place will serve as a semi-archive of these things. :D

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 I have no idea why I am posting these.

01/04 22:57:16 Spotto: well my computer killed itself

01/04 22:57:21 Spotto: can you relink your animelist wolfe

01/04 23:01:45 edmendduke:

01/04 23:01:46 edmendduke: LOL

01/04 23:07:29 Wolfe: ye

01/04 23:07:41 Wolfe:

01/04 23:09:07 Spotto: Hmm, I see

01/04 23:18:32 Doughboy:

01/04 23:20:00 Doughboy: wow spot u gave shizune a rank

01/04 23:20:05 Doughboy: why u do dis

01/04 23:20:43 magus: what happen?

01/04 23:21:08 Spotto: he be discord

01/04 23:21:15 Spotto: the bringer of chaos and disharmony

01/04 23:21:36 Spotto: he owns meowing umbrellas and exploding chocolate milk

01/04 23:22:13 magus: well my brother is taking over my computer

01/04 23:22:15 magus: see you guys

01/04 23:22:18 Spotto: bye

01/04 23:22:23 'magus' has left the chat.

01/04 23:27:02 *** You have been disconnected from the server ***

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01/05 00:01:33 Doughboy:

01/05 00:02:55 edmendduke: man I am tired

01/05 00:02:57 edmendduke: q___q

01/05 00:03:03 Spotto: damn doughboy

01/05 00:03:08 Spotto: that animation is amazing

01/05 00:03:10 Doughboy: I made that as you can see

01/05 00:03:10 cunchy: I am in the weird part of youtube

01/05 00:03:13 cunchy: "burrito making in space"

01/05 00:03:51 Doughboy: here's another one of my drawing tutorials for you aspiring artists out there:

01/05 00:04:16 Doughboy: the music is the important part, remember to turn up your sound

01/05 00:04:25 Spotto: I wish I didn't have my volume so loud on my headphones

01/05 00:04:57 Spotto: this is highly informative

01/05 00:05:13 Spotto: the technical skill required to shape his spikes like so must be ridiculous

01/05 00:05:50 Spotto: what a clever way of including blue outside the body as well

01/05 00:05:59 Doughboy: dude you know it

01/05 00:06:01 Doughboy: sanic has aura

01/05 00:09:23 Doughboy: hyadain why so gosu

01/05 00:09:52 Spotto: I still can't believe he posted that on November 2nd :X

01/05 00:11:42 Doughboy:

01/05 00:11:52 Doughboy: I wanna be this guy when I grow up

01/05 00:19:06 Victor:

01/05 00:20:03 Doughboy: man the hyadain is pretty good

01/05 00:20:36 Doughboy: kind've quiet at beginning

01/05 00:23:15 Doughboy: cover art too good

01/05 00:23:42 Spotto: wait what are you talking about

01/05 00:23:50 Doughboy: duet album

01/05 00:23:54 Spotto: oh

01/05 00:24:08 Spotto: see you just posted a hyadain link so I thought you comment on his actualy songs durr

01/05 00:24:17 Doughboy: o my bad

01/05 00:24:24 Doughboy: you should watch the sexy sax man video

01/05 00:24:28 Spotto: I did

01/05 00:24:33 Spotto: saw it before

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01/05 00:29:26 edmendduke: fecking hell

01/05 00:29:34 edmendduke: so I'm bored and I decide to play WoT a bit

01/05 00:29:42 edmendduke: "World of Tanks version 7.1 comes to the North American cluster on January 5, 2012."

01/05 00:29:44 edmendduke: fuuuUUUUUUUUUU

01/05 00:29:48 Spotto: lol

01/05 00:30:08 edmendduke: in fact it just started about 3.5 hours ago

01/05 00:30:10 edmendduke: :|

01/05 00:30:11 'Doughboy' has left the chat.

01/05 00:30:19 edmendduke: oh btw french tanks are out

01/05 00:30:23 'Doughboy' has joined the chat.

01/05 00:30:24 Spotto: hurrah

01/05 00:30:28 edmendduke: well, after this maintenece it will be

01/05 00:31:52 cunchy: omg y u afk

01/05 00:31:54 cunchy: y u hate me

01/05 00:31:55 cunchy: Y

01/05 00:31:57 cunchy: Y Y Y

01/05 00:32:00 Doughboy: playin css

01/05 00:32:04 Doughboy: gotta try hard

01/05 00:32:06 cunchy: omfg

01/05 00:32:29 'Spotto' has left the chat.

01/05 00:33:04 Victor:

01/05 00:37:40 edmendduke: lololoo

01/05 00:57:32 'Victor' has left the chat.

01/05 00:58:19 'Victor' has joined the chat.

01/05 01:13:20 'Doughboy' has left the chat.

01/05 01:13:23 'Doughboy' has joined the chat.

01/05 01:31:22 'Verisi' has joined the chat.

01/05 01:31:25 Verisi:

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01/05 01:38:26 Doughboy: +1 (415) <number> "soryy forry being such a drubk bitch. thjanks you"

01/05 01:38:46 Spotto: did someone text the wrong number lol

01/05 01:38:47 Doughboy: best random text I've gotten in ahwile

01/05 01:38:52 Spotto: hahaha

01/05 01:39:20 Doughboy: people call me and know my name sometimes and then don't say who they are and then I hang up

01/05 01:39:46 Spotto: how do they get your number

01/05 01:39:55 Doughboy: beats me

01/05 01:40:01 Doughboy: I don't put my number online

01/05 01:40:07 Doughboy: on any social networking

01/05 01:40:09 Doughboy: thing

01/05 01:40:11 Doughboy: so iono

01/05 01:40:16 Spotto: STALKERS

01/05 01:40:22 Doughboy: halp

01/05 01:40:27 Spotto: STALKERS

01/05 01:40:31 Spotto: storkers

01/05 01:40:34 Spotto: tts is odd

01/05 01:40:38 Doughboy: dude

01/05 01:40:46 Doughboy: who knew I had all these protoss after me

01/05 01:40:53 Spotto: protass

01/05 01:41:59 Doughboy:

01/05 01:43:35 Doughboy:

01/05 01:51:09 Spotto: Decide what I eat

01/05 01:51:11 Spotto: Corn Pops

01/05 01:51:15 Spotto: Fruit Loops

01/05 01:51:21 Spotto: Applejacks

01/05 01:51:25 Spotto: Bagels

01/05 01:51:26 Doughboy: I think you should put the team on your back do

01/05 01:51:29 Spotto: Chicken Noodle Soup

01/05 01:51:34 Spotto: Waffles

01/05 01:51:39 Spotto: Homemade cake

01/05 01:51:44 Spotto: Banana

01/05 01:51:46 Spotto: ?

01/05 01:52:13 Spotto: But there's almost no more Applejacks because I keep eating them

01/05 01:52:15 Spotto: BUT OKAY

01/05 01:53:00 edmendduke: CAKE

01/05 01:53:00 Spotto: surprisingly good cereal though :X like it better than the rest, tied with Life

01/05 01:53:02 edmendduke: CAKEEEE

01/05 01:53:06 Spotto: what did cunchy say he was quiet

01/05 01:53:07 Spotto: @_@

01/05 01:53:12 edmendduke: although I'd eat chicken noodle soup

01/05 01:53:17 edmendduke: cause I ill

01/05 01:53:20 Spotto: Lol

01/05 01:53:20 edmendduke: <_<

01/05 01:53:33 Spotto: What is in the cake you made, Cunchy

01/05 01:53:47 cunchy: Essence of unicorn tears

01/05 01:53:55 cunchy: Two cups of Autumn day

01/05 01:54:10 Spotto: Unicorn tears you say

01/05 01:54:14 cunchy: yes

01/05 01:54:14 Spotto: autumn day you say

01/05 01:54:17 cunchy: yes

01/05 01:54:28 Spotto: I tried Life because of you guys

01/05 01:54:30 Spotto: you were like EAT LIFE

01/05 01:54:41 Spotto: my bro hates it though

01/05 01:54:44 Spotto: says it's bland like cheerios

01/05 01:55:00 Spotto: we have a bagel toaster

01/05 01:55:22 Spotto: What happens if I grab half a bagel and a waffle

01/05 01:55:22 cunchy: I have a normal toaster

01/05 01:55:39 Spotto: and then put bananas, applejacks, and homemade cake between it

01/05 01:55:49 cunchy: hersesy

01/05 01:56:31 Doughboy: dude

01/05 01:56:33 Doughboy: cunchy

01/05 01:56:41 Doughboy: bring your aussies on a road trip to san francisco

01/05 01:56:51 Spotto: well I'm gonna grab a waffle, a bowl of applejacks and two slices of cake (another friend said waffles) so

01/05 01:57:04 Spotto: brb

01/05 01:57:07 cunchy: can you also try

01/05 01:57:09 cunchy: unicorn steak

01/05 01:57:18 Spotto: unicorn steak you say

01/05 01:57:39 Spotto: I'd be offended if I liked the unicorns in MLP

01/05 01:57:51 Doughboy: only if it's veal

01/05 01:57:52 cunchy: but these are wild unicorn

01/05 01:57:55 cunchy: not people unicorn

01/05 01:58:02 Spotto: I never said I was offended

01/05 01:58:05 Doughboy: unicorn veal is pretty good

01/05 01:58:09 Spotto: Wait

01/05 01:58:13 Spotto: not unicorn veal

01/05 01:58:15 Spotto: >:

01/05 01:58:17 Spotto: that is horrible doughboy

01/05 01:58:20 Doughboy: dude

01/05 01:58:25 Doughboy: i put the team on my back do

01/05 01:58:40 Doughboy: dude ed you should come to san francisco on a road trip

01/05 01:58:53 Spotto: I went to san francisco on a road trip before

01/05 01:58:58 Spotto: pity we couldn't meet up

01/05 01:59:03 Spotto: considering I was five

01/05 01:59:11 Doughboy: wow

01/05 01:59:13 Doughboy: why didn't you call me

01/05 01:59:18 Spotto: we'd play with our tricycles

01/05 01:59:22 Doughboy: yeah bruh

01/05 01:59:26 Spotto: my phone was only a toy phone

01/05 01:59:27 Doughboy: I mean gruh

01/05 01:59:30 Spotto: it doesn't actually work

01/05 01:59:31 Spotto: :C

01/05 01:59:48 Doughboy: oh I meant like if you yell loud enough the other person can you hear you

01/05 01:59:55 Doughboy: *can hear you

01/05 02:00:08 Spotto: I don't think I knew much English either

01/05 02:00:11 Doughboy: man I'm pretty dyslexic

01/05 02:00:18 Spotto: that's fine so am I

01/05 02:00:30 Spotto: Dough I lost my favourite teddy bear in San Fran

01/05 02:00:32 Spotto: have you found it yet

01/05 02:00:35 Spotto: I asked before

01/05 02:00:36 Doughboy: yeah you told me before

01/05 02:00:46 Doughboy: ongoing investigation.

01/05 02:00:50 Spotto: It's an orangey brown bear

01/05 02:00:53 Spotto: with pink overalls I think

01/05 02:00:54 Doughboy: shizune is off the case.

01/05 02:01:09 Spotto: my bro also threw my hat into a stream or something

01/05 02:01:11 Spotto: can you find that too

01/05 02:01:24 Spotto: like one of those white sun hats with a bow on it

01/05 02:01:30 Spotto: I don't remember if it was polka dotted

01/05 02:01:32 Spotto: maybe it was

01/05 02:03:08 cunchy: edmendduke

01/05 02:03:09 cunchy: these FOE

01/05 02:03:23 Spotto: okay grabbed foods

01/05 02:03:25 Doughboy: shizune apparently got tickets to playoff 49er game here. and he wants to sell them for ice cream

01/05 02:03:31 Spotto: grabbing*

01/05 02:03:34 Spotto: wait

01/05 02:03:37 Spotto: for srs?

01/05 02:04:02 Doughboy: i dun think he wants to sell them, but he did get them and they're wasted because he doesn't watch football.

01/05 02:04:18 Spotto: then he should give them to you :D

01/05 02:04:25 Doughboy: he a hater

01/05 02:04:28 Spotto: lol

01/05 02:04:54 Spotto: okay getting fuds for real this time

01/05 02:04:58 Doughboy: no wait

01/05 02:05:00 Doughboy: lol jk

01/05 02:05:01 Spotto: what

01/05 02:05:03 Spotto: amjkfdsf

01/05 02:05:06 Spotto: BRB

01/05 02:06:34 cunchy: FUCK FOE

01/05 02:06:36 cunchy: FUCK.

01/05 02:06:40 cunchy: Accidentally ran into one

01/05 02:06:42 Doughboy: ?

01/05 02:11:32 Spotto: is anyone else here terrified of toasters

01/05 02:11:40 Spotto: because i do not want to be in the kitchen when that waffle pops out

01/05 02:12:01 Doughboy: uh I get more careful than probably normal when taking waffles out

01/05 02:12:07 Doughboy: but

01/05 02:12:11 Doughboy: mine is a toaster oven

01/05 02:12:13 Doughboy: so

01/05 02:12:22 Doughboy: I burn myself a lot

01/05 02:12:34 Doughboy: doesn't really hurt

01/05 02:12:40 Doughboy: callouses from slapping the bass

01/05 02:15:16 Spotto: oh well

01/05 02:15:24 Spotto: my fear of toasters is not from being burnt

01/05 02:15:31 Spotto: even if i have burnt myself with a toaster oven before

01/05 02:15:37 Spotto: but from its sudden popping out

01/05 02:15:44 Doughboy: I see

01/05 02:15:53 Spotto: HAI GAIS I AM HERE TO BE EATEN!!!!!!!!!!!! is what it feels like

01/05 02:17:22 Spotto: the only thing I dislike about Life

01/05 02:17:29 Spotto: is that it gets soggy too fast

01/05 02:17:42 Doughboy: my sister doesn't like that either

01/05 02:17:53 Doughboy: but I actually prefer it soggy, lol

01/05 02:17:58 Spotto: I don't mind leaving Applejacks to sit in the milk for a bit, or honey nut cheerios

01/05 02:18:01 Doughboy: but I eat it both ways

01/05 02:18:06 Spotto: but Life turns into mush

01/05 02:18:08 Spotto: how do you eat mush

01/05 02:18:15 Doughboy: eh it retains a bit of form

01/05 02:18:22 Doughboy: just enough to be enjoyable :D

01/05 02:18:26 Spotto: :X

01/05 02:18:32 Doughboy: not for everyone, I'm sure

01/05 02:18:52 Doughboy: but what I like about life is that I can eat like 2 bowls a day for like 2 weeks and not get sick of it

01/05 02:19:06 Doughboy: it's the only cereal I don't have to rotate really

01/05 02:19:55 Spotto: I can get bored of it over time, but it takes longer than other cereals

01/05 02:20:13 Spotto: I'm a little sad Applejacks are so rare in Canada

01/05 02:20:22 Doughboy: applejacks are hella good

01/05 02:20:26 Spotto: only reason I found these was they came in a three-pack with fruit loops and corn pops

01/05 02:20:40 Spotto: and I don't want to eat the other two just for applejacks :C

01/05 02:20:51 Doughboy: corn pops aren't very good imo, and fruit loops are meh

01/05 02:21:05 Spotto: I like corn pops more than fruit loops lol but they're not my favourites

01/05 02:21:08 Doughboy: fruit loops get the job done but I'm not like "YAY FRUIT LOOPS"

01/05 02:21:14 Doughboy: when I see new box

01/05 02:21:34 Doughboy: when I see new box of applejacks or cinnamon toast crunch I get hyped

01/05 02:21:38 Doughboy: lolol

01/05 02:22:37 Spotto: O: I think I had cinnamon toast crunch like once

01/05 02:22:46 Spotto: there was  french toast crunch I loved but it got discontinued I think

01/05 02:23:00 Spotto: How to find Applejacks in Canada halp

01/05 02:23:05 Doughboy: I'll mail you some

01/05 02:23:07 Spotto: I typed Applejacks cereal in vancouver on google and got MLP

01/05 02:23:09 Doughboy: trolol

01/05 02:23:14 cunchy: how to find them in australia

01/05 02:23:19 Doughboy: so

01/05 02:23:23 Doughboy: I went to dentist today

01/05 02:23:30 Doughboy: and they teeth cleaning and stuff

01/05 02:23:39 Doughboy: and the lady was like trying to make small talk with me

01/05 02:23:50 Doughboy: and she was like "seen any movies over your break?"

01/05 02:24:24 Doughboy: and I said "nothing new, not many good movies in theatres. watched some older movies though "

01/05 02:24:38 Doughboy: and she says "oh that's kind've boring"

01/05 02:24:46 Doughboy: and I double take like "lolwut"

01/05 02:24:53 Spotto: and my first impression is "what a b

01/05 02:25:08 Doughboy: it was weird on multiple levels

01/05 02:25:32 Spotto: I heard the new Muppets movie is surprisingly good though

01/05 02:25:39 Doughboy: yeah

01/05 02:25:42 Doughboy: I forgot about that

01/05 02:25:47 Doughboy: I was only thinking of

01/05 02:25:54 Doughboy: sherlock holmes and mission impossible

01/05 02:26:24 Doughboy: as the best theaters had to offer atm

01/05 02:26:42 cunchy: The Adventures of TinTin

01/05 02:26:45 cunchy: Is very good

01/05 02:26:45 Doughboy: but yeah my friend said muppets good, and he usually good judgment. but yeah I was very taken aback by that lady

01/05 02:26:48 cunchy: Also the comics are very good

01/05 02:27:37 Doughboy: why are they good

01/05 02:27:40 Spotto: I heard TinTin was real good too

01/05 02:28:05 Spotto: I think I grabbed too much cake

01/05 02:28:14 Spotto: should've just took one slice

01/05 02:28:20 Spotto: damn you for your unhealthy suggestions

01/05 02:28:26 Doughboy: what

01/05 02:28:45 Doughboy: i suggested applejacks and told you cake was poisoned by cunchy

01/05 02:28:52 Spotto: unicorn tears

01/05 02:28:54 Doughboy: qmft


01/05 02:30:55 Doughboy: you put the on your back do

01/05 02:31:24 Spotto: also we had ramen and I forgot to mention

01/05 02:31:41 Spotto: but I don't drink milk and salty things one after another so

01/05 02:33:12 Doughboy: *boils the milk with the ramen*

01/05 02:33:24 Spotto: you fiend

01/05 02:33:27 Spotto: that is against nature

01/05 02:33:31 Spotto: you should not be playing god

01/05 02:33:38 Doughboy: nah gruh it's not too bafd

01/05 02:33:43 Doughboy: *bad

01/05 02:34:07 Spotto: I am suing you for damages if we survive the potential implosion of the universe

01/05 02:34:15 Doughboy: psh

01/05 02:34:41 Doughboy: coming from the one who wanted to make a suicide sandwich of bagel waffle applejack cake

01/05 02:34:51 Spotto: you forgot bananas

01/05 02:34:58 Doughboy: bananas are bad for you

01/05 02:35:29 Spotto: but its radiation content could give me super powers

01/05 02:36:23 *** You have been disconnected from the server ***

01/05 02:36:33 *** You have been reconnected to the server ***

01/05 02:38:52 Spotto: wait

01/05 02:38:55 Spotto: cunchy this cake

01/05 02:38:59 Spotto: it has YOUR tears

01/05 02:39:01 Spotto: !!

01/05 02:39:12 Spotto: you FIEND

01/05 02:39:19 Doughboy: I told you it was poison >_>

01/05 02:39:22 cunchy: wad

01/05 02:39:26 cunchy: is that a good thing?

01/05 02:39:36 Spotto: yes cunchy, poison is a good thing >_>

01/05 02:39:46 cunchy: It could be good poison ):

01/05 02:39:47 Doughboy: this guy

01/05 02:39:56 Doughboy: always trying to make some plan to kill spot

01/05 02:40:01 Doughboy: he's a tenacious fellow.

01/05 02:40:34 Spotto: >:

01/05 02:40:59 Spotto: anyway I am busy switching titles for people who haven't come to vent in a while

01/05 02:44:28 Spotto: which is basically Berto and CRAZY

01/05 02:44:29 Spotto: whee

01/05 02:44:42 cunchy: no need for a peterfile academy then

01/05 02:45:04 Doughboy: who on here is Braeburn?

01/05 02:45:10 edmendduke: 9 days till elections

01/05 02:45:17 Spotto: someone who never comes here

01/05 02:45:28 edmendduke: to an outsider like me it really feels like a cult

01/05 02:45:29 edmendduke: <_<

01/05 02:45:35 edmendduke: cult of green vs cult of blue

01/05 02:45:36 edmendduke: >_>

01/05 02:45:44 Spotto: is there a cult of yellow

01/05 02:45:51 Doughboy: the greens vs the blues

01/05 02:45:53 edmendduke: there's orange but they're like

01/05 02:45:58 edmendduke: 5% in terms of votes

01/05 02:45:59 Doughboy: that was a byzantine thing.

01/05 02:46:03 edmendduke: so I wouldn't call them a cult

01/05 02:46:07 Spotto: no reds?

01/05 02:46:13 edmendduke: because they're acknowledged as never gonna win

01/05 02:46:16 Spotto: it's usually blues vs. reds in the west

01/05 02:46:16 Doughboy: the circus of the blues and the circus of the greens was a real thing

01/05 02:46:19 edmendduke: (presidential election btw)

01/05 02:46:26 edmendduke: blues is more china-oriented

01/05 02:46:32 edmendduke: green is taiwan independence oriented

01/05 02:46:51 Victor: oi aldo oi aldo

01/05 02:47:41 Victor: dang afk..

01/05 02:48:04 edmendduke: looooool

01/05 02:48:07 edmendduke: faceoff

01/05 02:48:10 edmendduke: in the streets

01/05 02:48:14 edmendduke: weeeeeee

spotto: (:O)
 have a silly ventrilo conversation

11/14 23:29:43 Doughboy: I added the most important rooms back

11/14 23:30:01 Spotto: what does peterfile mean

11/14 23:30:06 Spotto: and if I'm dumb for not knowing please inform me

11/14 23:30:32 Doughboy: it's what pedophile sounds like when pronounced by a brit

11/14 23:30:43 Spotto: Lol

11/14 23:30:51 Spotto: YOU GOT MINE WRONG

11/14 23:30:55 Doughboy: it's like canadians with about they say aboot

11/14 23:31:02 'Victorrrrr' has left the chat.

11/14 23:31:11 Doughboy: WHOOPSIE DAISY

11/14 23:31:32 Doughboy: there we go mine is fixed

11/14 23:31:44 Spotto: too bad all the DBZ names are gone

11/14 23:31:55 Spotto: I have this urge to replace those with ponies but I feel everyone will be annoyed by that

11/14 23:31:58 Doughboy: i can't be bothered to add lawl

11/14 23:32:27 Verisi: MLP :3

11/14 23:32:37 Doughboy: I made admin room 4 you souleh

11/14 23:32:41 Spotto: Souless is Rainbow Dash

11/14 23:32:45 Doughboy: boo

11/14 23:32:50 Doughboy: that is not fitting

11/14 23:32:52 Doughboy: imo

11/14 23:32:55 Spotto: you don't even watch

11/14 23:32:59 Doughboy: I seen

11/14 23:33:01 Doughboy: I seen

11/14 23:33:02 Spotto: lies

11/14 23:33:07 Doughboy: yee I seen mlp

11/14 23:33:10 Spotto: lies

11/14 23:33:13 Doughboy: he's more like

11/14 23:33:18 Doughboy: apple jack

11/14 23:33:19 Verisi: Gummy

11/14 23:33:19 Doughboy: LOL

11/14 23:33:31 Spotto: I made you Applejack

11/14 23:33:32 Doughboy: victor is definitely that derpy one though

11/14 23:33:36 Doughboy: ew whhy

11/14 23:33:49 Spotto: Because Applejack is dependable and honest

11/14 23:33:51 Doughboy: I was trying to give souless the worst one and you give to me instead

11/14 23:33:59 Doughboy: oh ok I only seen two episodes

11/14 23:34:01 Spotto: I like AJ D:

11/14 23:34:03 Doughboy: lolololol

11/14 23:34:11 Spotto: Berto is Scootaloo

11/14 23:34:23 Spotto: or Sweetie Belle

11/14 23:34:25 Spotto: one or the other

11/14 23:34:28 Doughboy: berto should be spike

11/14 23:34:33 Doughboy: that baby dragon thing

11/14 23:34:38 Doughboy: since berto is babby

11/14 23:34:48 Spotto: yeah but Spike is more mature than the ponies I mentioned

11/14 23:34:54 Doughboy: oh ok

11/14 23:34:56 Doughboy: hm

11/14 23:35:07 Doughboy: I think ed is rarity

11/14 23:35:21 Spotto: he's fabulous?

11/14 23:35:23 Spotto: okay

11/14 23:35:25 Doughboy: yeah

11/14 23:35:30 Spotto: Cunchy is Twlight

11/14 23:35:33 Verisi: Yes

11/14 23:35:34 Doughboy: ye

11/14 23:35:34 Spotto: Twilight*

11/14 23:35:42 Doughboy: spot should be fluttershy

11/14 23:36:04 Spotto: :X I would be background pony #4

11/14 23:36:08 Doughboy: No.

11/14 23:36:14 Verisi: Nop

11/14 23:36:16 Doughboy: I change mind souless is derpy

11/14 23:36:28 Verisi: You just mad

11/14 23:36:34 Doughboy: :333333333333

11/14 23:36:43 Verisi: I most like Gummy

11/14 23:36:51 Doughboy: nah mang nah

11/14 23:36:54 Spotto: I dunno, you have strong opinions

11/14 23:36:57 Spotto: Gummy has no opinions

11/14 23:36:58 Verisi: You don't even know who Gummy is

11/14 23:37:04 Doughboy: yeah I do

11/14 23:37:12 Doughboy: she sings songs and has green hair

11/14 23:37:14 Doughboy: LOL

11/14 23:37:50 Verisi: Wtf Kpop where did this come from

11/14 23:37:57 Doughboy: kpop what

11/14 23:38:05 Doughboy: as in the vocaloid gumi

11/14 23:38:06 Verisi:

11/14 23:38:08 Verisi: This is Gummy

11/14 23:38:15 Spotto: if you are Gummy who owns you

11/14 23:38:26 Verisi: Yes

11/14 23:38:39 Doughboy: this gummy

11/14 23:38:40 Doughboy:

11/14 23:38:43 Doughboy: also souley

11/14 23:39:27 Verisi: Man the leaf colors are crazy over there :u

11/14 23:40:12 Spotto: the red tree on our lawn is unique to us in the neighbourhood P:

11/14 23:40:26 Doughboy: wat

11/14 23:40:35 Spotto:

11/14 23:43:41 Doughboy: Lol dat weather

11/14 23:43:55 Doughboy: that is a cul tree

11/14 23:44:14 Spotto: it's a nice small tree

11/14 23:44:18 Spotto: in comparison to the gigantic trees

11/14 23:44:25 Spotto: we rake leaves very often

11/14 23:46:39 Spotto: also souless 'Yes' answers no questions

11/14 23:46:55 Verisi: Yes

11/14 23:47:31 Spotto: also I change my mind

11/14 23:47:36 Spotto: Doughboy is Pinkie Pie

11/14 23:47:40 Spotto: because Pinkie is my favourite

11/14 23:47:49 Verisi: ?????????????????????

11/14 23:47:50 Doughboy: pinkie pie is cu

11/14 23:47:53 Doughboy: *cul

11/14 23:47:56 Doughboy: I approve

11/14 23:48:03 Verisi: Toboe is like opposite of Pinkie Pie

11/14 23:48:09 Doughboy: GET OUT OF HERE

11/14 23:48:10 Spotto: Well I dunno who be Pinkie Pie

11/14 23:48:19 Doughboy: RESPECT SPOT JUDGMENT

11/14 23:48:28 Doughboy: verisi is nightmare moon

11/14 23:48:42 Doughboy: or w/e that evil pony was called

11/14 23:51:04 Spotto: then who do you think Doughboy is

11/14 23:51:09 Spotto: he's not bold enough for Rainbow Dash

11/14 23:51:22 Doughboy: no one on vent is tho

11/14 23:51:23 Spotto: no offense Doughboy P:

11/14 23:51:28 Spotto: well true

11/14 23:51:28 Doughboy: nah I agree

11/14 23:51:31 Verisi: AJ obv

11/14 23:51:35 Spotto: okay

11/14 23:51:43 Doughboy: >:c

11/14 23:51:46 Spotto: but only if Souless is Rainbow Dash

11/14 23:51:48 Doughboy: freakin AJ

11/14 23:52:23 Spotto: why is cunchy playing hlep me

11/14 23:52:27 Spotto: is that a real game

11/14 23:55:56 Doughboy: ed should be granny smith

11/14 23:55:59 Doughboy: lololol

11/14 23:56:17 Spotto: I was gonna say Princess Celestia because she's like 1000 years old but okay

11/14 23:56:29 Doughboy: yeah but doesn't show signs of aging

11/14 23:57:39 'Victorrrrr' has left the chat.

11/14 23:57:43 'Verisi' has left the chat.

11/15 00:06:27 Spotto: even though no one in this vent is bold enough to be Rainbow Dash

11/15 00:06:55 Spotto: I think Souless is because he has strong opinions and can be very harsh of others P:

11/15 00:07:16 Spotto: and no one is Pinkie Pie because we're all introverts

11/15 00:07:20 Doughboy: souless is derpy

11/15 00:07:20 Spotto: that is all

11/15 00:07:29 Spotto: then who is Victor

11/15 00:07:34 Doughboy: also depry

11/15 00:07:37 Doughboy: *derpy

11/15 00:07:40 Doughboy: l0l

11/15 00:07:41 Spotto: ONLY ONE

11/15 00:07:42 Shizune: I'll be fluttershy

11/15 00:07:43 Shizune: no

11/15 00:07:50 Doughboy: NO SPOT IS FLUTTERSHY GET OT

11/15 00:07:55 Doughboy: get out boy

11/15 00:08:00 Shizune: no that's the only pony I know

11/15 00:08:02 Doughboy: I'll shank you

11/15 00:08:05 Shizune: no

11/15 00:08:07 Doughboy: you can't be fluttersinged

11/15 00:08:16 Shizune: I don't even play singed silly

11/15 00:08:16 Spotto: there's a fluttersticks out there too

11/15 00:08:24 Spotto: do you play fiddlesticks

11/15 00:08:30 Shizune:

11/15 00:08:32 Doughboy: no he's bad at every champ

11/15 00:08:34 Shizune: you guys should watch this

11/15 00:08:36 Spotto: I played both Fiddlesticks and Singed

11/15 00:08:36 Shizune: yes I am

11/15 00:08:41 Shizune: you guys should watch that video

11/15 00:09:03 Shizune: yo andrew did you watch the fizz spotlight?

11/15 00:09:06 Doughboy: yes

11/15 00:09:11 Shizune: is he a little like monkey king?

11/15 00:09:15 Spotto: is it as good as the physics one

11/15 00:09:17 Doughboy: No.

11/15 00:09:17 Shizune: with the jumping?

11/15 00:09:21 Shizune: mm

11/15 00:09:22 Doughboy: Not at all

11/15 00:09:26 Shizune: that's what it reminded me of

11/15 00:09:32 Shizune: they both jump a lot

11/15 00:09:38 Doughboy: god damn't

11/15 00:09:45 Spotto: is this presentation as good as the physics one

11/15 00:09:48 Doughboy: you keep comparing these LoL heroes

11/15 00:09:51 Shizune: physics?

11/15 00:09:53 Doughboy: to HoN heroes

11/15 00:09:54 Shizune: I don't know what oyu mean

11/15 00:09:58 Doughboy: I think it's the same one spot

11/15 00:10:04 Spotto: the physics one is the best and I think the rest are terrible in comparison

11/15 00:10:21 Spotto:

11/15 00:10:23 Doughboy: I think the physics wone is taken out of this vid

11/15 00:10:32 Doughboy: o nvm

11/15 00:11:25 Shizune: mine is better

11/15 00:11:32 Doughboy: no the physics is def. better

11/15 00:11:50 Shizune: no

11/15 00:11:56 Spotto: well it's okay if yours is better, but I hope you don't mind if I like mine more

11/15 00:12:02 Shizune: I do mind

11/15 00:12:10 Spotto: You failed the Fluttershy test

11/15 00:12:13 Shizune: because the one I linked is the best my little pony presentation ever

11/15 00:12:24 Shizune: this guy is an amazing talker

11/15 00:12:26 Doughboy: shizune is faggotdash

11/15 00:12:51 Spotto: and I have watched yours before

11/15 00:13:16 Shizune: "this meme has spread like wildfiire" -setzer "the bomb" trancer

11/15 00:13:49 Spotto: or wait nevermind I confused it with another

11/15 00:15:07 Shizune: is there any porn of my little pony?

11/15 00:15:20 Doughboy: god damn't get out of here faggotdash, fuck

11/15 00:15:44 Shizune: give me admin so I can have big e-peen and not ever use it because I'll forget to come on here

11/15 00:15:58 Spotto: I agree with Doughboy

11/15 00:16:04 Spotto: you are Rainbow Dash

11/15 00:16:17 Shizune: is that the one with the...rainbow hair I'm assuming?

11/15 00:16:26 Spotto: no it's the one with pink hair

11/15 00:16:30 Doughboy: it's the asshole of all ponies

11/15 00:16:33 Shizune: and white skin?

11/15 00:16:38 Doughboy: so I mean it probably fits you

11/15 00:16:40 Spotto: no that's the one with purple hair

11/15 00:17:24 Shizune: jesus christ I'm watching the first episode

11/15 00:17:44 Spotto: Most people start liking it around the 3rd/4th episode

11/15 00:17:45 Shizune: and I'd rather watch the first episode of that zelda show on loop than watch this

11/15 00:17:56 Doughboy: you're exagerating

11/15 00:18:04 Doughboy: stop trying to prove you have a penis

11/15 00:18:06 Doughboy: srs

11/15 00:18:10 Spotto: But if you don't like it it's okay

11/15 00:18:13 Doughboy: no it's not

11/15 00:18:15 Shizune: or that I'm not a child

11/15 00:18:28 Shizune: hey I'm not insulting anyone

11/15 00:18:30 Doughboy: it means he's homophobic and is an old lady

11/15 00:18:42 Shizune: I mean if you like barbies except they aren't humans

11/15 00:18:45 Shizune: good for you andrew

11/15 00:18:51 Doughboy: see

11/15 00:18:52 Shizune: I'm proud that you've found your way

11/15 00:19:00 Doughboy: old ladies don't form coherent english sentences

11/15 00:19:03 Doughboy: it fits.

11/15 00:19:05 Shizune: daddy is proud

11/15 00:19:47 Spotto: also you're made of dark matter Doughboy

11/15 00:19:53 Doughboy: yeah I noticed that

11/15 00:20:05 Shizune:

11/15 00:20:31 Shizune:

11/15 00:20:39 Shizune: I think I'm actually going to listen to this song now

11/15 00:21:16 Doughboy: worst dance I've ever seen

11/15 00:21:20 Doughboy: because you linked it

11/15 00:21:32 Shizune: well I have a surprise for you that I know you'll like

11/15 00:21:33 Shizune:

11/15 00:21:35 Doughboy: I bet you mad that no 9 tails

11/15 00:21:58 Doughboy: they canceled 9 tails

11/15 00:22:08 Shizune: dude when I go to korea

11/15 00:22:13 Shizune: I'm going to join the LoL pro league

11/15 00:22:21 Shizune: apparently one of the high elo players works at mbc or something

11/15 00:22:32 Doughboy: you realize

11/15 00:22:36 Doughboy: mbc is a music channel now

11/15 00:22:37 Doughboy: right?

11/15 00:22:40 Shizune: yeah I know

11/15 00:22:50 Shizune: but probably has connections with ogn and whatever it was

11/15 00:23:01 Shizune: because like casters were on both channels

11/15 00:23:06 Doughboy: "so uh..could you get me Jaedong's autograph xD"

11/15 00:23:12 Doughboy: that's you.

11/15 00:23:21 Shizune: l0l, I would suck jaedong's dick

11/15 00:23:29 Doughboy: yeah I don't doubt it

11/15 00:23:34 Shizune: dude he's hot as shit

11/15 00:23:37 Shizune: he would just beckon

11/15 00:23:41 Shizune: and my pants would come flying off

11/15 00:23:59 Doughboy: good thing berto isn't on vent, he is 9 and does need to be reading this

11/15 00:24:05 Doughboy: *doesn't

11/15 00:24:07 Doughboy: fff

11/15 00:24:08 Doughboy: l0l

11/15 00:24:14 Shizune: my apologies, I will wait until he arrives

11/15 00:24:18 Shizune: and then start talking about it again

11/15 00:24:24 Spotto: he never went on the backup vent

11/15 00:24:28 Spotto: how will he know to come here

11/15 00:24:31 Spotto: did no one inform him

11/15 00:24:32 Doughboy: vcitor

11/15 00:24:34 Doughboy: maybe

11/15 00:24:38 Doughboy: *victor

11/15 00:24:46 Doughboy: let me go get on hon and see if any of those aussies on

11/15 00:24:51 Spotto: okay

11/15 00:24:59 Shizune: are you sure 10 couldn't have been enough?

11/15 00:25:12 Shizune: just kick an aussie or two if they fill it up l0l

11/15 00:25:18 Doughboy: total people adds up to over 10

11/15 00:25:21 Spotto: somethings we bring extra people here

11/15 00:25:21 Shizune: ah

11/15 00:25:23 Spotto: sometimes*

11/15 00:25:27 Spotto: like when Mike B showed up

11/15 00:25:30 Doughboy: I think total amount is 14

11/15 00:25:33 Spotto: or when I bring my friend

11/15 00:25:42 Spotto: or when Shizune comes here

11/15 00:25:45 Doughboy: of people who have been on in like past 2 months

11/15 00:25:45 Spotto: because you're not a regular

11/15 00:25:56 Shizune: hmm I wonder where my server is located

11/15 00:25:58 Doughboy: sometimes seyton

11/15 00:26:02 Shizune: I think we did texas and have half you ping, weird

11/15 00:26:09 Doughboy: lol

11/15 00:26:11 Doughboy: berto is on

11/15 00:26:12 Shizune: probably because seattle is a popular one

11/15 00:26:18 Doughboy: berto is only one on

11/15 00:26:29 Spotto: tell berto of new server

11/15 00:26:34 Doughboy: he no respond to me

11/15 00:26:41 Spotto: boo

11/15 00:26:43 Doughboy: I will not do that

11/15 00:26:57 Doughboy: I will give him info to bad pepple server instead

11/15 00:27:04 Spotto: lol

11/15 00:27:05 Doughboy: he is babby and needs to grow into mang

11/15 00:27:16 Doughboy: someday he will be the mang of this vent

11/15 00:27:17 Shizune: my vent?

11/15 00:27:21 Doughboy: sure

11/15 00:27:24 Doughboy: that will work

11/15 00:27:25 Shizune: haha

11/15 00:27:48 Shizune: depending on how he acts

11/15 00:27:50 Doughboy: I think souleh got off cuz I called him derpy the pony too many time

11/15 00:27:52 Shizune: he'll probably be banned pretty fast

11/15 00:28:04 Doughboy: I think he would just be like having a 2nd Kira tbh

11/15 00:28:10 Spotto: maybe he doesn't like being Rainbow Dash

11/15 00:28:13 Doughboy: he is literally kira

11/15 00:28:19 Shizune: no he's not

11/15 00:28:24 Doughboy: have you talked to berto

11/15 00:28:28 Doughboy: before

11/15 00:28:46 Doughboy: ok

11/15 00:28:48 Shizune: I don't have to because kira is a special case

11/15 00:28:52 Doughboy: berto is kira minus the child porn

11/15 00:28:59 Shizune: is berto a nazi?

11/15 00:29:07 Doughboy: ok minus that too

11/15 00:29:08 Shizune: does berto hate black people even when he's never seen one?

11/15 00:29:15 Doughboy: wtf lol

11/15 00:29:24 Doughboy: EVERYTHING ELSE ABOUT KIRA

11/15 00:29:28 Shizune: does berto have a dick piercing and a huge tattoo of some stupid fish?

11/15 00:29:34 Doughboy: maybe

11/15 00:29:38 Doughboy: not sure about those last two

11/15 00:29:48 Doughboy: haven't checked. maybe souless knows, he is peterfile

11/15 00:30:03 Shizune: other than that you have some kid who doesn't know much and like all I know about his name is that he watched death note

11/15 00:30:16 Doughboy: yeah

11/15 00:30:19 Doughboy: berto doesn't know much

11/15 00:30:24 Shizune: wow

11/15 00:30:25 Shizune: wow

11/15 00:30:27 Doughboy: that is his defining trait

11/15 00:30:28 Shizune: the similarities

11/15 00:30:29 Shizune: are like

11/15 00:30:33 Doughboy: off the charts

11/15 00:30:33 Shizune: fizz and witch slayer

11/15 00:30:34 Shizune: amazing

11/15 00:30:43 Doughboy: LOL EXCEPT YOU MAKE THAT KIND OF COMP.

11/15 00:30:50 Shizune: because like

11/15 00:30:53 Shizune: they're both champions

11/15 00:30:55 Doughboy: HURRR LOOK CAIT IS LIKE WS

11/15 00:30:56 Shizune: and they both do damage

11/15 00:31:04 Doughboy: HURR FIZZ IS POLLYWOG, WOW RIOT

11/15 00:31:12 Spotto: berto is also very stubborn

11/15 00:31:23 Spotto: and doesn't help himself in knowing more

11/15 00:31:29 Doughboy: ^

11/15 00:31:31 Doughboy: very true.

11/15 00:31:48 Doughboy: berto also listens to budstep

11/15 00:31:56 Spotto: dubstep is okay

11/15 00:32:15 Spotto: but I've only listened to like twelve of that genre so what do I know

11/15 00:32:16 Doughboy: spot has delusions of grandeur when it come to dubstep

11/15 00:32:22 Doughboy: (I keed)

11/15 00:32:26 Shizune:

11/15 00:32:29 Shizune: going to download this

11/15 00:32:33 Doughboy: but srs, berto is like wham wham wham all the time

11/15 00:32:52 Doughboy: they are terrible and can't dance

11/15 00:33:04 Spotto: well I have a dubstep song about nasus in my mp3 :X so

11/15 00:33:16 Shizune: dude spotto I take a hit of the bong everytime skrillex comes on and I can't feel my face and I shit my pants because that drop was dirtier than fingering my sister and finding my dad's wedding ring

11/15 00:33:31 Spotto: I've never listened to skrillex lol

11/15 00:33:34 Spotto: just random stuff

11/15 00:33:45 Shizune: oh okay and I'll link you to a song

11/15 00:33:56 Shizune: oh yes

11/15 00:33:58 Shizune: this is wonderful

11/15 00:34:00 Shizune:

11/15 00:34:02 Doughboy: skrillex is an asshole, and wth

11/15 00:34:14 Doughboy: that video is dumb

11/15 00:34:22 Doughboy: almost as stupid as "more chicken...yes boss"

11/15 00:34:26 Shizune: no

11/15 00:34:27 Shizune: NO

11/15 00:34:31 Shizune: SO ALONEEEEEEE

11/15 00:34:33 Doughboy: even herp knew that was stupid

11/15 00:34:48 Shizune: you're stupid

11/15 00:34:51 Doughboy: hotshot should buy fizz

11/15 00:34:56 Doughboy: for the ult

11/15 00:34:59 Shizune: okay

11/15 00:35:00 Shizune:

11/15 00:35:03 Shizune: this is for real spotto

11/15 00:35:05 Shizune: what do you think of that

11/15 00:35:31 Shizune: not my fault if you try to start fucking your subwoofer

11/15 00:35:55 Shizune: oh

11/15 00:35:58 Spotto: headphones

11/15 00:35:59 Shizune: and 720 p is necessary

11/15 00:36:17 Shizune: it's garbage in 320p and the drop sounds like gay

11/15 00:36:32 Doughboy: shuzi is very familiar with that sound

11/15 00:36:42 Doughboy: he makes it every time he exists

11/15 00:37:00 Spotto: I don't like the robot sounding duck saying YA YA constantly

11/15 00:37:06 Shizune: mm okay

11/15 00:37:25 Shizune: how about this

11/15 00:37:26 Shizune:

11/15 00:39:43 Spotto: hmmm maybe this isn't my kind of music :X

11/15 00:39:56 Shizune: eh, just recommending some stuff

11/15 00:40:22 Doughboy: "stuff" is being generous

11/15 00:40:30 Shizune:

11/15 00:40:36 Shizune: actually

11/15 00:40:40 Shizune: I haven't heard this before

11/15 00:41:07 Shizune:

11/15 00:41:19 Shizune: I think this is the original and I really like it, give it a listen

11/15 00:45:11 Doughboy: remix is definite improvement imio

11/15 00:45:13 Doughboy: *imo

11/15 00:45:21 Spotto: yeah I like the remix

11/15 00:45:23 Doughboy: orig. kinda meh

11/15 00:45:29 Shizune: the first one? Hmm I haven't heard it before

11/15 00:45:34 Shizune: so I had no opinion

11/15 00:45:42 Doughboy: wat

11/15 00:45:53 Shizune: Benny Benassi ft. Gary Go - Cinema (

11/15 00:45:55 Shizune: this one?

11/15 00:45:59 Doughboy: that thing

11/15 00:46:01 Doughboy: I liked that one

11/15 00:46:08 Spotto: yeah

11/15 00:46:11 Shizune: yeah I haven't listened to it before

11/15 00:46:22 Doughboy: the dubstep one is kind've like blegh

11/15 00:46:27 Doughboy: it's decadent.

11/15 00:46:38 Shizune: mmm it's got more progression and changes of beat over the dubstep

11/15 00:46:48 Shizune: but that's the thing with dubstep, lots of repitition

11/15 00:47:11 Doughboy: yeah it's for pepple who are musically babbies

11/15 00:47:16 Shizune: probably

11/15 00:47:25 Shizune: the remix is more of an electro I guess remix

11/15 00:47:44 Spotto: reptition is okay in moderation but too much makes me want to punch something

11/15 00:47:53 Shizune: haha yeah that's a majority of dubstep

11/15 00:47:56 Shizune:

11/15 00:48:00 Shizune: what do you think about that

11/15 00:48:57 Spotto: you know that logo

11/15 00:48:58 Spotto: in the video

11/15 00:49:03 Spotto: I listened to a lot of the green version of it

11/15 00:49:11 Shizune: yeah they have several "channels"

11/15 00:49:21 Shizune: blue is dubstep

11/15 00:49:29 Shizune: dnb is green

11/15 00:49:35 Spotto: oh

11/15 00:49:37 Spotto: I liked green

11/15 00:49:55 Shizune: yeah if you click ukfdubstep you can go to the dnb section at the top of the page

11/15 00:50:02 Shizune: I'm not a big fan of dnb

11/15 00:50:22 Spotto: well cunchy or someone linked it in vent and I clicked it then listened to more so yeah

11/15 00:50:40 Shizune: I'm assuming you know pendulum?

11/15 00:50:49 Spotto: you assume wrong

11/15 00:50:53 Shizune: really?

11/15 00:51:00 Spotto: my knowledge of music is pitiful

11/15 00:51:07 Shizune: no worries

11/15 00:51:13 Shizune: I didn't know about any genres at all

11/15 00:51:15 Shizune:

11/15 00:51:21 Doughboy: shizu is worse

11/15 00:51:21 Shizune: that's probably pendulum's most famous track

11/15 00:51:36 Shizune: and they're a very popular dnb band

11/15 00:53:01 Spotto: where is 720p :C

11/15 00:53:07 Shizune: it's an old song

11/15 00:53:31 Shizune: the video is kind of strange

11/15 00:53:35 Shizune: to say the least

11/15 00:53:48 Doughboy: you auditioned for that role

11/15 00:53:50 Doughboy: don't lie.

11/15 00:53:55 Doughboy: you wanted to be him

11/15 00:54:03 Shizune: yeah when I was 13 years old

11/15 00:54:07 Doughboy: mhm

11/15 00:54:27 Doughboy: BmC had the same dream. it's ok, you not alone

11/15 00:55:39 Doughboy: I don't know how that song went

11/15 00:55:51 Doughboy: because I was mesmerized by that guy's beautiful body

11/15 00:55:56 Shizune: same

11/15 00:56:03 Shizune:

11/15 00:56:08 Shizune: this is my favorite pendulum song

11/15 00:57:28 *** You have been disconnected from the server ***

11/15 00:57:39 *** You have been reconnected to the server ***.

11/15 00:58:17 Shizune: did you lag out

11/15 00:58:40 Spotto: yeah, but listening to propane nightmares

11/15 00:58:57 Shizune: what do you think about pendulum?

11/15 00:59:15 Spotto: I don't know what to think lol

11/15 00:59:22 Spotto:  Slam was good

11/15 00:59:23 Shizune: the slam video too good?

11/15 00:59:28 Doughboy: say they're bad and he'll go away

11/15 00:59:42 Shizune: l0l

11/15 00:59:49 Shizune: I can recommend dead mau five

11/15 01:00:02 Spotto: I dunno when I listened to dnb before I might've been like totally bored or something

11/15 01:00:09 Doughboy: ^

11/15 01:00:11 Doughboy: get dunked.

11/15 01:00:22 Shizune: if you thought dubstep was boring, you should try dead mau five

11/15 01:00:27 Shizune: he'll put you to sleep

11/15 01:02:45 Spotto: I liked your favourite song

11/15 01:03:02 Spotto: also this was the nasus one I really liked

11/15 01:03:11 Spotto: you prob already heard but yeah

11/15 01:03:23 Shizune: oh yeah, I think that's like supposed to be really uhh

11/15 01:03:30 Shizune: like original dubstep

11/15 01:03:37 Shizune: I forgot what people called it

11/15 01:03:46 Shizune: but it's not like skrillex dubstep

11/15 01:04:34 Shizune: was it? I remember it had a movie to it though

11/15 01:05:22 cunchy: ???????????

11/15 01:06:29 cunchy: I <3 DnB

11/15 01:07:19 Shizune: I only know pendulum

11/15 01:07:31 Shizune: so therefore I know all of dnb

11/15 01:07:51 Spotto: oh okay

11/15 01:08:01 Spotto: yeah what cunchy linked I like

11/15 01:08:06 Spotto: I think I have similar music tastes with him

11/15 01:08:17 'Victorrrrr' has joined the chat.

11/15 01:08:28 Spotto: why is the second spotto still here

11/15 01:08:35 cunchy:

11/15 01:08:37 cunchy: I liked this alot

11/15 01:08:40 *** You have been disconnected from the server ***

11/15 01:08:49 *** You have been reconnected to the server ***

11/15 01:08:51 Doughboy: damn't

11/15 01:08:56 Doughboy: 11/15 01:08:48 Doughboy: hopefully I got the right spotto

11/15 01:09:00 Doughboy: Lolololol

11/15 01:09:01 Spotto: you kicked the wrong one >:

11/15 01:09:05 Shizune: is this like toho dnb?

11/15 01:09:11 Victorrrrr: whos the other one?

11/15 01:09:16 'Spotto' has left the chat.

11/15 01:09:18 cunchy: There's not alot of Touhou dnb though :c

11/15 01:09:20 cunchy: Or there is

11/15 01:09:20 Shizune: I had some toho dubstep which was kind of funny

11/15 01:09:21 Doughboy: I think I got it

11/15 01:09:24 cunchy: And I can't find any

11/15 01:09:43 Spotto: I am suscribed to touhou electronic channel

11/15 01:10:04 Shizune:

11/15 01:10:08 Shizune: this is nutty

11/15 01:10:39 cunchy: dubstep is too slowpaced for me D:

11/15 01:10:46 Shizune: drops man

11/15 01:10:49 Shizune: love the drops

11/15 01:13:42 Spotto: Eurobeat <3

cool people talk about ponies, touhou, music and tolerance

spotto: (Sims - Dean :D)
I think I should write a post about a few of my friends. Well, certain friends, not all of em, or it'd be a bit long since I like to write up walls of text, but I do have some pretty awesome friends I'd like to talk about. This post will probably be sappy, so...

SAPPY WARNING! Nevermind, false alarm. 8D;

Before you read on...

The reason why I buy hamsters in pairs is because it always seems lonely to just have one, yet the loneliest, saddest part is not having one hamster, it is when you buy two and one passes away. The hamster that is left has just spent its entire life with others, never alone, always with another and suddenly it is alone. You would always hear the occasional squeak from squabbles or watch the two try to steal food away from another, but it is never more heartwenching than to hear constant silence.

Poor Iggy.

This rant did not go as planned O: )
spotto: (The Ukiest of Ukes)
I was laughing SO hard. How do people take games so seriously and make it so hilarious?

They're playing Warcraft III apparently (Some sort of Unreal Assault mod/map O:) I'm in Ventrilo, listening to them talking.

And they're like, "AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!" *girly voice* (Oh god it just happened right nao, xD) And then, "WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT HUGE THING! AAAAH! HELP!"




They're all guys, and some (well one) has quite the manly voice, so when they SCREAM in a girly voice....lmfao. It was so incredibly dramatic and I couldn't stop laughing.


In other news...<3


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