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What is the meaning of life!? THE ANSWER IS HERE! YAY!
Aww isn't that cute--
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
^ The theme of this entry. (Yes, even the hamsters. THERE WERE HAMSTERS IN ALIENS!!!)
HAMSTER UPDATE -
This is my fourth pair of hamsters. The previous three were all Campbell hamsters, and the first of the three were the only ones from a breeder.
Hammy and Hobo were the least hostile hamsters ever, always friendly with one another even though Hobo was introduced to Hammy when quite young. Hammy on the other hand was a victim of hamster-fighting with his brother, Squirrel and they had to be separated. Hammy was the less-aggressive, submissive one of the two. They never fought, but Hobo was the submissive one because he always mistook Hammy for trying to feign dominance and easily, easily turning onto his backside to Hammy, yet Hammy was never very dominant himself. They had the best relationship between two hamsters ever.
The second set, Asako and Otter were from two different litters from two different stores. Otter was the last hamster EVER from a store across town, since the shop there closed down. Asako came from a store I now regularly get hamsters from and he lived with two females. Not wanting a potentially pregnant hamster, I took Asako who would've been the sire. They squabbled quite a bit, but blood was never drawn and Asako was oddly enough the submissive one despite Otter's smaller size. The rule of separation is if injury occurs, even a tiny one because it would most definitely escalate. It was quite alarming when I first saw them chase each other and I initially separated them, but reintroduced them and they lived together fine despite a few squabbles.
The third set, Koho and Iggy were mostly if not entirely indifferent with each other. Occasionally I saw them sleep together, but most of the time they slept separately and they tolerated each other's existance. They did not fight whatsoever like Otter and Asako, nor were they the bestest buddies ever like Hammy and Hobo, so their lives together were quite peaceful.
Finally we have Capp and Nazzo, my first pair of Roborovski Hamsters. I began seeing them squabble unfortunately, a few days ago when they were active during the night. It was to my surprise that Nazzo was the dominant one despite Capp's boldness when I first got them. I figured the more shy one would be the submissive one, but then I read a quote from an experienced hamster owner, who in their time with hamsters noticed that the shyer of the two hamsters is usually the one who is more stubborn, and less accepting. They are therefore harder to tame for humans to stroke and would rather live their own way than adapt rather than the bolder, submissive one, so it made sense that Capp was submissive and Nazzo was the dominant one. I think because of these squabbles Capp has been more reluctant to come out and is a bit less active than Nazzo who just runs everywhere and goes where he pleases, but Capp again is willing to sit still and listen to his surroundings (which is why I have much better photos of him). I only had one wheel at the time though, and today I got them a second one to hopefully prevent the fighting. (THEY ACTUALLY USE BOTH. I was afraid they'd just leave one to NEVER be used and my efforts would be wasted)
I'm quite sure from several descriptions of hamster fights that what they're doing is play-fight because in a real one a hamster would never show its soft, fleshy stomach to the other because it is an extremely vulnerable position. (This is exactly what Capp is doing)
So rather than my expectation of Capp leading the two, it is actually Nazzo. Commanding rather than captain, huh?
NOW FOR OTHER THINGS
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So yesterday I watched Aliens, the sequel to Alien without watching Alien first. Not that I had to, I understood the movie perfectly without it. There was a lot of body horror like little adorable baby aliens exploding out of people's chests, or these cute little misunderstood parasite-looking ones jumping onto people's faces to lay their eggs into their mouths, or the very innocent adult ones that fought through tooth and nail to protect its kind from those mean, evil humans!
Well, you know. I actually find this stuff fascinating. I suppose for the average person it's quite terrifying and if I were a bit younger I too would get nightmares from it, but recently...especially since I've been into Touhou, there's been a new dimension of certain...rating, that I find rather interesting. Now don't get me wrong, that doesn't mean I like horror movies. Horror movies scare me, and those are scary. It's just certain characters from Touhou were given these crazy, homicidal, or downright mind-rape like personalities and I just found it so interesting! Like Flandre or Koishi, especially Koishi. Remember when I linked that one vid of her where I described everything I watched, ending with Yukari getting her limbs torn off to be used by Koishi since Yukari pulled off all of Koishi's limbs? I mean I was going off the rocker on that, yelling at the screen, "OH MY GOD SATORI WHAT ARE YOU DOING OH GOD MEILING, NOT MEILING ANYONE BUT MEILING!! OMFG WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU SHOU WHYYYYY" etc. but at the same time the reason I KEPT watching is because I couldn't stop. It was deranged, horrible, crazy, wrong, but really really fascinating.
The thing is I'm sure seeing such things as interesting is probably quite weird to people. Oh well, I'm one of strange tastes. Always have been. I think the time I've been on the internet has kept me from really seeing all these terrifying horrible images as...terrifying and horrible. Desensitized as you will, my mind is not innocent because of this thing we call the internet. I lost my mind's virginity a long, long time ago. Well if they were REAL pictures of people's squashed heads or something, I'd find that pretty goddamn scary and just NO. I've seen it before too, it was rather unsettling but with cartoony things why not. They're just cartoons. They're not real, or fictional even (thus Aliens) though that would be the line. I wish not to cross it. I hope not to cross it, but the internet is a very unpredictable thing.
Thus my fascination of the concept of the afterlife. Regular Christians believe in Heaven and Hell. There might be more, like nine levels of Hell or purgatory or whatever, my knowledge of religion is rather thin despite having a brother studying to become a priest. But as far as I know Heaven and Hell has always been considered ETERNAL. Forever. Infinite.
I don't like this concept of eternity...it's just, what exactly is the point of punishing someone FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER!? I know the world has plenty of lousy people. Perhaps I'm being too idealistic and think that everyone in the world, if they could, would be good in the end. I like to think the bastards are just people who have disorders that keep their brains from understanding morality, and that no one is actually TRULY bad. Those who do understand morality yet go through with questionable actions anyway would in my mind, probably regret that action. I don't know if some horrible human being with perfectly fine mental health would do such despicable things without regretting anything! REALLY.
I mean sure, if they do exist. Fine, punish them FOREVER AND EVER, but I can't see there being too many of them anyway, and why even put effort into punishing them FOREVER AND EVER? Why not just leave them in some state of nothingness after life? Or after punishing them for a very long time lock them up somewhere forever and forget about them? What is about this brimstome and burning? Even an eternity of PARADISE. Exactly who deserves paradise? I mean on the other side of the coin, there are probably very few people who are absolute saints and thus deserve to be happy FOREVER. Forever is just...too long, I guess.
I suppose that's why I like reincarnation so much. It's not so much me actually believing any of these things are even true, but it's just nice to think that perhaps maybe possibly it COULD exist or maybe not, but it's fun to think about anyway. I like to think there is some mythical or powerful completely neutral being who would look down upon you and say: HEAVEN or HELL (let's rock!). That to me is much too interesting to not keep. You'd wonder how someone could come into such a powerful position anyway. I also like the concept of a grim reaper or a shinigami ferrying you across a river. If your family bribed the ferryman, the river would be much shorter. If you were an amazing person in life, the river would be shorter. If however it is the opposite you could be sitting on that boat for years! All just to be judged. At the same time though, I don't like the thought of infinite time.
So yes, Heaven or Hell or whatever would too not be infinite. I think average people either go to some purgatory or immediately get reincarnated or something, while amazing people go to Heaven and bastards go to Hell...not forever though. At some point you must re-enter the reincarnation cycle, throughout an endless cycle of living and dying until you truly reach Nirvana. Okay, so I like Buddhism. EVEN THEN it's just an interesting concept and not something I strongly believe in or something, but I like to to think about it.
BLAME TOUHOU. There's plenty of reasons I find that series of shooters so freakin' interesting! Not just characters or music or gameplay, but even the mythical things it references or the religion.
Combine all that and you have my very twisted imagination. I think that's another reason why I like Murasa so. I mean I criticize her character so goddamn much it's a wonder why she's my favourite, but to think that she would've probably looked something like this in her ship-sinking days. That terrifying, homicidal, killer-monster, creature, ghost...I find extremely interesting. (It helps that even Nue applies to this, and any freakin' youkai-character. I like the humans too but still. O: ! Then Byakuren tries to SAVE them and TIGERS and omfg RODENTS and NO WONDER I LOVE UFO SO MUCH, MAN!)
Well yes, that is all from Spotto today. P: