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I don't like some people, let me tell you the reasons why
I think I should write a post about a few of my friends. Well, certain friends, not all of em, or it'd be a bit long since I like to write up walls of text, but I do have some pretty awesome friends I'd like to talk about. This post will probably be sappy, so...
SAPPY WARNING! Nevermind, false alarm. 8D;
Before you read on...
The reason why I buy hamsters in pairs is because it always seems lonely to just have one, yet the loneliest, saddest part is not having one hamster, it is when you buy two and one passes away. The hamster that is left has just spent its entire life with others, never alone, always with another and suddenly it is alone. You would always hear the occasional squeak from squabbles or watch the two try to steal food away from another, but it is never more heartwenching than to hear constant silence.
Poor Iggy.
Okay first the not so pleasant stuff. I write this here because it's my blog and well, my thoughts are piled up here. One day while playing Starcraft with my clanmates (if they can even be called that now...what should they be called...ventrilo buddies? I dunno) Anyway, someone I never heard of came into the server. Everyone else knew him apparently, but he was brought in so we could have six people for whatever game we'd be playing. I just stayed pretty indifferent. Also my mic was broken (and still is broken) so I could not make any vocal communication. So I mostly stayed silent except to type a few things. On this day I hadn't slept for like 30 hours, but I tried to stay up to fix my sleep cycle, so I was rather half-asleep while playing starcraft, and probably rather irritable.
Anyway this person...didn't know who he was, won't name him, but he has the kerrigan portrait, the one where you complete the brutal campaign. He's really good at Starcraft 2. So we're playing and one of the UMS maps we were playing was that one game...Uberun or whatever...forget the name, but you make units, protect your base. It's basically micro wars. The map is a more recent one we started playing, not something like desert strike that we've been playing for ages. Anyway I was half tired but my favourite strat is to make tons of lings and just run for their base. I think the other team had a ground unit that was I believe countered by lings, but also an air unit that I could not counter obviously. Of course I made pure lings, but my team got a bit annoyed that I didn't counter the air. Well okay, I'll do it next spawn, but I always like throwing lings at the base, bypassing their army, perhaps distract them or make them turn back. I thought my team could handle it. We did win the game I think. (I forget though >_> ...maybe we lost?)
That was the first thing. Because I made lings and did not counter that air unit, this new person started to believe I wasn't good at the game. Not that I AM, but I wasn't like, horrible or nooby I don't think. I mean any perfectly reasonable player would know how to counter that air unit, I just chose not to because I wanted to do my little ling thing. Maybe it was a mistake since my friend did get annoyed, but either way it already happened and so we were through. It wasn't one of those "I stay annoyed at you FOREVER because you did that" kind of things, just a small poke at what was a pretty much good match. It was also a casual kind of thing too. Then this new person made this off comment that really, really really annoyed me. Joke or not, it just....infuriated me. He said "we should all spectate Spotto vs. easy computer" no one else commented on that, they just ignored him and talked about other things, I too stayed silent, but that just stayed in my head the rest of the night. I was not going to be any happier afterwards.
Another friend of mine wanted to test this island map. So I played, but I was really tired, annoyed, and decided to randomly play zerg. Now zerg is a race I rarely play. I'm a protoss player, I can play terran, but I absolutely fail at zerg. Anyway choosing zerg for an island map was the greatest idea ever. I didn't know what to do, but I remember some videos where progamers did some fun looking baneling drops. Also the map was just for fun, we were just trying it out, so I decided to try doing that. Of course when I go to drop them I run into my opponents army, and since i lost my entire ground army, plus they could shoot air I figure I should just drop the banelings on them. Of course this is when I realize banelings on protoss units are fail.
Well at this point it's pretty obvious I'm gonna lose. I try to transition to mutas rather poorly, and I go to harass. I didn't realize I put my drones by the side to keep them away from my opponents harass, so when they all kept yelling at me constantly about the drones and to MACRO I thought they meant to MAKE more drones, so I just pressed my hatchery hotkey and SDDDD tons of times while keeping my camera on my mutas. Of course my mutas died, but by the time I brought my camera back to my base, I finally realized what they meant. Of course a mistake like this is embarrassing, and really doesn't help my case with this new guy. I was just really annoyed at this point and decided to ragequit and calm down. My first impression with this person was pretty crappy, but my own first impression-skillwise probably wasn't great either. He never saw me play protoss and at the very least do decently.
But the fact that I couldn't speak on my mic made me feel very small, and the fact that everyone seemed like chums with him didn't help either. I felt rather alone at that point and never made a peep about this, but I didn't like this guy. I admit I prayed he wouldn't become a regular and so far hasn't, but I still wonder where the hell he came from and who the hell he is, and why the hell everyone knew him. That was a pretty bad day in terms of gaming. He just seemed kind of obnoxious, or at least came out of nowhere and insulted me (I don't know if he did it inadvertently, I like to think people aren't naturally trolls or jackasses unless they have a psychological defect or something). I know my showing that day didn't help either, but I was just so tired and pretty moody, annoyed, angry, basically any negative emotion. His attitude just didn't help at all.
I do wonder if I'm just too sensitive because everyone else takes jabs at them sometimes too in a jokingly manner. I guess my beef with this is that this person said it about me and I don't know him at all. I mean with friends, yeah why not call each other bastards or say they hate each other jokingly, or even go die in a fire, but someone who I don't know at ALL and who does not know me at all, to be like that...it is indeed infuriating, plus it wasn't direct, or was more of an implied kind of thing, which makes it seem less sarcastic and more serious. Maybe I'm just looking into it too much but my first impression with this guy was pretty bad. I don't normally dislike people when I first meet them...
Well, I do recall we 3v4'd him, but again I was really tired, or I'm making excuses, but I don't usually lose my entire army to dark templars and not notice >_> and I got killed first, wasn't able to do anything anyway. We still won though, but I wonder if I was on the "3" team because I was more experienced than the others, or if I was bad and needed to be carried by the most experienced. Again maybe I am looking into this too much.
Besides that though, my experiences in that ventrilo server have been swell.
And since that rant is already a wall of text I guess I'll just have to limit the amount of people I talk about. I'm not fond of name-dropping people unless it's people who do read this LJ (which...kind of doesn't make sense) For example I don't really mind saying Akira or Souless, since they read this, but I suppose this can be an exception. I'll start off by wondering HOW THE HELL EDMEND CAN SOLELY USE THE CHAT AND NEVER MIC. I feel DEPRIVED without my mic! D<
Anyway yeah, this wasn't so much a sappy post as a whiny wah wah post about some stranger. Lol, but I guess I WILL mention Akira and Souless, why? Some of my oldest friends...not in age (but that could be applied to Akira...lololol) but as in how long I've known them. You ask why I never mention my RL friends. I have my best friend, but beyond her there's really no one I'm particularly close to or at least no one I like enough to even name on this blog, lol.
A lot of you already know I met Akira in 2004...I think, but we didn't talk THAT much about non-fandom things until later. She doesn't go online as much due to work, but that's okay, as long as she does. I can easily talk about whatever the hell I want with her, not just fandom things or WHAT GAME YOU'RE PLAYING and she does the same to me. Also we met in real life, but that's just a bonus thing. I think that really shows a lot of trust there, and for that I am glad. :D I really need to finish that layout I promised her. D:
Souless I met in 2005 along with a lot of other original clan members, but for some reason I could never figure out why he always joined the clan I was in at the time. I thought he joined AW because he was in it before, but he also joined my other clans and was easily skillful enough to quality for other more notable clans. I suppose it's because many people in the RS community are jackasses and the ones I'm in don't have jackasses because I try not to let in jackasses....with some exceptions that lead to drama because I don't like saying no. Yeah I don't think I'm a good candidate for leader, at least recruitment wise. >_>
One odd example had this guy, won't name him, but he was the one who revived AW and got me to rejoin it (at the time I was a Soldat retiree) so a few other people came back including Souless, but apparently no one liked him. I thought though since he put effort into reviving it that it'd be fine, but as we started to learn more about him I began to realize why no one liked him. He's quite a bad influence. He's been in prison before (and has returned a few more times), does drugs, and seems to have a pretty gangster mindset. (His name is slang for a joint. Seriously) He also couldn't spell and typed things in like..casual "gang" slang or whatever. Forgive me for not having proper terms, but I still thought since he was the one who revived it and everything and is the LEADER we can't just...kick him out or anything, it wouldn't seem right.
But the thing is, I don't think he actually WAS in AW at anytime. He joined a clan I created AFTER AW, called GD, but that wasn't AW...that was GD...so did he even have the right to revive AW? Or is my memory wrong and he was in AW? Either way no one liked him, but I didn't know what to do. It ended in a lot of drama that led him to hating us and us removing him with the clan. I'm still a bit guilty despite what kind of person he was, but...what would you have done? Did he even have the right to revive AW? Should we just have let him keep it, all leave and create a new one? Even if you did join AW, if you never became a leader of AW then it technically wasn't yours. It's whoever created it and the leaders as well, right? Well, again that was in the past, and has already happened so it's too late for anything else now. I just wish I never accepted his Facebook request. I never go there, but people can see my full name, what school I go to and he lives in the same city, so...I hate Facebook.
...and I guess it's easier to complain about bad things than to praise people. That wall-of-text! HOW TO PRAISE PEOPLE!!
But I suppose if I were to describe how that vent server is like....there's been a few newcomers. I like them and they're cool people. They're usually friends of friends (I've tried to bring Akira to the ventrilo a few times....but she doesn't play the games we play and doesn't stick around, ah well) so we can usually trust them (but like the first part of this post, it isn't always true...) At least it isn't just us five people and we can have seven potentially EIGHT people on SC2 at the same time! Or on isketch. Man, run ling run with that many people....a dream, but hey it could happen. But it'd be so much funner if I HAD A BLOODY WORKING MICROPHONE.
I do ask one thing. WHY AM I THE ONLY CANADIAN HERE. WHERE ARE MY CANADIAN BRETHREN AT. Akira should stick around.
And with that, Spotto signs off.
Before you read on...
The reason why I buy hamsters in pairs is because it always seems lonely to just have one, yet the loneliest, saddest part is not having one hamster, it is when you buy two and one passes away. The hamster that is left has just spent its entire life with others, never alone, always with another and suddenly it is alone. You would always hear the occasional squeak from squabbles or watch the two try to steal food away from another, but it is never more heartwenching than to hear constant silence.
Poor Iggy.
Okay first the not so pleasant stuff. I write this here because it's my blog and well, my thoughts are piled up here. One day while playing Starcraft with my clanmates (if they can even be called that now...what should they be called...ventrilo buddies? I dunno) Anyway, someone I never heard of came into the server. Everyone else knew him apparently, but he was brought in so we could have six people for whatever game we'd be playing. I just stayed pretty indifferent. Also my mic was broken (and still is broken) so I could not make any vocal communication. So I mostly stayed silent except to type a few things. On this day I hadn't slept for like 30 hours, but I tried to stay up to fix my sleep cycle, so I was rather half-asleep while playing starcraft, and probably rather irritable.
Anyway this person...didn't know who he was, won't name him, but he has the kerrigan portrait, the one where you complete the brutal campaign. He's really good at Starcraft 2. So we're playing and one of the UMS maps we were playing was that one game...Uberun or whatever...forget the name, but you make units, protect your base. It's basically micro wars. The map is a more recent one we started playing, not something like desert strike that we've been playing for ages. Anyway I was half tired but my favourite strat is to make tons of lings and just run for their base. I think the other team had a ground unit that was I believe countered by lings, but also an air unit that I could not counter obviously. Of course I made pure lings, but my team got a bit annoyed that I didn't counter the air. Well okay, I'll do it next spawn, but I always like throwing lings at the base, bypassing their army, perhaps distract them or make them turn back. I thought my team could handle it. We did win the game I think. (I forget though >_> ...maybe we lost?)
That was the first thing. Because I made lings and did not counter that air unit, this new person started to believe I wasn't good at the game. Not that I AM, but I wasn't like, horrible or nooby I don't think. I mean any perfectly reasonable player would know how to counter that air unit, I just chose not to because I wanted to do my little ling thing. Maybe it was a mistake since my friend did get annoyed, but either way it already happened and so we were through. It wasn't one of those "I stay annoyed at you FOREVER because you did that" kind of things, just a small poke at what was a pretty much good match. It was also a casual kind of thing too. Then this new person made this off comment that really, really really annoyed me. Joke or not, it just....infuriated me. He said "we should all spectate Spotto vs. easy computer" no one else commented on that, they just ignored him and talked about other things, I too stayed silent, but that just stayed in my head the rest of the night. I was not going to be any happier afterwards.
Another friend of mine wanted to test this island map. So I played, but I was really tired, annoyed, and decided to randomly play zerg. Now zerg is a race I rarely play. I'm a protoss player, I can play terran, but I absolutely fail at zerg. Anyway choosing zerg for an island map was the greatest idea ever. I didn't know what to do, but I remember some videos where progamers did some fun looking baneling drops. Also the map was just for fun, we were just trying it out, so I decided to try doing that. Of course when I go to drop them I run into my opponents army, and since i lost my entire ground army, plus they could shoot air I figure I should just drop the banelings on them. Of course this is when I realize banelings on protoss units are fail.
Well at this point it's pretty obvious I'm gonna lose. I try to transition to mutas rather poorly, and I go to harass. I didn't realize I put my drones by the side to keep them away from my opponents harass, so when they all kept yelling at me constantly about the drones and to MACRO I thought they meant to MAKE more drones, so I just pressed my hatchery hotkey and SDDDD tons of times while keeping my camera on my mutas. Of course my mutas died, but by the time I brought my camera back to my base, I finally realized what they meant. Of course a mistake like this is embarrassing, and really doesn't help my case with this new guy. I was just really annoyed at this point and decided to ragequit and calm down. My first impression with this person was pretty crappy, but my own first impression-skillwise probably wasn't great either. He never saw me play protoss and at the very least do decently.
But the fact that I couldn't speak on my mic made me feel very small, and the fact that everyone seemed like chums with him didn't help either. I felt rather alone at that point and never made a peep about this, but I didn't like this guy. I admit I prayed he wouldn't become a regular and so far hasn't, but I still wonder where the hell he came from and who the hell he is, and why the hell everyone knew him. That was a pretty bad day in terms of gaming. He just seemed kind of obnoxious, or at least came out of nowhere and insulted me (I don't know if he did it inadvertently, I like to think people aren't naturally trolls or jackasses unless they have a psychological defect or something). I know my showing that day didn't help either, but I was just so tired and pretty moody, annoyed, angry, basically any negative emotion. His attitude just didn't help at all.
I do wonder if I'm just too sensitive because everyone else takes jabs at them sometimes too in a jokingly manner. I guess my beef with this is that this person said it about me and I don't know him at all. I mean with friends, yeah why not call each other bastards or say they hate each other jokingly, or even go die in a fire, but someone who I don't know at ALL and who does not know me at all, to be like that...it is indeed infuriating, plus it wasn't direct, or was more of an implied kind of thing, which makes it seem less sarcastic and more serious. Maybe I'm just looking into it too much but my first impression with this guy was pretty bad. I don't normally dislike people when I first meet them...
Well, I do recall we 3v4'd him, but again I was really tired, or I'm making excuses, but I don't usually lose my entire army to dark templars and not notice >_> and I got killed first, wasn't able to do anything anyway. We still won though, but I wonder if I was on the "3" team because I was more experienced than the others, or if I was bad and needed to be carried by the most experienced. Again maybe I am looking into this too much.
Besides that though, my experiences in that ventrilo server have been swell.
And since that rant is already a wall of text I guess I'll just have to limit the amount of people I talk about. I'm not fond of name-dropping people unless it's people who do read this LJ (which...kind of doesn't make sense) For example I don't really mind saying Akira or Souless, since they read this, but I suppose this can be an exception. I'll start off by wondering HOW THE HELL EDMEND CAN SOLELY USE THE CHAT AND NEVER MIC. I feel DEPRIVED without my mic! D<
Anyway yeah, this wasn't so much a sappy post as a whiny wah wah post about some stranger. Lol, but I guess I WILL mention Akira and Souless, why? Some of my oldest friends...not in age (but that could be applied to Akira...lololol) but as in how long I've known them. You ask why I never mention my RL friends. I have my best friend, but beyond her there's really no one I'm particularly close to or at least no one I like enough to even name on this blog, lol.
A lot of you already know I met Akira in 2004...I think, but we didn't talk THAT much about non-fandom things until later. She doesn't go online as much due to work, but that's okay, as long as she does. I can easily talk about whatever the hell I want with her, not just fandom things or WHAT GAME YOU'RE PLAYING and she does the same to me. Also we met in real life, but that's just a bonus thing. I think that really shows a lot of trust there, and for that I am glad. :D I really need to finish that layout I promised her. D:
Souless I met in 2005 along with a lot of other original clan members, but for some reason I could never figure out why he always joined the clan I was in at the time. I thought he joined AW because he was in it before, but he also joined my other clans and was easily skillful enough to quality for other more notable clans. I suppose it's because many people in the RS community are jackasses and the ones I'm in don't have jackasses because I try not to let in jackasses....with some exceptions that lead to drama because I don't like saying no. Yeah I don't think I'm a good candidate for leader, at least recruitment wise. >_>
One odd example had this guy, won't name him, but he was the one who revived AW and got me to rejoin it (at the time I was a Soldat retiree) so a few other people came back including Souless, but apparently no one liked him. I thought though since he put effort into reviving it that it'd be fine, but as we started to learn more about him I began to realize why no one liked him. He's quite a bad influence. He's been in prison before (and has returned a few more times), does drugs, and seems to have a pretty gangster mindset. (His name is slang for a joint. Seriously) He also couldn't spell and typed things in like..casual "gang" slang or whatever. Forgive me for not having proper terms, but I still thought since he was the one who revived it and everything and is the LEADER we can't just...kick him out or anything, it wouldn't seem right.
But the thing is, I don't think he actually WAS in AW at anytime. He joined a clan I created AFTER AW, called GD, but that wasn't AW...that was GD...so did he even have the right to revive AW? Or is my memory wrong and he was in AW? Either way no one liked him, but I didn't know what to do. It ended in a lot of drama that led him to hating us and us removing him with the clan. I'm still a bit guilty despite what kind of person he was, but...what would you have done? Did he even have the right to revive AW? Should we just have let him keep it, all leave and create a new one? Even if you did join AW, if you never became a leader of AW then it technically wasn't yours. It's whoever created it and the leaders as well, right? Well, again that was in the past, and has already happened so it's too late for anything else now. I just wish I never accepted his Facebook request. I never go there, but people can see my full name, what school I go to and he lives in the same city, so...I hate Facebook.
...and I guess it's easier to complain about bad things than to praise people. That wall-of-text! HOW TO PRAISE PEOPLE!!
But I suppose if I were to describe how that vent server is like....there's been a few newcomers. I like them and they're cool people. They're usually friends of friends (I've tried to bring Akira to the ventrilo a few times....but she doesn't play the games we play and doesn't stick around, ah well) so we can usually trust them (but like the first part of this post, it isn't always true...) At least it isn't just us five people and we can have seven potentially EIGHT people on SC2 at the same time! Or on isketch. Man, run ling run with that many people....a dream, but hey it could happen. But it'd be so much funner if I HAD A BLOODY WORKING MICROPHONE.
I do ask one thing. WHY AM I THE ONLY CANADIAN HERE. WHERE ARE MY CANADIAN BRETHREN AT. Akira should stick around.
And with that, Spotto signs off.