The Past and Present
Sep. 19th, 2007 07:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spottoI'm sure when someone looks back at their things, whether it be a piece of writing, a piece of art, a piece of graphic...ANYTHING. It was bad and today is better. That is true for obviously my art and graphics, but there is one thing I'm not sure about.
My writing.
I went back and read A GREEN MIDGET that I had written two years ago, and then I realized, while it didn't describe has many things or anything, or had long hard words, it flowed better. It had better humour, and the story overall, while not long, was quite...good.
The thing is...I hate how I write today. I don't know HOW I might've gotten worse, but HFF certainly doesn't have much flow. Granted a story that goes for 60k words is probably pretty hard to keep the flow in, but my humour isn't as great as before either. Oh sure, I can write longer words and write longer stories and shiz, but I really don't like how HFF is written, especially certain chapters. It's just not funny, actually, HFF is a DRAMEDY. As in, drama and comedy, so I can mix in the funny and the dramaticness of it. Yes, I like violence, but it doesn't seem to fit with anything.
Not only that, but HFF has loads more characters because I'm trying to get the whole class in, which is hard by itself. Yet the thing I hate the most is my lack of humour. Oh sure, a few of my chapters is funny, and I know because Aoi-dono talks about said chapter more if she likes it, if she doesn't...it's a 'meh' kind of thing. Maybe it's because I restrict myself to 2,500 words. If I feel the chapter is finished, and it's too short, I should not be writing MORE to fit my criteria and then that extra bit ruins it. And if the chapter feels like it isn't finished when I reach the limit, I should continue until it does, not rush it, or I ruin it yet again. I have bumped into this problem several times.
I also lack inspiration. When I write...this spark of humour must pop up in my head and I should be quite happy, like laughing, smiling, feeling all grinny-ish when I write. THAT is when the humour comes. But if I just write and I feel tired or just felt like writing, yet wasn't a little hyper, the chapter is...a drag.
I want to finish HFF. But if I do, and if it's horrible, I may rewrite it. However it's already gone 60k words and I don't feel like rewriting so much, so in the end I'd probably leave it. It'll just sit there. I'll write different stories.
Or maybe it's because there was this period where I didn't write at all for several months and my touch died.
I mean I know I'm not the best writer or anything, and when I write my best, it's usually humour, or something to do with it. Other things like drama, angst, anything else...I can't really do much then. And since HFF is a mix...that's probably a reason why it sucks so much. Maybe I should've stuck to mindless humour without a plot like I planned in the beginning. But unlike Kirami, who does PWP and draws crack to get more views, I just feel that I need to throw in a plot, and something exciting is always good. I wanted to write something with quality, not mindless things that easily attract people.
After all, this fanfic is only read by one person. There is no point in writing to attract people, I'm not on fanfiction.net. And that is ANOTHER reason that could possibly falter my writing. If I don't get comments or criticism anymore because I don't really post it public, maybe that's why it died down.
Either way, I wish I could write like I did before.
PS: Why is everybody choosing 18 just because it's their age!? ><
R-POTE: Mana/Konoka
My writing.
I went back and read A GREEN MIDGET that I had written two years ago, and then I realized, while it didn't describe has many things or anything, or had long hard words, it flowed better. It had better humour, and the story overall, while not long, was quite...good.
The thing is...I hate how I write today. I don't know HOW I might've gotten worse, but HFF certainly doesn't have much flow. Granted a story that goes for 60k words is probably pretty hard to keep the flow in, but my humour isn't as great as before either. Oh sure, I can write longer words and write longer stories and shiz, but I really don't like how HFF is written, especially certain chapters. It's just not funny, actually, HFF is a DRAMEDY. As in, drama and comedy, so I can mix in the funny and the dramaticness of it. Yes, I like violence, but it doesn't seem to fit with anything.
Not only that, but HFF has loads more characters because I'm trying to get the whole class in, which is hard by itself. Yet the thing I hate the most is my lack of humour. Oh sure, a few of my chapters is funny, and I know because Aoi-dono talks about said chapter more if she likes it, if she doesn't...it's a 'meh' kind of thing. Maybe it's because I restrict myself to 2,500 words. If I feel the chapter is finished, and it's too short, I should not be writing MORE to fit my criteria and then that extra bit ruins it. And if the chapter feels like it isn't finished when I reach the limit, I should continue until it does, not rush it, or I ruin it yet again. I have bumped into this problem several times.
I also lack inspiration. When I write...this spark of humour must pop up in my head and I should be quite happy, like laughing, smiling, feeling all grinny-ish when I write. THAT is when the humour comes. But if I just write and I feel tired or just felt like writing, yet wasn't a little hyper, the chapter is...a drag.
I want to finish HFF. But if I do, and if it's horrible, I may rewrite it. However it's already gone 60k words and I don't feel like rewriting so much, so in the end I'd probably leave it. It'll just sit there. I'll write different stories.
Or maybe it's because there was this period where I didn't write at all for several months and my touch died.
I mean I know I'm not the best writer or anything, and when I write my best, it's usually humour, or something to do with it. Other things like drama, angst, anything else...I can't really do much then. And since HFF is a mix...that's probably a reason why it sucks so much. Maybe I should've stuck to mindless humour without a plot like I planned in the beginning. But unlike Kirami, who does PWP and draws crack to get more views, I just feel that I need to throw in a plot, and something exciting is always good. I wanted to write something with quality, not mindless things that easily attract people.
After all, this fanfic is only read by one person. There is no point in writing to attract people, I'm not on fanfiction.net. And that is ANOTHER reason that could possibly falter my writing. If I don't get comments or criticism anymore because I don't really post it public, maybe that's why it died down.
Either way, I wish I could write like I did before.
PS: Why is everybody choosing 18 just because it's their age!? ><
R-POTE: Mana/Konoka
