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So I have a very loud mechanical keyboard because I put no thought into upgrading my old 2009 keyboard. Hey, everyone has mechanical keyboards and mine is literally 14 years old, so idk buy the first thing I see on Amazon! NOW MY TIPPITY TAPPERS ARE LOUD AF and I stopped typing my semi-yearly post in the deepest darkest of nights in fear of waking my family! WHAT IS THIS. It is all gone, all that information.

I now see why I had so many gibberishly-named text documents on my old HDD of Dreamwidth drafts, for precisely THIS REASON.

Anyways yes, it is indeed 2023. Well into 2023 in fact. I went over a full calendar year of posting nothing here. 2022 is as blank as my life. Now listen, I only returned (and remembered this blog existed) because of one lovely friend Aoi-dono, who somehow launched Negima back into my life in a form of supreme nostalgia since I avoided that shit like the plague after I was done with it. Fandoms with poor endings and bitter feelings really do not pop back up often, but wow was Negima music pretty fire, and the concerts with all the talented and lovely VAs really amazing and heartwarming. Rewatching a lot of that, and finding out that true ending of Negima was revealed in the poorly made sequel UQ! Holder was definitely revitalizing for me. I ended up skimming/rereading Negima itself too, and rewatching a few episodes. And even though that fanservice and those ages absolutely did not age well, the degree of nostalgia was still pretty high. I still love my favourites (Asakura and Sayo!) and remember how much I rambled about them on this blog.

For this reason I thought that a good yearly post would be a full on Negima review, now knowing the true ending and having like...idk 12 years of reflection? The manga ended that long ago? Jesus fucking Christ I am old. But yeah this manga is something aimed at an audience that I am not at all within. One big reason it clung to me (and Aoi-dono probably) is that there was an official yuri couple who existed not as the main plot, but not as a one-off background cameo kinda thing either.  They were important characters who happened to be in a relationship, sorta like Uranus and Neptune of Sailor Moon but appearing way earlier. This was especially refreshing in a harem series where most girls/characters are meant to be attracted to the main character, this being ten-year-old Negi Springfield, a wizard from Wales.

So yeah, that's already a million degrees of problematic. A ten-year-old boy and his 14-year-old students? Not only is that a power dynamic through teacher-student relations, the girls are about 4-5 years older than him that if they were well into their twenties is not a bad age-gap, but here with fanservice abound? Egads. This is why people say Anime is a mistake. It's very degenerate. But I was a similar age as the girls when I first got into Negima. I found the girls fighting and their abilites super badass and cool as a teenager. The fanservicey lovey dovey stuff I tried to ignore, which was easy since my favourite characters ended up being two who were either not at all in the running for the Negi sweepstakes or had such a remote chance of winning it isn't even worth mentioning, that being Asakura and Sayo. They were not at all as important as most characters because unless you were the main female lead, had a serious interest in Negi, or were the aforementioned yuri couple, your screentime and relevance to the plot would usually be nil. Still, I fell in love with the series once the semi-canon Anime aired and gave us its original backstory for Sayo, who NEVER got one in the main manga anyways. This is unlike every other iteration/adaptation of the manga, which made absolutely sure Sayo got her backstory episode in or at least a limelight episode.

I loved that all the adaptations seemed to value the class of 3A greatly, and put somewhat of a backseat for Negi. The opposite was the case with the manga, but the animations and such all seemed to be more interested in the harem-comedy aspect of the manga as opposed to its more shouneny nature later. However, I will say the shounen aspects were well-done and enjoyable, and it is a shame most of it was left on the wayside and never animated. My favourite arc, the Mahorafest had so much screentime and relevance for the girls but also included quite a lot of action and shounen. That mix was perfect but it was the one arc with no such attempt at animation at all (except a very short clip of the momentous final battle) when it would have been my favourite arc to see on screen. Previous arcs still were experimenting with the shounen and was heavily harem hijinks heavy while the Magical World devolved into full-on-shounen with the girls as support and accessories, and their only plot relevance reduced to the romance aspect more than anything else.

To elaborate, this manga was at its prime when it mixed the two genres equally. The big bad villain was one of the students and a portion of the class sided with her, so we had classmates duking it out while Negi fought the boss. It involved as many of the girls as possible through festival hijinks and even had them joining in on the final battle in the form of a masquerade to still keep magic a secret, as the existence of magic and its reveal was the primary conflict of the arc. The funny thing is my favourite characters probably had the least amount of screentime in this arc, but yet it was still my favourite of them all. (Though Sayo was introduced at the beginning of the arc so it did start Asakura and Sayo's friendship! Woo!)

Later on as it transitioned to the Magical World, the arc started very strong. I love the idea of the big bad absolutely destroying the whole team and scattering them across an unknown world, sort of like an isekai of sorts. It would have been fascinating to see how some of these girls, especially the mundane ones and extra especially the stowaways who snuck in would have fared in a more fantasy-like and rough world. Sadly a majority of the arc still focused on Negi, and only a chapter or two each was shown of what the others were doing and how they survived. I think that was a huge missed opportunity of interesting stories. It would have made an already incredibly long arc longer, but knowing how it all ended and how rushed the ending of the arc was, I don't think it mattered. Ako being helpless and ending up as the load for Akira and Natsumi, thus needing Negi to save them was disappointing. I didn't think they would have fared well, but it  would have been more interesting if literally anything else happened. Makie and Yuuna ended up in a similar situation without the slavery, so that was both disappointing and boring. This was integral considering Yuuna's backstory of both parents being mages, and the manga revealing her mother was killed in action for the same conflict of the main plot, so for her to be mostly offscreen being a waitress and for this revelation to come way later with no payoff was yet again wasted opportunity. Of all characters to need development in the Magical World, she was the one.

And even outside of character arcs and development, the story of how Haruna managed to obtain an airship would have been fun, even for a chapter. What was Ku Fei doing outside of standing on top of a rock? How did Asakura get to the city and use her presumable street-smarts to not fall into slavery and be recognized as a fugitive like all the others? Why did we put Asuna, Konoka, Setsuna, and Kaede in the same vicinity and just have them be Monster Hunters? How bloody boring is that? Especially for how plot relevant Asuna gets later in the arc, for her to have such a snoozeworthy start in the Magical World is another bundle of disappointment. We get some interesting chapters with Nodoka but her companions are super forgettable. The only character who gets an arc and a gaggle of interesting side characters is Yue, which is nice, but she was the only one. Anya could be removed from the entire story and nothing would change.

I initially did not carry these criticisms because some of my favourite characters like Chisame, Asakura, and Sayo were found first. Not only did I not need to wait eons for my favourites to return in the weekly chapters, but they got decent screentime. Asakura finally got her long overdue pactio, which has a suspiciously named artifact. (Corvus??? CORVUS??? Corvinus??? Listen if I see crows and journalism in the same panel I WONDER.) They also de-aged her like Chisame and Chachamaru, which was cute (MY ICON!!) until Akamatsu decided no age is free from fanservice, so that was weird. At least voodoo Sayo is cutesy and happy! But once her utilization was realised she was shipped off to do her duty and she and poor Chachamaru lost their screentime. Chisame though was quite the trooper and I was happy she was basically lead main female for the arc essentially. Still, was Negi's demon form and his struggle to control/master it... did he need to achieve that like three separate times??? It really felt like three separate times. It might have been two, but definitely felt like three. All that wasted time could have gone to these day in the limelight chapters where we can see things like Haruna's world-conquering beginnings and such.

Anyway the reason I bring up the girls becoming far more like support/accessories is that Negi becomes so powerful none of the girls can catch up, so they can only clean up mooks or fight far less powerful minions and such. Not only that, every enemy Negi faces and needs to overcome is a dude. They are either very manly dudes like Rakan, or essential big bad rival guys like Fate, or some random one-off who wants to fight Negi to TEST THEIR STRENGTH, who could very well just be a girl for diversity's sake, but god forbid any member of the female gender be able to fight and not have their clothes ripped off, or even that their defeat IS that their clothes is ripped off. I don't even think there was a tournament fighter that was a girl, and those characters weren't even important. The Magic World just felt so shonen with no girls whatsoever. Not only that, Fate also obtained his own harem of equally weak and unimportant devoted accessory girls. This viewpoint is especially extenuated when I found out about one of the love interests in the sequel, UQ! Holder.

Now I did not actually read most of UQ! Holder so take this with a grain of salt, but from what I read online of others and their opinions, there is a character named Kuromaru who does the Shimeiryuu stuff Setsuna does, but is from a different clan or whatever of demi-humans. These demi-humans determine their gender at some age (16? Idk sometime after puberty kinda age) so Kuromaru for most of the manga is genderless. They initially identified as a boy, and wanted to be a boy but because they developed feelings for the MC, who is a boy mind you, found it fitting to be a girl. But not only that, they thought they couldn't be equals with MC, like best buddies and fighters who can rival one another or something if they were a girl, so thus had to be a boy for that reason. This entire character could have been so interesting, but ended up feeling incredibly offensive to me. This means Akamatsu believes shonen fighting people must all be men, but if romantic feelings are involved they must all be women because god forbid there be a homosexual MLM relationship or a woman who is equal to men. It's a fantasy series for Christs' sake, like even if real life biologically women cannot keep up with men physically, in a world with dragons and magic and BS like that, that very reasonable fantasy should be possible! Now while I understand Kuromaru may have identified as heterosexual and that part of them fought against their desire to be male, I highly doubt there was that much nuance in UQ! Holder. My opinion of him really dropped after reading that, and seeing how poorly the fanservice aged, but again I did not actually read UQ! Holder (and feel SO little interest in doing so) so some of that might not be 100% accurate.

Although I will say the character did end up as basically a tomboyish girl after that, so maybe it was best of both worlds? She still fell far behind MC combat-wise and can't be described as equals in the fighting sense though, so who knows.

Another example is the reveal and development of Negi's mother. Mothers are a big deal in Negima (and Anime in general, honestly) because they DO NOT EXIST. They either are never mentioned or die in the backstory/beginning of the story. Fathers in Negima include Negi's, Konoka's, and Yuuna;s, which is still  very little but at least they exist in some capacity. Negi's mother, Arika was revealed to be super important to the political and royal sphere of the Magical World, but the moment she met Negi's father, any power she wielded became irrelevant and she was just there to be head over heels for super cool shounen guy and be the baby momma. What had happened to her and why she isn't present in the story now is never mentioned or revealed, not even in the ending shown in the sequel. Trash.

So yeah revisiting Negima did not really raise my opinion of the manga, probably the opposite. The rushed ending notwithstanding (I am not even going to go into that, it was just rushed and bad, the defeat of the big bad utterly skipped, whatevs) and really at the time the biggest injustice was that a chapter teased a Sayo pactio along with others, which suggested finally touching on her backstory potentially, but every other character teased got the pactio and she didn't. And then the story suddenly wrapped up so there was nothing there whatsoever even though they teased it. Manga notes in some earlier chapters revealed she had died to some series of murders during World War II, but that was never touched upon. The first Anime gave a completely different backstory and every other adaptation did not touch Sayo's backstory. An absolute shame. I guess I should just be happy she shot some gatling guns or whatever and was piloting a robot body like a mecha. Wow cool.

An even bigger slap in the face was revealing Sayo still being in that same 3-A c lassroom in UQ! Holder like 80 years after. The epilogue of Negima had her escape her school shackles and travel with Asakura, but somehow she went back to the school and never resolved whatever was tethering her soul to  this earth? I would imagine Asakura might have dug up some sort of backstory eventually, being the sleuth and reporter she is. It's incredibly disappointing that nothing changed, Negi didn't help her either, she never presumably figured out why she died, and she's now been stuck in that spot for a whopping 140 years. Jesus Christ, FREE THAT GHOST! FREE HER!!!

The finale piece to this puzzle was the ending Negima would have got being revealed in UQ! Holder. Sure there was oodles of action where Negi fought bravely and had Asuna's broken and ancient magic-cancelling powers to defeat the Lifemaker, but there was also the answer of who he ended up with. The alternate timeline UQ! Holder is set in was deeply unfulfilling, since characters long-dead somehow showed up for the epilogue like Konoka or Chisame, and Negi somehow had babies ever after with everyone. (Even Asuna who should be in a plot-induced sleep atm) But the ending revealed for Negima itself, without the alternate future of UQ! Holder had Negi confess to... spoilers! Chisame of all people! And this was both unexpected and expected. Expected because Chisame (like Asuna) is similar to the main heroine of Akamatsu's earlier work, Love Hina, but unexpected because Chisame was never part of the main pactio'd or fighter girl cast until well into the Mahorafest arc, and then not actually becoming truly important until the Magical World. She showed no interest in Negi until that final arc too.

But even then, Chisame rejected him because of all the aforementioned very problematic reasons. Though he means well and is a really cool guy, he's still ten, is her (now former I guess) teacher and her a student, and she just isn't ready for such commitment as well, hoping if he still likes her many years down the road when any other girl could catch his eye, he could try again. That's finally a sensible response to all this harem nonsense, and her maturity is probably why Negi liked her best anyways. She never had ulterior motives to give him advice or be by his side. She even asked why he tried so hard to find his dad when he was having a great peaceful life just being a teacher at their school. Everyone else would just support him and his decisions completely and never challenge him or give him another viewpoint of what he is doing , and I think Negi respected that. I was happy Chisame won, it both made sense, and I like her character too!

I also like that the many  fans of the other girls in the running were supremely salty about this ending because I have been on that other side a thousand times, and even if I wasn't super invested in whoever won the harem still feel good about it at least just this once. I cannot believe Negima did what MLP, RWBY, etc. didn't do. That's mindbogglingly amazing.

In conclusion, did not age well, sequel is even worse, but original ending was kinda okay! Still no closure for favourite characters. Asakura's technically dead I guess. WELP. That is about all from me.

As for my current fandom interests as this is primarily a fandom blog, I have switched up to more unscripted fandoms like DnD or music fandoms, or live content like streams because storytelling can be so unreliable in quality. Might as well let random chance and improv dictate it instead! About the only new fandom that isn't part of that criteria I found was the Pokemon Manga, Pokemon Special. Blue is best girl! And Black and White is the best arc. GO AGENCYSHIPPING!!!

That is all.

 
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So on my Sims game I have a whole bunch of OTPs living together. Been doing this for a while just to keep my favourite girls in one place. Recently I've set aside basement space for specific types of OTPs... the ones that no longer can function in canon. As in, they have been super sunk and no reality or dream can make life better for these ships. However, the criteria for them is a lot more nuanced than simply a ship that cannot go on. I thought to define these sets of criteria, to truly express my despair at how far down these ships fell.

Initially half the OTPs were in this unfortunate club, but I began thinking about how the two characters were treated in canon and how they interacted, and one definitely has a lot more going for them than the other two. There are six OTPs in total living in the household. This is the order I put them in from absolutely canon, no doubts about it all the way to these two characters have canon ships with someone else

1. YuuTouko from Bloom Into You
Bloom Into You is literally a romance story about these two as a couple, or blooming into a couple I should say. It does NOT get more canon than them!

2. KyouSaya from Puella Magi Magica Madoka
Though the status of their mortality is complicated, and I have yet to see the sequel, Magia Record if these two are even in them, as of Rebellion they're not explicitly canon, but as canon as one can get. Sayaka's little subplot with her dude crush is lightyears away at this point.

3. AyaSanae from Touhou Project
A rarepair! Not at all canon, but the nature of Touhou where romance doesn't exist and no one ever dies means literally zero ships will ever be canon or sunk, so these two can be a forever dream, never to come true, but never to be quashed either. Unless something in the status quo has changed, it is firmly on this tier.

4. Tenmiko from Danganronpa V3, Killing Harmony
And this is the ship I mentioned earlier, where I have firmly decided they do not belong in the basement of tears. Yes, one character is canonly dead so it's not as if this ship can ever sail, but they had lots of interaction in canon, and their development as characters depended on each other the most of any other. Plus it is canon in a one-sided sense, as Tenko had chased Himiko until her death. ):

5. Monochrome from RWBY
How are these guys not dead last!? I blame the MLP finale. Yes, Blake is with Yang, but as of season 6 as I have not seen 7 yet, Weiss is still a suitable bachelorette! The series is not over, and technically anything can happen. Also neither of them are dead or anything. I will elaborate on their status later on.

6. PinkieShy from My Little Pony, Friendship is Magic
Sigh.

Pinkie Pie and Fluttershy had the least amount of potential anyway, but it's still gives me a bit of a sad twang what happened to them. Not so much that they are in official relationships with other ponies/creatures even though they are, but rather that throughout the entire nine seasons of MLP, several movies and specials of EQG, and throughout all the comics as far as I'm aware, we never got a single episode focused especially on these two. No conflict of friendship they needed to get through, no obstacle from a third party the two of them had to get over, absolutely nothing. The closest I got was Buckball Season, where the two started their professional sports careers. No I did not see that coming whatsoever, but while it was a lovely episode, they shared it with RD and AJ, and the conflict was between the four of them. In subsequent episodes featuring Buckball, the two of them were always in the backdrop of a different plot, usually involving Rainbow Dash. Why bother putting them in this situation if every future Buckball episode just focuses on the already-an-athletic-member-of-the-cast anyway!? Gah.

There was one EQG short that focused on them, which was ironically a cheerleading short... whereas in Ponyland the two ARE the athletes and that one Buckball episode was Rainbow Dash coaching the cheerleaders... let's just say the EQG short was charming and cute but rather generic in execution. It got to the point that I was simply hoping anytime any of the ponies were paired together it would be them, just once. And not in a lazy, boring way either. Rainbow Roadtrip had the two of them sharing an activity and thus befriending the same villagers, but their subplot was by far the least interesting of them all in an already dull and slow-paced special. You COULDN'T EVEN MAKE MY TWO FAVOURITE PONIES INTERESTING, HOW, WHY. The two of them didn't really interact with one another, so yea. Plus every other member of the main six each had an individual subplot in the story so it felt like Ponks and Floots were like the leftovers they weren't sure what to do with.

But stuff like the Best Gift Ever special, where I was hoping the Secret Santa would yield interesting pairs instead of the same ones over and over again---NOPE! It's the same ones over and over again. They even did it in EQG too. Why is Rainbow Dash always getting Fluttershy? Yes we have had numerous episodes focusing on the two and they were childhood friends as well, so why do we need even MORE interaction for them? Especially this late in the series when the show is ending soon, you could explore OTHER pairs and other interactions but EVEN STILL you just go back to your usual? WHY?!?! You could have done Rainbow with Twilight or something, or Dash with Rarity, or even Dash with Pinkie. We also got Pinkie and Twilight as the pair (it was even MORE disappointing when most everyone just got each other, instead of everyone having to give presents to another pony, like what are the chances of that?) and Rarity got AJ as always. AJ only got Spike so we could have more Spike and Rarity interaction. The song in the end was cute and to be fair, Spike sought out Rarity because of his crush so that one is understandable, but the rest is aggravating.

They probably would have been rock bottom in the list anyway, but I was hoping for at least one episode involving them before the whole series ended. Their dynamic started out strong in Season One, which was a season that was a lot softer and wholesome than the following seasons. See, after season one they ditched their educational rating, so the episodes had more freedom to do whatever and wasn't so strict in terms of their target demographic. However what season one did and what I'm sure Lauren Faust emphasized, since she stepped down after this season and wasn't involved whatsoever beyond the second season, is to keep Pinkie grounded. What I mean is that, it seems like she knew that Pinkie had that potential to devolve into that LOLRANDOM type of character who would become more and more controversial and annoying over time, and in season one it seemed like the writers made sure not to let Pinkie fall into that territory. But without her influence and that child-friendly rating they were free to write Pinkie as they saw fit, and moulded her into the type of comedy they wanted to write as opposed to writing the comedy around Pinkie.

This leads to discrepancies, from Pinkie understanding Fluttershy's sensitivity in episode five all the way in season one, to becoming a one-dimensional gag in episode fourteen of season four, all to worsen Fluttershy's anxiety with her innocently insensitive remarks. We are supposed to laugh at Pinkie because she doesn't know better, but SHE DID KNOW BETTER. She did. I know I've ranted about Filli Vanilli to death at this point, and the episode's reputation is moreso the fans' complaints over the actual content, but as someone who loves both these characters I can't let go of it. Especially when the two of them lack much interaction at all, having one of them to be so negative (as well as the Putting Your Hoof Down incident in season two) leaves a lot to be desired. Who would actually ship them after those negative interactions? Nobody. A lot of the ship's popularity came early, when Pinkie sang and jumped across the gorge to encourage Fluttershy, when Fluttershy jump-hugged her out of worry in Appleloosa. There are however isolated scenes in the later seasons where their interactions have been largely positive. The most notable is the scene in The Mean Six, of season eight. Fluttershy is upset due to a misunderstanding with the animals through an anti-version of her running around, and Pinkie's first impulse is to hug and comfort her, and stop all gags and progress in the camping trip to console her. It's great and I love it, but alas it is just one scene in one season, when their last notable interaction was back in season six in Buckball Season.

Plus a lot of the more recent Pinkie episodes have had her largely separated from the rest of the group. The conflict isn't Pinkie vs. another pony of the main six, but Pinkie is causing the conflict and the rest of them have to fix it, or she goes off to Yakyakistan like always to solve her problem somehow. She doesn't do anything special or specific with any other character. The only reason we got some of that in the theatrical movie was because that movie was written by the earlier writers of the series, who stopped working on the show specifically to focus on the movie. Though Pinkie was still doing some odd and annoying things (We get that she loves to have fun, but she shouldn't be having fun and being goofy to the detriment of others or her own life, like when she leaped happily on the rope and almost fell to her death, but wasn't even phased when Twilight was rightfully angry with her after saving her) she was still in the right when it came down to the climax, but because of her actions previously we completely understand Twilight's frustrations and fury.  

I suppose the last time it was Pinkie versus another specific pony from the Mane Six, it was the Pinkie vs. Rainbow Dash one about pies. Of course I can complain again that PinkieDash eps aren't new or interesting, but even so this episode wasn't like, overdone at this point. I did not mind another Pinkie and Rainbow Dash episode, but in the context of Pinkie episodes as a whole, where she doesn't seem to have many episodes later on with another specifically it's a little disappointing. Secrets and Pies was kind of an iffy episode anyway. At this point with its running theme I get that Pinkie is sensitive herself (which makes her insensitivity all the more annoying) but it still bothers me how often that flaw of hers comes up, and how often everyone else tries to avoid it. Maybe if they told her the truth more often she would not have this complex? I don't know.

As someone whose favourite pony is Pinkie Pie I sure do have a lot to criticize! Well why couldn't she have gone WITH someone to fix Cheese Sandwich in her final episode? And why did they paint Pinkie so dumb in the trivia episode? Yeah she may not have knowledge of everything, but I would imagine with Pinkie's ridiculous organization skills and photographic memory she'd know SOME things. Often these types of characters are wiser than they seem, as a sort of comedic contrast to their personality. I've seen that kind of wisdom come from Pinkie before, but nope! She dumb. Hurr. Especially when the other contestants were largely other ponies of average minds. Like Rainbow Dash is there, and she isn't notable in terms of her study habits, so what gives? I'm not even gonna start with Yakity-Sax.

It's sad when the later Pinkie episodes aren't that great when compared to her champion marathon through season four. Seriously ALL of her episodes in season four were absolute top-tier. Season five was okay, but it all died when the Yaks were introduced. I dunno if they're a symptom necessarily, or a causation, but the episodes did drop in quality when her episodes only involved Yaks or Maud. Yeah I liked the Maud episodes but those were because of Maud, not Pinkie. 

But ANYWAY, about the other ships. I've already given my two cents on the Monos. Well, not necessarily. The reason they're also low isn't because Bumblebee is a thing, even if it is, it's because as the series went on with the White Fang conflict, it seemed like a no-brainer that the Schnee Dust Company and thus Weiss would enter the subplot one way or another, considering the White Fang and the SDC are opposites and enemies. But unfortunately, any nuance or subtlety that plot had was thrown out the window when Adam's character was reduced to that of a psychotic ex-boyfriend. It was like any passion he had in his movement, even if he was extreme, was thrown on the wayside for his absolute pursuit of Blake and everyone Blake loves, specifically Yang. It was a political story about discrimination and oppression, but instead of going for everything they set up for as early as the trailers themselves, it just became like a twisted love-triangle thing to advance romance. Like I wasn't expecting Blake or Weiss to get together, but I knew from their backstories they had this thematic conflict brewing and it would reach a climax one day, with great payoff, but instead we the audience are shocked to see Adam branded with the SDC logo, and then killed off, and Weiss not being a part of any of this. She never even met him! Even if what I expected to happen DID happen and Bumblebee sailed anyway, I'd be less upset. Maybe I'd be upset in the "but they had such great dynamic through their shared pasts!" argument, but at least the story I thought would come to fruition actually did, and if Bumblebee happens it happens.

And somehow these two ships are lower than the one where one is DEAD. Even if Himiko has in canon only ever shown interest in men, and even if she'd never see Tenko beyond a potential friend, when their friendship was finally turning a new leaf and then DEATH, they are still higher than those two. Y'know why? BECAUSE THEIR STORIES DID HAPPEN. THEY CAME TO A CONCLUSION AND WENT SOMEWHERE. Whereas Pinkie and Fluttershy never had an episode despite being TWO of the main characters in a show called FRIENDSHIP IS MAGIC in the span of over TWO HUNDRED EPISODES, and where Blake and Weiss had massive foreshadowing for some sort of racial and political plot from as EARLY AS THEIR TRAILERS which started in the first two seasons but then never went ANYWHERE, at least Tenko and Himiko's stories HAPPENED!! 

And I love their tragic story. Their subplot and characters may be underappreciated by fans, but the writer did not shy away from their progress. Tenko was written to advance Himiko's character. This is true, because Tenko's story ended before the halfway mark, and Himiko went on to survive. But even so, what we did get of Tenko is someone who was genuinely in love with, and cared for the person that is Himiko. She started off with a very shallow and superficial crush that evolved over time to something beautiful. When she saw that Himiko was not the perfect mage girl she had dreamed of, she did her utmost to protect her and guide her along the right path, to help mould Himiko to that ideal. Himiko was suffering and needed someone to be there for her, and for most of the first two chapters it could not be Tenko, because Tenko still only saw Himiko as a shallow crush, but when it came time to defend Himiko when she became a suspect, and when Himiko fell into the cult at her weakest hour, Tenko was there to defend, to go undercover, to protect and assist. Himiko's escapism was met with Tenko's grounded philosophy, so even if the ship could never come true, even if Tenko lived, their stories were intertwined together. They could not exist without the other in the plot! Himiko would be dead if not for Tenko, and Tenko may have had no one to latch on as a morality pet without Himiko what with her overdone and one-note hatred of men.

I don't think I really need to bother with the other three, but I will say my current favourite OTPs are... the ones in the bottom 3. Alas! This is not unique to this ship either. I recall being similarly upset with KazuSayo from Negima. Every character in the class would have their pactio chapter one-day, where they enter a contract with the main character. It was something that always happened and usually did after some character discovered magic's existence, but not necessarily right after. Kazumi discovered it way long ago but only entered the contract in the final arc, but what I was waiting for was for Sayo's. Usually anyone with even an inkling of a crush on the main character got lots of spotlight and panel time for their pactio, and Sayo did have a minor one. I was waiting with eager anticipation for Sayo's chapter, so I'd see more Sayo and therefore Kazumi since they were best friends. They even teased it in like the first page or the front page of the magazine the manga was published in, but it NEVER HAPPENED because Negima suddenly ended. THE SALT I HAD was unfathomable. It's not as if it ended without a conclusion because it got cancelled somehow. The mangaka ended it himself as a protest for some law. A story he had been illustrating for like eight years suddenly over. He simply rushed out a conclusion and epilogue despite many story beats only starting or in the process of, and ended it.

I waited many years for that pactio. Sayo's knowledge of magic came quite shortly after her first appearance, what with magic being required for her to be seen, so I was not a happy camper to say the least. My investment on the actual plot and the more important characters was waning, especially since it had become a full-blown shounen manga, and the main character's power level had advanced so far that all of his students, even the most powerful ones with like one exception could not possibly catch up and could only play support. Only the male characters he meets or already knows with great passion for fighting could rival him, which made the story all the more boring and annoying. A story with such a varied cast of females reduced to that of support in a shounen manga was just not something I felt inclined to follow. My only reason for reading on was for the supposedly-inevitable and even teased Sayo pactio. But it never happened.

I am sad that that scenario happened not once, but twice again. 

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 i was bored on a sunday monday night have at thee

also spoilers for everything, but most crucially danganronpa v3

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OTP quiz
Pick your 10 top OTPs without reading the questions.
 
1. Tenmiko
2. Monochrome
3. KeneMoko
4. PinkieShy
5. KazumiSayo
6. AyaSanae
7. MercyMaker
8. ReiMax
9. KaoruMiyako
10. Creek (idk i don't have 10 otps this was the hardest question in the quiz)
 
1. Do you remember the episode/scene/chapter that you first started shipping 6?
 
Yes because due to it being a rarepair, this comic series was the entire reason I shipped it and continued shipping it, as there was little content for the ship outside of it. Maybe a few more comics and artwork inspired by the person who shipped this a lot, which is great but also so little. ;_;
 
2. Have you ever read a FanFiction about 2?
 
Yes, but mostly I've written for it instead of read. (this is an understatement >_>)
 
3. Has a picture of 4 ever been your screen saver/profile picture/tumblr?

Yep. It was adorable and no one asked questions because no one should question pink ponies.
 
4. If 7 were to suddenly break-up today, what would your reaction be?
 
Well that's not unexpected. Also they weren't canon to begin with, so....
 
5. Why is 1 so important?
 
BECAUSE NO ONE APPRECIATES THE IMPORTANCE OF FEMALE FRIENDSHIPS ENOUGH AND THIS IS THE PRIME EXAMPLE IN DANGANRONPA BUT PEOPLE STILL IGNORE IT ANYWAY!1!!1!
 
6. Is 9 a funny ship or a serious ship?
 
Well considering the third wheel was given the comedic relief role...
 
7. Out of all of the ships listed, which ship has the most chemistry?
 
10 because they're canon. THERE'S IRREFUTABLE PROOF.
 
8. Out of all of your ships listed, which ship has the strongest bond?
 
... like in my mind or in canon? If it's from canon obviously number ten, but probably 3 or 5 otherwise.
 
9. How many times have you read/watched 10’s fandom?
 
Several times off and on over the years.
 
10. Which ship has lasted the longest?
 
In what way? What's the oldest one? Ten by a longshot. That I still love and ship to pieces? Three.
 
11. How many times, if ever, has 6 broken up?
 
Gee, how many times has the non-canon rarepair broken up? Gee, I dunno. I hope they don't? I can see them breaking up once dramatically because personality clashes, especially on Aya's side because she's dense or w/e, but being an otp I can also see them overcoming such an obstacle and making up afterwards.
 
12. If the world was suddenly thrust into a zombie apocalypse, which ship would make it out alive, 2 or 8?
 
2 because they actually know how to fight...but 8 has a giant turtle and tiger on their side... hmmm... I'd still give slight edge to number 2 since they trained their whole lives for that kind of thing.
 
13. Did 7 ever have to hide their relationship for any reason?
 
Well if they happened to be canon, I imagine that is something that must be done otherwise it'd be controversial as fuck as they are on opposite sides of a like a war (or some sort of warlike dispute lol) and one's a terrorist or whatever and the other is a doctor, so....
 
14. Is 4 still together?
 
Nobody ever wants 4 to be together. D<
 
15. Is 10 canon?

YES LOL
 
16. If all 10 ships were put into a couple’s Hunger Games, which couple would win?
 
Mokou's fucking immortal, but Sayo is a already dead and a ghost, but Keine can actually fight, but Aya and Sanae are no pushovers, and the monos fucking specialize at fighting monsters... uhhhhhh. Tenmiko because HIMIKO IS A MAGICAL SURVIVING UNDERDOG, and Tenko will do ANYTHING to KEEP HER ALIVE!!! EVEN IF SHE DIES HERSELF!
 
17. Has anybody ever tried to sabotage 5’s ship?
 
If some irredeemable monster ever tried to do that, they would immediately realize the error of their ways, and wracked with such incredible guilt they would publically stone themselves to death and then apologize to them as a ghost, offering their soul to serve them for the rest of eternity, but because number 5 is the purest and kindest otp of all, they would forgive the monster instantly, and then the monster would atone for their sins and achieve nirvana for reaching enlightenment.
 
18. Which ship would you defend to the death and beyond?
 
1. I will fucking fight you. Tenmiko is the closest to my absolute ideal ship. I WILL fucking fight you. And it is a ship that needs people to fight for... due to the nature of the plot, and the sheer contrast of the characters there's a lot of people who identify and like one or the other, but not as often both. 
 
19. Do you spend hours a day going through 3’s tumblr page?
 
I have read many a-doujin and looked at many pages of art of KeneMoko, yes. In fact it is my dream to go to some con and actually physically purchase some of these, but alas, Touhou doujin especially of Keine and Mokou and not like... EoSD characters or whatever are extremely difficult to find in the west.
 
20. If an evil witch descended from the sky and told you that you had to pick one of the ten ships to break up forever or else shed break them all forever, which ship would you sink?
 
Wow Himiko, why would you do that? Well considering I couldn't even think of ten otps in the first place, I'd break up one of the lower numbers that I'm not quite as fond of, like MercyMaker. I mean I see them breaking up anyway, maybe getting back together later... that one's quite the hectic dramatic one.
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I've talked to friends and read many posts about what is most important in their life. What matters to them the most; what truly resonates with their soul. A major one I see a lot from friends, internet, and society in  general since it's been a large issue for years and years is sexuality. The debate and fight to get gay marriage passed and the neverending plight to stop discrimination and hate that comes back the other way. There are other major social issues that I see over and over again as well since no matter how good it may seem on the surface compared to so many years ago, something like racial tension will always be around, lurking underneath an innocent exterior or blown right up and smashed into your face if someone massively influential happens to promote it. (We all know who I'm referring to here) Regardless, there are lot of these kinds of thing that people are very passionate about, and very passionate about making them right, making them better.

I have the fortune of not having much attachment to those kind of issues due to not running into much conflict. I guess the word a lot of people use is privilege. For instance, though I am Asian, specifically Chinese, not only do I not run into much racism at least as much as some of my other Asian peers is because I take up the majority of the Asian populace (that or Indian, I'm not entirely sure who has more population at the moment) and I happened to grow up in an incredibly multicultural neighbourhood. My area was so diverse, that there were more Asian people in my high school than white people. White people were the minority. I never really got flak for my race as I grew up. so I never was as passionate as many other less fortunate folk in terms of fighting it, and thus cannot understand to quite their degree their plights. 

I also have the fortune of living in a very liberal city, but not only that, growing up in a family where my brother came out as gay. Although the fallout of that with my family itself was not pleasant, I learned early on that there was no reason whatsoever to be bigoted to people who prefer one sex to another. I learned very early on thanks to my environment that people can like whoever they please and that's seriously not even the in the top ten of issues we should even be concerned about, but we have to because bigots will always exist and always discriminate. In a perfect world you would think most if not all people would be focused on issues affecting the entirety of the human race, such as global warming and its impact on humanity and their quality of life, or helping out those escaping from war-torn authoritarian countries. No, there's still this major debate that people need to care about who people love, and there's still this major debate about racism and sexism and all these other hot-topics that if we were all decent people would in a utopian society would not even be in a blip in our radar, yet here we are.

And it is an important fight that will likely be endless, but that isn't a reason to never fight, for if we never do, we will never improve. Many wonderful. outstanding individuals over many years have progressed us to where we are today, where slavery in its most traditional sense anyway, is no more in many countries, and everyone above a certain age can vote. Still, as important as these issues are, what really resonates with my soul and frankly in the large scheme of things isn't nearly as important as these issues is friendship.

Yet due to how I grew up, it has affected me very deeply. It's impacted who I am, what I like, who I befriend. It shapes my personality, my attitude, and my perspective. I don't think I've yet to run into anyone who is as moulded by this desire for friendship as much as I have, but again I don't know other people inside and out, so I can't be entirely one-hundred-percent sure. When I was very young. I was this small Asian girl about to start school. I remember how small I was because not only were there photos, but because for the entirety of elementary school and even middle school, I was the smallest person in class, bar none. It's possible I forgot a year where I wasn't and happened to be slightly taller than some other student who didn't stick around the school for long, but for most of it all I was the smallest. It's not hard to forget either. I remember one of my gym teachers referring to me and my other smol brethren as munchkins, and my best friend I made in primary school to this day had always nicknamed me shrimp. I am small, and people will not let me forget.

Before I continue let me repeat that I do have the memory of a goldfish, and for whatever sadistic reason it is in human nature for us to be more likely to remember the unpleasant memories over the good ones. Or it's possible I had a miserable childhood, but whatever the case, when I was in kindergarten I only remember making this one friend. We weren't that close since I don't even remember his name, and I don't consider him the first friend I made, since a kid and their family moved into the basement suite we rented out and she became my very very first friend. Still, due to that girl being two years my junior the first friend I made in school was this boy. My single memory of our friendship me as a young child crying uncontrollably hidden under the biggest, very much unsafe slide we had at the playground, and this boy who I assume was probably responsible felt bad and was trying to apologize or cheer me up in some way. I don't recall how. I only recall that it didn't work. He had to stay behind a year for whatever reason my smol child mind could not comprehend, and I moved onto the first grade.

The only thing I remember in all of first grade is that our school was so small some classes did not even have their own classroom. In first grade my classroom was in the gymnasium. That's it. That's all I remember. (In fourth grade my class was in a library until the portable classrooms were finished construction and then we moved there. There was another grade, probably second that was also in the portable classrooms, but I think we also had a legitimate classroom at one point too, so my memory is faint. Only reason I remember this is because I distinctly remember being super excited to have a Gameboy Colour of my very own with a copy of Pokemon Blue. I guess I made out my new fun toy to be too fun because someone stole it from my backpack not very long after. I never saw it again. D<)

Second grade though was when my friend who lived downstairs started school, and unlike me who made that one kid friend and her as a friend she found a clique right away. Unfortunately being different grades causes problems because she'd bond with these other kindergarteners, and I was two years older and then though I was her friend, she'd rather be with these other similarly aged peers. I remember this one time one of her friends had a birthday party, and I was upset because I wasn't invited. Of course I wasn't invited because I wasn't really close to her friend, but I thought since I was her friend and this clique was like, three people outside of me that we could get to all be friends or whatever and it wouldn't be bad if I joined them too. Or in other words I begged my friend's friend to invite me too, and it it worked, but I really wish I didn't do that, or at least it didn't work because that whole party ended up being very awkward. Still, that friend of mine who had this clique was still my friend probably due to our proximity of living spaces, so the year went by.

Third grade luckily I made a friend but the evils that were DIFFERENT GRADES continued because this friend was in the fourth grade. For whatever inane reason the school had this one BIG KID area reversed for ONLY the fourth grade kids. Keep in mind I was in a very small school, and it was called an Annex so it only went up to the fourth grade until you were shuffled over to a full-fledged big Elementary school that went from kindergarten to seventh grade. Some areas in the country, and well the world have a thing called middle school, which we didn't really have in my area, but that second elementary school was pretty much my middle school so when we get to that part I'm just gonna call it middle school anyway. Now obviously my fourth grade friend would of course want to be in this big kid area. All the other big kids were there. It was the cool thing to do, and hanging out with a friend a year younger than you may lead to kids making fun of you or looking down on you for not being in the cool reserved big kids area. I may never know my friend's reasoning, but she was my best friend this year. I never called the kid that had a clique my best friend, but I always referred to her as my first friend and someone I was close to. Third grade was the worst year of this school for me. My lack of any friends in my own grade was quite a disadvantage and this was the first year I experienced everyone's favourite past time in school, BULLYING! I also had the meanest teacher of all time in this year, and remember several times crying during the year of suffering.

Pull a seat and grab a cup of tea because I may be stuck in third grade for a while. During this tremulous year, I was one of two kids that caught head lice. Unlike the other kid who only had a little and thus, was probably caught from me, I had head lice all over my head. I had to have treatment and my hair cut quite short. This one girl bulled me relentlessly for this short hair. And I 100% know I am cis because despite being a super tomboy I seem to be very passionate about letting people know I was not a boy. I do not look like a boy. Fuck you for calling me a boy. Go the fuck to hell. This was not the first time this happened. For you see, I actually had a few friends outside of school that lived on my street. I had this older female friend likely already in middle school, and this boy a year younger than me who introduced me to THE NINTENDO 64 HOLY FUCK. We spent a lot of time bike-riding and playing video games. I am blessed to have spent time outdoors for my early childhood because let me tell ya the moment I got a computer and access to the internet the outside was a long gone memory. Anyway when that older female friend found out I had this friend who was a boy, all hell broke loose. She had this insane concept that boys and girls could not be friends. PLEASE KEEP THIS IN MIND. THIS IS AN ONGOING THEME. And told me if I did not de-friend this boy this instant, she would de-friend me. To make matters worse, she said the fact that I HAD a friend that was male meant I was TURNING INTO A BOY. I ran off crying. My dumb smol child brain believed that I was turning into a boy because of this, but also being one that is a dumb smol child, instead of defending my male friend or staying with that female friend I stopped hanging out with the both of them entirely. I lost two friends because of this stupid concept. That male friend of mine was probably super upset too, that poor child. However the best part of this terrible little incident is my very first friend came and comforted me while I was crying. 

And this whole choose one or the other kind of thing did not stop there. My best friend in school in the fourth grade and I also made this other friend as well. Now this may be relevant, but my best friend was white, and this new friend was native. So even though it seemed like we hung out with one another (we ate lunch together, I think?) my best friend would constantly bully my native friend. This was odd because I was not that close to the native friend. I'm quite sure it was my best friend that befriended her anyway. Or "befriended" I should say, but being the dumb smol child that I was, I did not defend my native friend. That's just as bad as doing the bullying yourself, but I guess at this point I wasn't willing to be assertive or helpful whatsoever because it's quite clear I have this desperation for friendship, and I'd do anything not to rock the boat and lose anymore friends. If given the choice to defend the poor kid being picked on or staying friends with the alpha female, my choice was to do nothing. Because I didn't want to invite more conflict. I feel pretty bad about those kids I did not defend though. I was not a strong person.

Finally, this friend I wanted to stay my best friend moved pretty much after the third grade. I was only friends with her for one year, and I did not help this other friend of ours, and it was all just sort of pointless now that I thought about it, how much I wanted to stay friends with her due to my inaction and thus enabling of her behaviour but perhaps if I did defend that third friend we would be friends instead. Even so that was not the worst part of this year. The teacher making me cry in front of my dad who berated me as I cried was not the worst part of this year. The losing of two friends due to an ultimatum was not the worst part of this year. Being horribly bullied by this girl with head lice was not the worst part of this year. I had a fallout with my very first friend. I felt like she was bossing me around and I was just letting her, and being submissive so I don't lose her as a friend and so did whatever she wanted, whatever she said. I don't recall what exactly caused us to fight, but I stood up for myself for the very first time and it blew up, and this first friend of mine stopped being my friend. We had this feud, this grudge. Every time I walked by she would turn her head and huff, and to have lost all my friends in the span of one year, including my first was a crippling blow. It only further fueled my desperation for friendship, but not only friendship. True friendship. It's not as if this first friend was terrible or toxic because I do remember the fond memory of her supporting me when I was crying, but well, the moment I tried to be independent, or how I felt like I was being bossed around was the moment I lost her.

Anyway I fucking hated third grade, but yay for fourth grade! I may have entered it friendless, but there was this new kid in class. And we became friends pretty much the moment I met her, and she was the one who always called me shrimp and stuff. Unlike all these other friends who were all different grades, weren't even in my school and of different ages, and not someone I clung to or put on a pedestal or whatever, this friend was my peer of my same grade, and she would pick on me a lot. But friendly picking. Like, the first friend where we can make jabs at each other and not step around egg shells. She has been my friend since fourth grade and is still my friend. Of course at this point I was sort of broken, like friendship is SUCH A HUGE ISSUE FOR ME NOW that it eclipsed everything else. Most people would say the point of school is not only for academics but also to become socially intelligent as the years go by. How to treat other people, how to make friends, all that stuff that is healthy for the human psyche. Yet I put all my buns in that second basket, and so my grades were always average except that one weird year I was top of the class for math somehow. I felt like the KING OF THE WORLD and was DESTINED TO BECOME A DOCTOR, but I digress. For anyone reading who knows of my planned trip to California next year, this friend, also known as Tofumold or some other food-related name will be coming with me. However she has never been an affectionate person and doesn't have this friendship complex like I do, so I started having these expectations like "I wish I had friends that would hug me! Because on TV friends hug!" and other such things. She doesn't do that. So while she is my very best friend since childhood, my years of struggle with friendship before this year gave me these humongous expectations to find these ideal friends cartoons like to feed me. Who are these perfect friends that are always on television!?

Also at the same time all this regular grade school stuff was happening, I was enrolled in a Chinese school that took place every Saturday since I was four before I even started regular school. I never made a single friend in this school. I was extremely bitter about this, and though I mentioned being bullied in third grade, the first time I was actually bullied was when I was four by other fellow four-to-five year olds. Like what the fuck? Kids still have souls at this age do they not!? Anyway my lack of friends gave me an incredible lack of motivation to do anything at this school let alone learn, and I was a pretty terrible student. Around tenth grade I outright refused to go back to the school, I was so fed up. In hindsight the idea of being in this school to retain my knowledge of my own native language was very important because of how many people that spoke the language and lived in the area, but I also understand why I never retained it and never managed to learn much of anything. My mindset was so stuck on this whole friendship thing, this thing I wanted so much but struggled so hard to obtain and when I did, to keep, and if I did keep was it even sincere in the first place? This insecurity struck with me my entire school life, and its remnants still remain with me to this day.

So anyway fifth grade came around, we were off to a new school to the wonderful experience that is middle school. Or the years of my school where douchebaggery was highly contagious and infected most if not everyone including myself. Bullies everywhere! IT'S TRUE! MIDDLE SCHOOLERS ARE SOULLESS HUSKS OF A HUMAN BEING! In an effort to not be at the bottom of the social ladder with my friend, there was this probably mentally handicapped kid with a speech impediment that everyone made fun of. We were not exceptions and it was not a proud moment of my life, but just like all the other times of inaction and trying to be with the majority to not stand out and all that kind of jazz it was a thing I did. School feels like this whole dominance kind of thing where followers will always look towards the strongest alpha student, follow their ways to not be seen as weak and thus be picked on by the populace. It's like survival of the fittest; savage animals trying to stay alive. That's why bullying is such a difficult issue to solve, and sometimes the only way to fix it isn't any sort of the safe, peaceful methods the faculty or parents always attempt, like ignoring the bully or telling a teacher or whatever. Those never work. The only time I've seen someone successfully fend off a bully was to stand up for themselves and punch them back, even if they are also suspended or even the only one suspended because of how backwards school rules are. My god, school is like prison. I've always heard to earn respect or to keep yourself from being a target is even if someone fights you, you must fight back. You can't run to a prison guard or try to hide or anything of the like. Even if you lose the fight horribly, as long as you stand up for yourself people will respect you. THAT'S SCHOOL. Can't tell a teacher, can't be a snitch! You're gonna get punished for being in the fight regardless of who initiated! AND YOU WILL BE BEAT UP ANYWAY. Survival of the fittest everyone.

Around this same time I made some friends! Yay! A few female friends and people I even invited to a birthday party. I even had this silly game I had with one of them where we'd grapple our hands and try to push each other like we were sumo wrestling or whatever. I remember fond memories of eating dried noodles from its package and people playing Pokemon cards, Yu-Gi-Oh, and soon even Beyblade. The trends were here! Of course during said birthday party all hell broke loose. I'm being melodramatic probably, but I'm pretty sure I cried at most of my birthday parties. Or at least was not particularly happy about them. Maybe I'm just a sensitive little bitch, who knows. But the one year I remember this being very warranted. One friend I made was like another one of these alpha females. I don't know why I keep calling them this, but it's like this one girl I befriend who is bossy and I always listen to and such. They command the room. They are the leader. Anyway I have this male cousin of mine, two years junior who I was very close to over the years. The markup of my family tree is sort of complicated but essentially we were the only people in our family of similar age, and everyone else was either just being born, or was not born, or was way older than us (including my brother who is over seven years my senior) so I became fast friends with him and he is a huge influence of my life. He introduced me to LF2 and Negima a few years down the line (attempted to introduce me to Re:Zero but after the debacle that was Negima I learned better >_>) He also had like every game console in existence. I remember playing games on his PS Classic like Worms and Gundam, on his PS2, his PS3, his PS4, his Nintendo 64, his Gamecube. He introduced me to Smash and is just as passionate about it as Souless is. (He once brought a CRT TV to a BOAT so he could play Melee properly with his friends. On a boat. Like don't even get on a boat to be on a boat, go on it to play Melee! To be  fair his father was a fisherman so he probably had been on boats most of his life, but still!) I also got him to play Soldat for a few years. It was nice.

So yeah, when this happened a fucking third time, there was no longer inaction or fear of losing a friend. Because my alpha female friend I had made this year was appalled that I had this male cousin who was my friend. She was like NO BOYS ALLOWED! She and the other (female) friends I had invited to the party locked themselves in MY OWN ROOM declaring it a BOY-FREE ZONE, and instead of joining them all I was outside the door with my cousin who was crying. FUCK. THESE. PEOPLE. This was MY birthday party. That was MY room. And this was MY cousin who I had been close to for YEARS! I didn't care that ALL OF MY FRIENDS were in there with her. I STAYED WITH MY COUSIN. I was so angry! I was so appalled. WHY IS THIS CONCEPT OF MALES AND FEMALES BEING FRIENDS SO TERRIBLE? We were EVEN related! I don't even! Holy fucking shit! 

And you know what? I defended my cousin and didn't lose any of my friends. Not even my alpha female friend.

Of course she moved away a year later. If it had gone down similarly to previous incidents, I may have lost friends and then the one I would have kept would have moved away anyway. I avoided this happening a second time by defending my cousin. We also made some male friends at school we'd play a form of tag with all the time, but we were always the ones chasing them so I assume no one wanted to pick that role and we were willing to be the sharks to try to eat them because we were not particularly high on the social ladder at school. I remember very little of sixth grade aside from not being fond of the teacher, but outside of school it was around this time my first friend moved away and another kid, a boy a few years my junior moved in. We became fast friends, played LF2 and NHL 97, and for a brief period of time this other kid in the neighbourhood played those games with us too. This was also around the time I got my first hamster, and I think I influenced HIS life quite a bit because we really enjoyed manhandling these hamsters (I know better now, lol. Imagine if my parents had any presence in my life during these times of turmoil how different this would all be) and when he finally moved like 90% of my friends do he got himself his own hamster. I got a boy to like hamsters. Cute. He also played Beyblades with me and it seems like though I struggle to keep female friends, I always find similar hobbies and interests with this guy friends and always actually DO stuff together. This never seemed to be the case with most of my female friends. Luckily my very best friend also enjoyed video games, so there was that to bond over. Alas I do not remember much else of this year, so moving on to the seventh grade which i do remember quite a bit.

During this year, we made friends with these two boys that sat at our same table. I actually knew one of the boys for a long time to the point that my family would be like "OH IT'S SPOTTO'S BOYFRIEND!1!" playfully or whatever, but only became friends this year. What's amusing to me is that the OTHER boy actually confessed to my best friend at the end of the year. She didn't recuperate, but that's sort of interesting. I only stayed friends with the boys, but one thing that truly touched me is on my birthday I was given this sketch of myself with a little doggy (because I loved dogs a lot!) and balloons everywhere out of the whim. I still have that drawing on my wall to this day and it is my favourite birthday present ever. I did not have to invite him to my birthday party to get a present. He just did it just because. I wonder if he too liked me beyond friends, but idk. I was still struggling with friendship and my brain was wired that boys and girls could be friends that I never really thought about romance whatsoever. I was a smol child with a smol child brain. Pretty sure I still have a smol child brain now too. 

Anyway it was a generally happy year except that one time I threw up in front of the class during quiet time and got relentlessly picked up by this asshole jock. I also remember this year (or was it the last?) where the popular girl made me do her homework. YAY MIDDLE SCHOOL! But still, I had close reliable friends who I didn't feel like were just friends just because, but people who really cared about me. This was the year I was king of math. Is there a particular reason for that? I don't know. But I think I do better in academics when I'm not flailing about drowning trying to make friends. For once in my life, I felt stable. I had a good friendship with the boy that lived downstairs, and spent lots of time with him and this other kid. I was friends with the kids at my table. My best friend was still here. This was not a year where I yearned for friendship. I had it.

Then everything changed when high school attacked. 

Luckily me and my best friend went to the same high school but due to where our school was located and where people lived, basically everyone at our grade split off to four different high schools. I never saw those boys again. In high school we did end up making some friends... all female. it was a very large clique with say 8-10 people, but due to my everlasting status of being near the bottom of the social ladder and my friendship complex, me and my best friend were not anywhere close to alpha female position, let's just say. I had this desire to make more friends, but CLOSE friends just like with my best friend. But in a clique there's usually even more inner cliques. Two girls will be best friends and do all the stuff together. Same with these other two girls. I came into this clique with my own best friend already, but we weren't all in the same classes ALL the time. And these friends of mine were closer to these other girls probably because they didn't put each other on pedestals or have clingy friendship complexes, so it was difficult to really grow close. I liked the girls that were nicer to me and such, but even then. It was also at this time my time on the internet went on a rise and I found friends online. Online friends who shared VERY close interests to mine since we could communicate over long distances and I didn't know anyone in my school with very similar interests. Due to such, I grew much more closer to these internet friends. I think the most significant of these were the BIFF. Today, only two of the BIFF remain but they have become ultra close friends with me especially Akira, and now I've learned that best friends are few and far between, but will always be there with you. It's not all about having sixty thousand friends and expecting them to all be as devoted as the few.

Akira is the other friend coming down to SFO with me! Let me talk about the internet friends too! We all bonded over Beyblade. Obviously no female friend of mine in high school gave two shits about Beyblade, so the internet was all I could turn to. Unfortunately my best friend who I do share interests with we always sort of miss that interest by a few steps. Like how she prefers RPGs and I prefer shooters, or how she likes Yu-Gi-Oh and I liked Beyblade. We were close! SIMILAR GENRES EVEN, but no cigar! Only the internet could solve this everlasting problem, and solve it did! I began writing stupid stories on crack about Beyblade characters and made friends in the fanfiction community. I had been writing as a hobby since I was like nine on my brother's ancient laptop, so it was not unfamiliar territory for me. Since making friends was SO rad to me I became very attached to these people like I knew them in real life, even if all we had was Beyblade. But once that interest faded, a majority of them faded as well because we didn't really do anything else nor have similar interests otherwise. It was more like a club that liked this one thing, and once people left the club because they weren't interested, it was no more.

No hard feelings or anything... well except this one incident where one of our club blocked us all of sudden, and I foolishly, like the foolish desperate clingy person I was, tried all I could to at least COMPREHEND why someone would do this. Since she really only blocked me, I reached out through another friend, and talked to her. She dodged all our questions and then proceeded to block everybody. I could never understand, but one of my friends told me to let it go. So I did. It was a difficult decision, but to be fair I did step on her toes by not respecting her decision to exit from our lives by trying to reach her beyond her powers that be. I still don't understand, to this day.

Back to high school though, and I don't really feel like splitting it by year so we're just gonna have one giant blurb about high school in its entirety. Since I was closer to my internet friends and couldn't truly reach over to these high school friends, I began having the same problem I did with my very first friend. Where they would do things and not invite us, or only invite us if no one else was able to go. One of my friends gave me ample advice when she realized my little friendship complex. Don't do things for other people before doing things for yourself. I don't remember the exact quote, but basically I was so eager to please i never really thought about my own self considering my very average grades and all, and just tried to do whatever I could to stay friends with people. It's a theme of my life, man. I also had one friend I made some year later (Grade nine? Egads I remember nothing) who I found rather obnoxious, but she was probably the type of person I should have stayed friends with over several others because no matter how much I expressed to her that she was annoying, she was still very accepting and friendly to me. I wish I stayed friends with her. She was one of those people I felt would be one of those once-in-a-lifetime friends if you gave them a chance, but I sadly did not.

There was also one year, later on maybe in junior or senior, where there was this friend who was basically Pinkie Pie in real life. She had ALL OF THE FRIENDS and was nice to ALL of the people, including me, so low on the social ladder! I really wish I could have been a closer friend to hers, but because she had so many other friends it was a nigh impossible achievement. There was also one year where I suffered some of the worst bullying. In sophomore these girls were transferred to our school and she would not stop at anything to call me names or throw pennies at me because I looked like a poor kid. (I wasn't actually that poor in terms of the school. I was just not one who found importance in appearance so I kind of looked like someone who didn't care and was more, let's say, homely than other kids. Or if you wanna bully me too, you could call me a hobo! Because I looked like a hobo. Gee I wonder if my parents had more of a presence in my life I wouldn't always dress up like a hobo to school) 

Back to the internet that I was increasingly spending more time on because I felt so much more accepted on there. Also they can't see me, so they can't tell me I look like a hobo! After discovering LF2 and playing so much of that game, I found another game that this website covered too called Soldat. Alas my friend I spent oodles of time playing games with who lived downstairs moved away, but I immersed myself in Soldat. I found many friends, a clique that in video games called a "clan" and got to see these same people in these same servers over and over again. We had fun, fun times shooting each other in a competitive environment. Though again like the Beyblade days many of these people faded away, there were some I stuck by for a very long time and still talk to today. We call ourselves Spectral Infantry, but I think I'm the only one that does that now because Discord exists and nobody cares about the clan name and my Teamspeak is dying. Regardless, it's not the name that is important, just like the name BIFF was never really important. (It stands for Best Internet Friends Forever. I hope that is the case with the two I am still friends with lolololol) but the people that still stick around. Also obviously a majority of these friends are guys. Because all the guy friends I've ever made friends with NEVER antagonized me for being friends with them despite being a girl, or never purposefully excluded me because if they want to spend time playing say, Path of Exile when I do not even play that game who am I to feel excluded? I don't play that game. It was a lot more transparent I guess. I felt more stable amongst them. My ability to friendship was finally levelling up, but those back at school were as stagnant as ever. The same feelings, the same kind of inevitable conclusions.

It's very important to not only share interests but share hobbies when it comes to friends. Video games were the thing that kept me going with these people. On the other hand, though I share less interests and hobbies with the few female but true friends I have left to this day, I still feel very close to them because we bonded on an emotional level. We understand each other, and we will be there for one another. Both of these have taught me that I do not need to be doing a thing with a person 24/7 to stay friends with them, or trying to be complacent to keep as many friends as possible because only the important friends are the ones that you really need to keep. The ones that will keep you going and motivated like they do me. At the end of high school, the one friend I became closest to outside of my best friend, who gave me a handmade birthday card out of nowhere, encouraged my graphic design and caused me to win the grade-wide competition, and actually gave me HUGS what the fuck, brutally chastised my appearance throughout high school with the harshest words possible over the internet. I blocked her immediately and we are no longer friends. It was one of the worst friendship breakups I have had, on par with my very first friend,. People who were there for me but obviously had some sort of pent up issue with me that the first sign where either I mentioned something or I was out of frame physically they unloaded their frustrations with me. Why couldn't they be honest from the get-go? I guess because I was a sensitive, eager, clingy person with a friendship complex, and the moment any conflict arises could be the end of it all, like it was. But it always blew up in the end because of it. It always ended friendships.

It always hurt.

And now the consequences.

I have had a pretty terrible year in terms of loss and family and pain, but in terms of PHYSICAL pain I went through several dental treatments to get my teeth fixed. Root canals, crowns, and surgery. Oddly enough despite all of those things I mentioned, the worst pain was the first cleaning I had after several several years. Because my teeth were so bad I was very sensitive to temperature so any cleaning felt like the absolute worst. Somehow cold air was worse than giant pointed steel needles being stabbed into my gums. I also buy separate shampoo and conditioner now, and pay for my own toothpaste, floss, mouthwash and toothbrush because my parents cheaped out and always bought the crappiest toothpaste possible, the cheapest 2-in-1 shampoo, and really all the other tools that though I do not blame for why I've had self-esteem issues certainly contributed a small part to it. Oh and I started buying some of my own clothes because throughout all of high school it was hand-me-downs all the way down, and since I was a tomboy I rejected 50% of it. So i kept wearing very old clothes that started getting tattered. My money at the time was going into things that were more important, like computers and video games. THUS THE HOBONESS! 

But the other consequence was where my interests ending up lying. I was so in need of friendship that every single thing I've ever watched, friendship was the most important issue to me. My very first OTP, ship as it were that I blame the whole Beyblade fanfiction community for getting me into, was KazumiSayo. See my icon? STILL KazuSayo. They are relatively minor characters in the grand scheme of Negima, but for what they had I enjoyed them immensely. Kazumi I saw as a role model because she wasn't a character that really developed per-say. She was kind of ideal from the get-go. She did not care about being in cliques or being friends with a cast herd. When the manga started she was in no cast herd, she was alone. And she was fine with it. She was still confident, still spunky, still had the best voice, still was extremely attractive despite such. (How do attractive people not attract friends?) and was very kind.

Then Sayo came along. Sayo was a ghost who had been alone for like some ridiculous amount of time, like sixty years. No one could see her until her teacher just happened be a wizard. Then when her existence was exposed, it was Kazumi who befriended her. Now at first I wondered why Kazumi of all people befriended her. I could see it in terms of practical reasons, like Sayo being a ghost would be ideal for Kazumi's need for intel, what with being an aspiring journalist and all. Meanwhile Sayo's need for a friend is extreme because she has been alone for sixty years and she hasn't become a batshit insane murderous ghost yet. Kazumi gives her this need. in terms of who is giving more and who is receiving more, it looks one-sided.

I guess what I'm trying to say here is that the most healthy and best relationships are when two people improve one another, and while Sayo who I essentially related to since she desperately needed a friend will become a better, more whole person thanks to Kazumi, what does she serve for Kazumi beyond the practicality? Does she make Kazumi a better person? At first I believed maybe Kazumi might be susceptible to becoming the stereotypical yellow journalist who would do anything to get a story. She did toy with the idea with exposing magic to the world, but it wasn't difficult to convince her to keep it under wraps despite such a story being an ample opportunity to launch her career straight into the moon. She also mentioned when she first became friends with Sayo that letting the world know of the existence of a real live ghost would also land her in prime territory to be one of the most renowned journalists out there, yet she is the one that convinces herself not to do so because that would be unfair and plain mean to Sayo, who does not need the attention of the world right now. She does not need to be a zoo exhibit or to be experimented on by scientists or studied, she needs a friend. That's exactly what Kazumi provided. I suppose Sayo fills out the role of keeping Kazumi in check. She was a wildcard for a moment when some members of the class opposed Negi's side of the battle, and Kazumi for a while was working for the supposedly "evil" side (it was more like a huge moral dilemma and no one was painted as an irredeemable bad guy, but still) but once context was given to Kazumi she switched sides pretty easily.

But still, their relationship served to fuel my need for a friend. One who for no reason would be your friend. Like a dog! I love dogs. I always wanted one but it was never right to ever get a dog due to their upkeep and price. Dogs are those kinds of unwavering companions that no matter what will always be loyal. No matter who you are or what you look like. That's why I loved Kazumi and Sayo so much. I saw this character who I looked up to, wanted to be like who gave unconditional support to this ghost character, who needed it above all else and overlooked her own ambitions to do so. It was a heartwarming friendship I wanted out of anyone at all. Still, it didn't serve the ideal kind of friendship I was looking for where the two characters could help one another to be better people.

Touhou came along to bring with it oodles of odd female friendships. I am very attached to female friendships as you can see. With guys, it's just play video games with them to bond because competition or whatever. I even watched Beyblade to figure that out too. But I could not figure out female friendship. I had such a hard time retaining female friends. I've run into so many problems and incidents involving all of that, so my interest was very high for how media portrayed female friendship. That's one of the many reasons I jumped between so many favourite characters and thus so many different OTPs in Touhou. So many different depictions of friendship and devotion! I loved it! One of my first favourites was Murasa and Nue. Unfortunately at the time they were in one of the less popular cast herds, so finding anything notable and meaningful that portrayed the two was a bit of a challenge. The depiction they usually got was that Nue was alone and sort of excluded from the main cast herd that being the Myouren Temple because she was a bit of a prankster/troublemaker. And she felt she needed to be alone (also she was sealed for like several hundred years) but secretly she wanted some form of companionship. Murasa was the usual person she'd  be paired with for that companionship. I remember reading this touching doujinshi where Nue is all self-conscious and stuff, gets attacked by some scumbag humans (not that humans ARE scumbags but these guys tried to kill Nue when she never provoked them, so... ) and they involved one of the legends associated with Nue in the conflict. The nue was shot down by some famous guy (I forget his name) by either his amazing enchanted bow, or he was so amazing he could shoot down mystical youkai like nues. So this guy that was trying to kill Nue had this bow and that guy's name too, so even though youkai usually very easily overpower humans this was not the case here.

Anyway Murasa pops out of nowhere and takes the arrow for her. It's treated as very melodramatic because Nue acts like Murasa is dying even though youkai can brush off such physical injuries plus Murasa is ALSO a ghost and ALREADY kinda of dead anyway, but yeah, this relationship was kind of like KazuSayo to me. My favourite character at the time was Murasa, who was portrayed as this badass ghost pirate captain who was very confident. She had a pretty depressing backstory too, but it wasn't given much detail thus that one story I wrote up about her history. This story serves to teach Nue that no she is not alone, and she doesn't have to feel like an outcast among the cast herd she is associated with. Murasa though I don't see what she learns or how she becomes better by being friends or more with Nue. It again, feels one-sided. Nue doesn't really touch upon any of Murasa's backstory or anything like that. They just happened to know one another. Also the game that came out right after introduced this buddy of Nue's from the outside with a similar ability where they have trickster pranks together and all, and sort of killed the illusion that Nue would ever be insecure to need friends that badly, or whatever. I dunno. I don't know what to think about it, lol.

Of course, moving beyond that I began to like MokoKene. Or KeneMoko. Again a similar OTP to KazuSayo. One person is SUPER LONELY. This person, Mokou, has done something to give herself immortality that causes her to be ostracized by society since she never seems to grow old, so she becomes increasingly withdrawn and a hermit to society. She does this for a thousand years or so. (This is getting absurd, isn't it? Lol. SPOTTO IS SO LONELY, SHE ONLY IDENTIFIES WITH PEOPLE WHO ARE ALONE FOR ABSURD AMOUNTS OF TIME) Of course unlike Sayo Mokou actually does go about killing a whole bunch of people, but moving on we come to Keine, a half-youkai whose character is the basis for the initial conflict between humans and youkai. The perspective of a half-youkai is most unique. (Though Keine is only really a youkai once a month since she is a WERE-hakutaku, so... ) anyway Keine has more of a human-leaning view than a youkai view despite her affliction. Mokou is someone though technically a human, her behaviour over the years and her own immortality makes her out to be more like a youkai if you think about it, but Mokou's first friend after many centuries ends up being Keine. I think there's something truly heartwarming when the protagonists need to go attack Mokou and despite Mokou being INVINCIBLE, Keine still goes out of her way to try to protect her and lead the protagonists away anyway. Keine gets beat up and they go for Mokou despite her efforts. She did this at first to protect the village earlier in the game, but near the end of the game the only reason she fights the protagonists again is solely for Mokou. It's sweet, isn't it?

This spawned a ridiculous amount of the most adorable fanworks I have ever seen. KeneMoko is a fairly popular pairing in Touhou, especially when you consider harem lead Marisa isn't part of it, nor does it involve any other protagonist that usually manages a harem of their own. The characters themselves haven't really been that relevant for several years either, until recently when Mokou showed up in a fighting game and some outsider they introduced Mokou ends up befriending and let's move on from that. Keine is especially irrelevant at this time though, haven't not appeared in anything with any significance since pretty much after her first appearance. Sigh. Well that's how it goes I suppose. It's the same with Murasa too. Not all too relevant now.

So I moved on to the last one I'm gonna mention from Touhou. It's relatively recent, so give me a moment. For the last few I kept sticking with this one lonely character who needed a friend. Or a dog, I guess if you really think about it, but for AyaSanae, this time the character, Aya, was not someone who was well, lonely. Her traditional characterization is usually this confident journalist who will do anything to get a good story, no matter how immoral it might be. At first this portrayal was more prevalent in fanworks, seeing as it was a funny exaggeration for the cast's only media representative, but the creator very quickly adopted a similar portrayal himself, so Aya sort of became a caricature of her initial characterization. I don't know either. Anyway, in-universe she was not the most popular person in the world. All of her mainline ships didn't really serve to improve Aya as a character, as Aya was usually the dominant member and would boss around the character paired to her. I hated that. It took me a long time to really look at Aya as a character I would bother liking. Like, who cares? She's not the role model Kazumi was and she has no qualms about how to achieve what she needs in her career, and she isn't lonely at all!

...or is she?

AyaSanae, a rarepair came along and it came with a very refreshing take on Aya. While yes, Aya isn't exactly human (but we keep applying human-like qualities on values on all the other youkai and non-human species of Touhou anyway, fanworks!) she's not really a well-rounded character with any depth to her motivations. Like why is she a journalist? Why because her crow tengu species are all avid reporters too! Well that doesn't make Aya particularly unique even if she is the most notable of the group. Still, as someone with a friendship complex I can't really swallow that Aya doesn't resent in some way that she may not be popular or have any friends. The character most associated to her in canon, Momiji, canonically hates her or at least has a very strong personal feud with Aya. Aya's other character most strongly associated to her is Hatate, who is just another crow tengu journalist meant to be a rival that makes Aya look like the best tengu around. It's not really all too reassuring. But in comes Sanae, an OUTSIDER with a unique perspective who believe or not, when this ship is portrayed, makes Aya a BETTER PERSON.

THAT'S ALL I EVER ASKED FOR!

So how this all works is that Aya seems to fancy Sanae for whatever reason. I dunno. Figure it out yourself. The point is, Aya feels she can't really approach Sanae properly in that kind of manner because most of her relationships to people are strictly business. Not only that but Sanae is a human and that may look badly on human-youkai relations due to Sanae being involved with the goddesses who sort of want to take over the mountain for their faith which is also where the tengu all live and take claim to. It's a bit of a mess, is it not? There's some agreement in place for both of them to co-exist on the mountain, but it's just not good for tensions if most notable tengu and priestess responsible for spreading faith get together, is all I'm saying.

Yet thanks to fanworks bending canon rules, Aya's acquaintances who are more like close friends in this universe encourage Aya to go after Sanae. Sanae's goddesses want her to be close to Aya too, so they can improve goddess-tengu relations, and if they're friends that'd be good or whatever. So Aya gives Sanae a tour but Sanae doesn't really like Aya because who actually likes Aya, I mean c'mon. Then over time we run into Sanae's own issues of adapting into Gensokyan society, since she came from the outside where she had a normal (sorta) life at school with friends and modern technology, and now has no real peers here and has a completely different life with completely different technology, like magic! Aya comforts her in her very own youkai-like way, in that she hasn't much to say because she can't possibly understand, so she just pops out her wings and envelops Sanae in it. Give her some physical comfort. It's all Sanae needed... and for once, this relationship doesn't start off one-sided or stay that way, anyway. The two help one another. Sanae to adapt, and Aya to be better.

Because unlike Aya's more popular pairs, she's not bossing Sanae around and Sanae is devoted to her anyway for no real reason. Sanae makes Aya second-guess herself, makes her flustered. Sanae's go-for-it attitude and eccentricity is unpredictable to Aya. Every time Aya thinks she has control of the situation, Sanae surprises her. I can't really go into much depth about these two because they are a rarepair and everything I mentioned came from one very talented doujinshi artist, but this person (man? idk) singlehandedly not only made me like this ship, but like Aya! But anyway, Sanae's existence humbles Aya and gives her this sort of humanity and empathy she was sort of lacking, that made her more relatable. But this still wasn't to the level of give and receive I was hoping for, but the farthest I've found so far. Though Aya provided Sanae opportunity to adapt and supported her, I don't see Sanae as a character improving, but she does get a friend and acclaimed to Gensokyo and maybe her own character doesn't really need improving because she isn't as obviously flawed as Aya. Who knows! Still, it's the closest yet.

Potential for such a thing came from this next series, one very not-subtle about what they're trying to achieve with the show since it's titled as Friendship is Magic. MLP.

It took me a while to find a character to like actually. I most related to Fluttershy at the time, but my values were a lot closer to Pinkie Pie's. So I was like "wait, why not just put them together!" which was something somewhat possible due to their interactions in the most innocent of times that was season one. In one of the earliest episodes, Pinkie Pie defended Fluttershy's sensitivity, and kept her and Rainbow Dash (who has known her for years mind you) from pranking her. When Pinkie saw Fluttershy being bullied, she came up with a plan to get the bully back. When Fluttershy needed courage to jump over the chasm in Dragonfly, Pinkie's song encouraged her enough to go over. Not her other friends who were clearly exasperated (especially RD) about her keeping them from progressing very far. Pinkie kept her positivity up and supported Fluttershy wholeheartedly, no hard feelings whatsoever. Then several episodes down the line, for some reason Fluttershy despite being the shiest, most timid of them all, was so happy Pinkie was okay when she went missing (and was most worried for her as well) she jump-tackled Pinkie to the ground the moment she saw her. This would seem out-of-character if we didn't note all these things Pinkie did for her earlier. I thought a lovely cute little friendship was happening. It was one-sided though, but it was blossoming.

Then the most innocent of times concluded. One flaw of Pinkie Pie the writers began to make more and more apparent was her...insensitivity? Which I thought was quite odd because it seemed like she grasped this concept pretty well in season one. I suppose that same episode Fluttershy glomped her in she did start a war with her insensitivity with her not-very-good (rather unusual for Pinkie) song to make sure the ponies and the buffalo could get along. Maybe it was a botched attempt at humour, I'm not sure. Anyway Pinkie seemed to lose this concept and probably unintentionally made the whole Luna situation in Luna Eclipsed worse, then her sense of reality or how other ponies felt dwindled quite rapidly, like in the Friend In Deed episode where she could not grasp Cranky's need for her to leave him alone, if only because Pinkie is SO desperate to make him a friend and doesn't care, or just doesn't understand. Then there's that one episode about the cake she was protecting that was all kinds of wtf in terms of friendship, so let's not go there.

Then of course Pinkie realized with such clairvoyance how her own clones were terrorizing the town in the season three episode. I'm inclined to believe Pinkie didn't realize how overbearing she was until she saw several dozen copies of her acting in the most one-dimensional way possible. Finally in season four despite being one of the strongest Pinkie Pie seasons to date (there is a lot of "I realize I am in the wrong and can see you are unhappy and understand your sensitivity" in Pinkie Apple Pie and Pinkie Pride respectively, maybe even Maud Pie!") we had... Filli Vanilli.

I have spoken so much about this episode, but it really slammed on the pedal and floored it when I was already in the wild wide and hoping to any higher power of existence who could hear me to let us slow down. She was NOTHING like this in season one, and here she is making Fluttershy cry with the most obvious, over-the-top cries, sobs, and wails I have seen and somehow Pinkie cannot see what she is doing that is wrong? I just do not understand how people defend Pinkie in this episode, I can't. It was finally here that I realized the old vision of PinkieShy where Pinkie is the one who can help Fluttershy become bolder and closer was wrong. Or at least, only part of it. If the canon is going to run off with this type of characterization, Fluttershy is the one who needs to make PINKIE the better person! If both parts of what I see does happen, then yes this would be the first time the relationship will be pretty evenly-sided, where they help one another.

I mean Pinkie has her insecurities! Her most infamous episode had her breakdown believing her friends no longer wanted to be with her, and she clearly is very clingy to the friends she has despite having more than anyone. I can relate to that! But despite my idea of the two helping one another, over the years and seasons Fluttershy never needed Pinkie to become more assertive or bold. She did that on her own, through many situations with many friends including her animals friends, and Pinkie wasn't there to support her with as much presence as I hoped. It's like Fluttershy became better and didn't need Pinkie at all. It became a one-sided affair once again. I was so frustrated with this pair that had so much potential in season one. I really thought if the two were close friends it'd be a really heartwarming kind of thing. Two people so very different, with different ideals, but both sharing this same kind of sensitivity, both understanding one another. It would be the closest thing to the ideal pair I have seen, but the engine barely started before the car broke down entirely. An introvert and an extrovert who can both understand what it is like to be an introvert and an extrovert. I really wish this concept was explored.

In what i call a bit too little too late, an episode finally popped up that actually featured the two together though they still shared their conflict with Rainbow Dash and Applejack. There was great pressure to do well in a sporting competition, and surprisingly both Fluttershy and Pinkie buckled under this pressure. At first Pinkie buckling is more surprising, but after Fluttershy's character development you sort of don't see it coming either. Regardless Fluttershy is the first to burst about this towards RD and AJ, and is the one to bring up the problem that paves the way to the well-rounded perfect solution MLP likes to do. Meanwhile Pinkie becomes withdrawn under this pressure, and is the one who is unable to let RD and AJ know what she feels. She actually seems like the more sensitive one of the two! For whatever reason this made the two of them feel like they have a lot more depth than before, but this aspect of the two characters hasn't been explored since, and I'm not really expecting a Pinkie and Fluttershy episode actually focused on only those two anytime soon. :\ 

So if a show literally titled Friendship is Magic wasn't the way, what was?

I found a show called RWBY. The title of the show is the first letter of each protagonist who are paired into a group. Their goal is to go to school to learn to fight monsters, and then fight monsters with that group for the rest of the foreseeable future. Or at least in school, but from the existence of teams that existed well beyond school I'm thinking that is not the case. Anyway we are given tidbits of some background information on these four characters, and they get thrown into the school to learn to work together to defeat the monsters and subsequently become better huntresses and people as a result! I watched a trailer called the White Trailer. It had this character who exemplified all these feelings I've had in my entire life, though the lyrics weren't particularly subtle about it. This beautiful girl, who could get hit in the face and get a RAD SCAR despite her beauty, was all sad and lonely. She is entirely by herself in the trailer and only fights this construct which isn't even technically alive. I felt sympathy for her and loved the music and animation of the trailer. I knew she'd be my favourite character immediately, but in the large scheme of things she was sort of fitting my stereotypical pattern of favourites.

Until she opened her mouth in the series itself.

THIS IS AN ALPHA FEMALE! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

But yet, I still loved her.

Why?

Weiss Schnee was this type of person I had conflict with so many times in my life, but I never really saw these people's own perspectives. I had such negative interactions with them, or at least my friendship with them always ended poorly that I never really saw it from their side or understood who these people were. Weiss was like, someone who guarded herself deeply and had a lot of issues inside, and she did it by being bossy and mean. It took her a while to accept those around her, but it also didn't take her long to change herself or see that she had to be supportive if she wanted to keep these people around, these friends. She learned pretty quick actually, so her first impression wasn't really all that significant in the large scheme of things. Seeing her White Trailer and then how she acted I knew right away Weiss wasn't actually like this at all, and unlike a lot of people became intrigued with who she was and what she'd become because of it. Because we already knew there was something about her that didn't match how she behaved.

At first I followed the crowd and shipped her with whoever was most commonly shipped with her, but this was a young show, so anything could change. And change it did because the core of the plot for much of the first three seasons was the conflict between the White Fang and well, everyone else, but mostly the Schnee Dust Corp since they're the ones that led the White Fang to their reputations and extreme beliefs to this day. The person on the side of the White Fang, or at least formerly and with a lot of faunus baggage left in? Blake. And it seemed like Weiss and Blake were very integral to the plot for a lot of these reasons. Well mostly Blake for plot and Weiss for character development, but you get the idea. Weiss needed to shake off her racist upbringing if she was to keep these comrades of hers by her side and for them to become an expert, efficient team of huntresses. This included even accepting the former terrorist group member with an endless amount of issues, Blake. Weiss really came to her own as a character over these episodes, and it even seemed Blake was turning a leaf as well, willing to let people into her life despite having been closed off for years in fear of discrimination and conviction! 

Then of course all the shit happened and it turned into Naruto. Where nobody graduates, the group breaks up, and the broodiest, angstiest person runs away. I guess since this show isn't blatantly titled FRIENDSHIP IS MAGIC I can't expect it to focus on friendship as the core theme of the show, but I had assumed so anyway because of the title of the show and the premise, that these four girls of vastly different background and history must come together and fight monsters. The fact that Weiss and Blake had all this conflict to get over, and all these scenes where they were helping one another, Weiss forgiving Blake for running off with her problems, Weiss trying to force Blake to talk about her problems to the group, Blake choosing Weiss over the White Fang when they were about to kill her, finally letting go of her criminal past and what really needed to be done, to the point that by season three they were amiably having a tea and coffee date with one another. They were willing to spend time with each other outside of training, outside of arguing about their vastly different upbringings and opinions and were friends THAT HELPED ONE ANOTHER BECOME BETTER PEOPLE.

But instead shit hit the fan.

Weiss let go of her racist ways and accepted how poorly faunus were treated. She became nicer, and more supportive as a result. Blake let people into her life more often, began to trust more, and these people who should be enemies at any other time are not. That's heartwarming. That's beautiful. That's friendship! Heck, even beyond! This is the greatest potential for the greatest ship I have ever seen, but of course, of course, this show has decided writing as a priority is like fifth fiddle to things like adding more characters than necessary in every season and not bothering to develop any existing ones, killing random characters off for shock value, and putting more stock into developing side characters and minor characters over the main characters while ignoring and writing out the interpersonal relationships and interactions I watched the show for AMONG THE FOUR GIRLS. They had it! They had in right in their palms and tossed it right over a cliff! THEY HAD IT!

A non-one sided relationship in which two people can help one ANOTHER improve, and not only that their BACKGROUNDS improve. Fix the White Fang, fix the Schnee Corporation to get rid of all the corrupt terrorist bullshit that infects both their backgrounds and them as people. The two being together could solve them as people and SOLVE THE PLOT but it was flung off the cliff, not knowing what they had. I do not expect them to make this ship canon, but their mere friendship is all that is needed for some of the most heartwarming, wonderful, uplifting, and hopeful kinds of solution possible. This is why I like some horribly dark, twisted series a lot despite their theme because the ending of these things (such as Dangan Ronpa) is always one of hope despite all the shitty hardship and death everyone faces. And yes, RWBY is not over yet, I suppose the show too can achieve that same kind of thing, but when we had so many misprioritized plot points and focus on random one-off characters in such a large ratio of the show, the characters of team RWBY no matter their potential is shuffled to the side and in the end I don't even believe they have a friendship at all. There is no training montage where they learned those team-up moves they had in that one season two episode. It was not as if they did not have time because they had a whole plot about Jaune that did not move the plot whatsoever about his own problems I don't give one flying shit about. The solution didn't even matter because Pyrrha dies anyway. Like what the fuck? Yang goes out of her way to reveal some of her backstory to try to help out Blake from imploding inside due to her worries on White Fang activity, but I can't even believe she'd do that because when Blake and Weiss were arguing in season one and Blake ran off, Yang did absolutely nothing. What changed there? Was there some moment of bonding they had that made them closer so Yang would do such a thing? No because they wasted time doing pointless shit that did not improve on the relationships of these characters at all.

Blake had to resort to random faunus monkey dude to support her in that episode, and now he's the only one doing it which is troubling. If they were to be friends then it would be Weiss, Ruby, and Yang that would help her get past what her issues now especially since what Blake is going through affects her team the most, especially Weiss, but most especially Yang because she lost an entire arm trying to help Blake and Blake instead of accepting this traumatic support or helping her friend instead just runs away and leaves them to be,. But this random faunus monkey dude can totally follow her around. That's okay! Is it because he is a faunus? IS THAT THE ONLY REASON!? Ruby is so preoccupied by defeating the enemy themselves she never considers say, staying home to support her most traumatized sister a little longer, or trying to find Weiss or Blake. It's investigate what happened to Beacon, fuck my friends. Yang understandably is too shaken up to do anything for some time, so she is forgiven, but Weiss cannot even leave her father's side. She is stuck there, so she is also forgiven for not reuniting with her friends. But why bother when no one comes after her, and her final conclusion after escaping her father is to find her sister? She clearly doesn't believe they are worthy to seek out and only her sister can support her, and who can blame her!? Fuck her friends! There is no female friendship in RWBY and that's a fucking disgrace. They have no idea how to develop it whatsoever and instead develop male-female friendships that aren't even friendships because EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM HAS ROMANTIC SUBTEXT. DOES FRIENDSHIP MEAN ANYTHING TO THIS SERIES AT ALL!? WHAT THE FUCK. Penny and Pyrrha were amazing supportive friends! EXCEPT THEY DIED. OKAY. AWESOME.

It was the most promising and it crashed hard, into a trainwreck that was so bad I finally looked away from it. Yeah the action, choreography was great, but that's not what keeps me watching a series. That's not draws me to a series. It's the female friendship I so long to watch. It's why of everything that has been recommended to me in the past few years Little Witch Academia is on the top of the list because I don't see any of these themes in all the other mystery, comedy, actiony things people recommend me. Maybe I'll give it a chance, but I just feel so cynical after RWBY, that I had to write a giant story to fix this severe problem. That I'd rather just play video games and give up watching stuff forever than to put in hope for what I like to see in stories. It's why I'm so apprehensive with starting anything and would stick to the same series and franchises I have trust in over and over again. And it's because of my friendship issues throughout my entire life that I'm stuck with such a specific kind of theme I really want to watch, and see done well. Maybe I just want validation? I don't know. 

Things like Touhou and Overwatch where everything does not hang on one cohesive story is a lot more approachable than some anime or cartoon people recommend. Since the story is not released all at once and speculation is rampant, plus we can always enjoy them both in other words like actually playing the game or listening  to music, it doesn't depend entirely on what canon says. I really like Mercymaker in Overwatch for the potential of Mercy being one of the few people that can help Widowmaker recover. Also it's hot, but that's irrelevant. It's extremely one-sided though because I do not see Mercy benefiting as a person helping Widowmaker, merely doing what she usually does that she has devoted her life to, but it follows the pattern of the kind of pairing I like. Anyway despite that there's not a lot of canon to back this up, it's just an idea and the fans power these ideas. Most likely due to the story being all over the place and with so many other characters this ship is free to be as large as the imagination desires. There's a chance something will come around to throw it off, but due to the nature of these series I can usually ignore it.

One final last thing I forgot to mention in quite possibly one of the largest rants i have written of everything ever, is that I also had a friend in between Beyblade and Negima, a fandom friend when I was into B-Daman briefly. We made up a lot of story and artwork through our roleplays and I spent a ridiculous amount of time with this girl. Sadly she drifted away eventually, so I couldn't think of anyway to put her in this rant since I mentioned so many of my other friends. Still, i do wonder how she is doing and if she is okay because when I met her she was going through some difficult times. I have no real way to contact her but I hope she's doing well.

Ultimately, friendship is hard. True friends are the few that stick by your side unconditionally, and most people have no idea how to depict the kind of friendship I'm looking for in media. At least of those I've seen, but RWBY has dampened my spirits to the point that I can't be bothered anyway. Just gotta stick with what I already have and cherish who are still around. Thank you my friends. Even if we drift away someday, I am glad you were around when you were. And it's definitely true that a lot of us will not know what we are missing when people are gone. I probably still have a bit of a friendship complex, but throughout all of this I went from this positive outgoing person who really wanted lots of friends to an introvert who would rather stay inside and sleep all day. I do still want to have friends, but I don't have the effort anymore. And I know a lot of people are like this too, but even if they don't talk to me everyday or even every week, when we finally do speak again we can pick off where we left off, like time does not affect our friendship at all, and that's the best feeling to have. We're all adults now anyway. Responsibilities take up our time, but still that doesn't mean drifting away is something that is guaranteed. 

This has been Spotto, and I have revealed quite a bit. Adios!
spotto: (koi)
It seems I haven't done a Tohosort in a little over a year-and-a-half. I thought "What the hey" and spent some time doing one last night. And by doing one I mean "redo it three times" after pausing partway through because I fucked up somewhere, even though the fuckup would likely be somewhere in the 20-30 range and wouldn't really matter in the long run. "Oh' I say, it's because I tied "X" with "Y" and I like X better than Z, but not Y better than Z! But because X = Y, Y is now > Z! This cannot be. I had this issue so often because sometimes I'd do something like X > A, B, and C and then I realized I put Y higher than X and thus all three of A, B, and C! I mean yes I do like Y better than X, but for Y to out class so many others (usually a cast herd) is absurd!
 
Like why am I perfectionist about this? It's a goddamn popularity list of a bunch of fictional youkai girls. Like what. WHO FUCKING CARES. It is 2017 and I was wasting such time like that, but that's just what I do ...
 
Anyway after I finally finished doing something like that I decided to compare it to old tohosorts. Just the sort of logical thing to do, right? Compare with EVERY OTHER TOHOSORT I'VE EVER DID. And the patterns always fascinate me. They fascinate me because Touhou is the single fandom where I have no loyalty to anyone at all. My favourite character a year ago is not my favourite today. My favourite character six years ago may be my fifteenth favourite character today. The flavour cycles. My tastes change. I find interest in someone else. Because this cast is so large and this lore is so vast, I always suddenly discover, "hey this previously unappreciated character is fascinating!!" I dive into their lore and fanon, and the rest is history.
 
So as you can see in the latest Tohosort, another earth-shattering change has occurred. That's right! Parsee is in my top ten!! GASP! No but really, Aya is number one at the moment. Who foresaw fucking that? I even went back and checked where she was in my other Tohosorts just to see how much I gave a damn about this bird some years back. She was always below 20 for the longest of times. Once she was below 40-something, outside the cut-off point of the chart I decided to save. I deemed her uninteresting enough she wasn't worth showing up in the popularity contest at all at one point. And now she is NUMBER FUCKING ONE.
 
Have some numbers:
 
Aya
25th/26th/35th/42nd+/29th/28th/21st/18th/3rd/1st
 
In contrast here's an old favourite:
 
Murasa
2nd/1st/1st/1st/3rd/5th/12th/8th/11th/20th
 
Madness.
 
Now this contrast is not some random name I pulled out of my hat. I could have compared her to Koishi or something, but that's rather pointless and boring. Because Koishi has never left my ton ten ever, so it's not like such consistent numbers really amount to anything when it comes to such drastic changes like these two characters. KOISHI IS AMAZING OKAY. I loved her before she was cool. B) . I could have also compared her to Keine who had a similar kind of ascension, but again not to the absolute ridiculous extent of Aya. She literally came out of nowhere. Like what the fuck?
 
I can't very well explain how this came to be, but what I can explain is the relevance of this comparison. You see, Murasa's drop is directly correlated with Aya's rise. You know why? Because they have a few similarities. Sure they're both fourth stage bosses at some point and have short black hair, but my point here is a point I've may many-a-time on this blog. Many-a-time I mean that annoying tiny nitpicky issue I have with something that is normally incredibly petty and nonessential, but I make such a big deal of it every time it's brought up anybody reading the post would probably want to drive to my house and shoot me in the face if I dared say another word kind of thing. You know, like my Filli Vanilli issue. I rant about that all the time. The rant is usually the same every time. I do nothing to contribute to fixing that problem at all. I JUST COMPLAIN. That's the same issue here.
 
See, once upon a time I learned that Murasa's shorts ... was a skirt. It may have looked like shorts and some artists may have interpreted it as shorts, but officially as ZUN had said in some random interview about UFO probably, it was a skirt.
 
Truly, such a small tiny thing angered my very soul. Design 101! I declared! Her design was boring enough as it was. It was white. It had a sailor's uniform. The skirt was long and impractical for what she did. It was really plain. Her outfit as a whole was plain as fuck. NOTHING ABOUT HER DESIGN STOOD OUT. I thought "Well gee willikers no wonder she's such an unpopular character!" It does not matter how gimmicky your danmaku is if your design is terrible! But the one redeeming factor in my eyes were the shorts. No one really wears shorts. I guess Wriggle wears pants, but that was like years ago. And Mokou too, but same game! If Murasa wore shorts, the entire bland design would be forgiven. She'd finally have a piece of apparel unique to the population of Gensokyo. "Finally!" I'd say, "There are no frills! There is no skirt! She may look like an ordinary sailor, but it stands out in the fantastical world of Touhou!" And I would bask in such originality, and people would depict her as a more tomboyish character because of her clothes! Because goddamnit how else are you going to draw a character from blank states like Touhou characters, especially those too unimportant to have plot relevance in any other game or manga again? I GRASPED AT THE STRAWS AND CLUNG ONTO THEM FOR AS LONG AS I POSSIBLY COULD!
 
But canonically, it's a skirt. APPARENTLY A GODDAMN SKIRT
 
Touhou has no ships. It has no romance. There are no ships to sink. THIS IS THE CLOSEST THING THEY COULD SINK, THIS SHIP RIGHT HERE. MURASAXSHORTS, SUNK FASTER THAN MURASA HERSELF CAN USE HER ABILITY! THE ONE SHIP THAT MUST NEVER BE SUNK, THE ONE MURASA RODE ON AS HER ONLY GODDAMN POTENTIAL. MOTHERFUCKING SUNK.
 
And so the ship sunk, nosediving to the bottom of the ocean just like my interest in Murasa. Did I truly like Murasa for Murasa? Or was I only in love with her imaginary, noncanon shorts? Shorts that never was. Never to be. Potential dashed.
 
Anyway, with that hope crushed into infinity, years later I found interest in one Aya Shameimaru. No she doesn't wear shorts. I liked Aya for Aya! Though her design is great too, I found solace in the fact that occasionally she isn't depicted as the soulless unsympathetic hack that manipulated people for her sensationalized bundle of ink and paper. I mean she's probably partially that, but y'know with a cast of only females comes with a fandom of horny males, so that depiction can be pushed further to near voyeurism. Where panties becomes the holy grail of a news story to a crow tengu. I don't know either. But I got sick and tired of that same old shallow characterization popping up over and over again, and thus never saw Aya for Aya, only the sensationalized bundle of ink and paper the fandom liked to depict her as.
 
Every character suffers from that, absolutely all of them. It can take some time to see the diamond in the rough, so to say.
 
Also her music is great, but that's usually the case for the entire cast, so... Anyway, to keep things short, or shorter rather, I lied earlier! Aya DOES wear shorts! No, not her usual outfit, but in Gensokyo whenever you want to pretend to be a human, you just gotta dress really fancily and trendy. SO like, not diapers on heads or gothic lolita fashion but actual sane fashion a human would actually wear. In Mamizou's case she wore an awesome scarf, grew out her hair, and basically looked infinitely better than her ragtag youkai look. In Aya's case, she dressed up like a stereotypical newsboy who would hand out papers shouting "EXTRA! EXTRA! READ ALL ABOUT IT!"
 
I being the very diligent person, went through real canon Touhou work (this being Forbidden Scrollery) to not only verify my sources, but to see if the rumoured SUSPENDERS showed up on this outfit as well. I found only one panel where Aya was not guarding her undershirt as if the very secrets of the tengu themselves were hidden under there, and there was a line. The line COULD be suspenders. IT may not be, though suspenders are the most likely article of clothing. All I can really determine from all this is that the fashion in the Human Village is much further along than the Outside World, and the people out here need to step-the-fuck-up, because hot damn.
 
if you don't wEAR SHORTS that isI am not saying at all the very idea Aya wore shorts that one time (and potentially suspenders!1) caused her to become first, not at all. It may have contributed slightly, but I found this contrast rather intriguing. That the one character I assumed would make sense as a sort of androgynous type of character due to her official outfit, never wore such a thing at all! And the other character who I never even considered for such a part would choose such a disguise one day. Why that disguise? It's sort of Western-looking is it not? Though I guess, what else would scream out "THIS PERSON IS OBVIOUSLY A JOURNALIST" than such an outfit? But then why did she choose newsboy? It's not as if Mamizou's, Kosuzu's, or Akyuu's clothing are similar. Well anyway I'm not here to decipher such things, only to sit in wonderment of how this fucking tengu stole my heart recently.
 
Like I don't actually know. I don't know what changed. Do I just like Keine and Miko less? I guess? Maybe? AyaSanae did help quite a bunch, what a wonderful rarepair. But you know maybe I do know. I played some Sims recently and made Madoka Magica Sims. I was playing through a planned scenario that involved a lot of death, murder, homelessness, and zombies. Aya became relevant in Act 3. In fact she became VERY relevant in Act 3, and the way I weaved that story about made her a very awesome character indeed. I thought to myself as I came up with the inspired plot, that Aya was quite the bro. Which is an odd thing to say because Aya's characterization is usually the opposite of a "bro". She would never be nice for no real reason. There are always ulterior motives. ALWAYS!
 
But coming up with the ulterior motive for her to be so nice made her so fascinating in my eyes. I thought, "Dang, this is the potential of Aya as a character" and never really thought about it until now. It reminded me of this old Touhou comic I read when I first got into the fandom, t'was a Youmu comic. I remember a fairly badass portrayal of Aya there. I thought "Wow, I really like this Aya person. They're such a bro!" And that was the last time I thought of Aya like that because fandom is a bitch. And that in itself reminded me of an old nostalgic favourite I had long, long ago, ten years in fact. She too was a journalist, and she too was far too nice for no real reason, but sometimes she had ulterior motives or at least personal motives, and was not simply doing a favour just because. At one point, that character was a wildcard in a very dangerous, climatic situation where she could have been on the bad guys' side, but then suddenly wasn't. Because well, what fulfilled her goals more? Neutral parties that do things because they benefit themselves and it's not in an overly ambitious cartoonishly evil way (because most neutral parties end up being BACKSTABBING TRAITORY PARTIES INSTEAD!) is something I don't often see in fiction enough. Or maybe I just need to experience more fiction since I like limiting myself to very few. (This is due to time-management and addiction reasons.)
 
If I ever get motivated enough to post that Sims scenario on my Sims blog, you may realize the full context of my explanation. 
 
Anyway I gave myself a 30 minute time limit to write this and spent an hour instead because ... I was supposed to go to sleep, so this is a good a place as any to end this. I hope this blog enjoys the slight amount of activity, and anyone floating around in the headlights and tumbleweeds may someday stumble upon this to read it. Until then, adios! This has been Spotto.
spotto: (Sooooolo)
Regrets

1) Waiting five years for a Sayo backstory chapter that never came. She had her introduction chapter and that was the first and only time she had a chapter dedicated to her.

2) Waiting four years for a good Fluttershy episode. She had Hurricane Fluttershy. That's it. I give up. Do not have Fluttershy as a favourite character. Pinkie and Rarity will take her place.

3) Waiting three years for RWBY to be good. Still waiting...

4) Waiting my whole life for the Canucks to win a cup. (They were cupless for the twenty years before I was born too...) A regret that will go on forever.

5) Waiting too long to go to another home game with my dad. We went to one once in 2009, and we lost pretty terribly (led and then gave up the lead) We kept talking about going again, hopefully to a win. Now it's too late. We had seven fucking years to go but never did.
spotto: (hong kong *STAAAAAARE*)
Whilst sleep deprived and wracked with indigestion, thoughts began swirling in my head. 
 
I just realized the innate problems of including a minority character in media, in particular someone who may be LGBT. See more often than not, said character who is about to discover oneself runs into a plethora of problems, of bullying, of conflict, of "religious injustice" but depicting the drama of such issues in media while is a good way to spread awareness to those who do not experience such things, is not what most I believe, people who are actually gay or what have you even want to watch.
 
For a lot of people or at least me, media and storytelling is a place of fantasy. A place where things that are not true, are true. We see it as an escape from reality. Unless it's some sort of terrible satire about the realistic bastardization that is life, usually fiction is more idealistic than our side of the universe. So I would think and I DO think as I am one, watching a show where say two characters of the same sex who end up as a couple and run into ZERO PROBLEMS regarding their partner of choice would be most desired. That is what we want after all. A fantasy where who we are is not questioned and is the norm! But almost every single time this comes up in media it must involve some sort of internalized issue with society because even in fictionland there are the intolerable bastards that we try to avoid every single day in real life!
 
In other words in mainstream media, a story about a gay guy coming out is really intended for straight audiences. Because a homosexual is exotic and different and a movie or book can be used to illustrate their rough walks of life to those who never have to walk in their shoes. ("But Spotto! Minor character 1 and minor character 2 are a gay couple in that one show! WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT!?" Well, that is still for a straight audience because they're minor/side characters! Everybody has that gay friend or whatever, but god forbid YOU YOURSELF differentiate from the norm!) Why am I thinking about this? Well today is a new RWBY episode, presumably about a prom or ball or dance taking place in fantasy high school that is so generic that it has proms and balls like high schools of reality. I hate high school! I don't want to watch this shit! And now our female protagonists are presumably straight or possibly bi (but people are never bi in media, so unless they outright say this it's safe to say they're straight) asking guys out for dates. No, not Team JNPR who each have a partner of the opposite gender and such explorations of their potential relationships would actually be interesting, the main four girls.
 
Since they are all girls, we need some other dudes outside of the school to work with, otherwise we have teachers and taken guys. So let's introduce a whole team of dudes who don't get developed much except for that leader who showed up in season one and then suddenly pair them with the girls because THERE IS A PROM!!!! OH MY GOD! Since RWBY is such a hotspot for gay ships (what media form isn't? seriously what isn't!?) there is a sizable LGBT minority that wish to see some actually become canon. The issue is it isn't our story, so if we see absolutely zero gay ships welp, we'll just have to deal. We'll just have to deal like with every single thing we've ever watched or read. Or anything. However, the creator of RWBY has actually ended one of this animations with a yuri ship and has addressed the community's desire in an interview.
 
But he mentions how it'll take a long time to come to fruition because a character needs to discover themselves and realize they might be gay or they don't like being the gender they were assigned or something. Either this implies Ruby, the youngest character in the series, is going to be gay, or they're going to take their time and go through the whole annoying issue of intolerance and hatred that comes from the outside before said character will accept themselves. In other words it's another LGBT character written for a straight audience! (Obviously no writer is doing this consciously or intentionally, but we all like to write for ourselves and think of what we ourselves would enjoy, so not having a same-sex relationship in the forefront of a story is not an issue to a lot of people) RWBY is already a fantasy, but I suppose with the despicable treatment of faunus we can't expect people to be chill about liking someone of the same gender either. 
 
So today's episode likely has Weiss in the middle of this stupid horrible love chain where Pyrrha (the coolest girl in the whole school, why does she BEGIN this triangle!? ALL THE BOYS AND EVEN SOME GIRLS SHOULD BE ASKING HER!) likes Jaune for some reason (WHY? I don't know! If the guy wasn't so oblivious and was more like a lovable goof, sure why not, but this dude is obscenely annoying and thickheaded!) who likes Weiss of all people (in what world does Jaune and Weiss seem compatible? Weiss is coldhearted and generally hates people it seems, and you want HER!? How about someone more fitting to your personality, Jaune? HOW ABOUT SOMEONE WHO HASN'T TURNED YOU DOWN MULTIPLE TIMES!?) and Weiss likes Neptune, a guy we just met this season and know nothing about aside from being a K-Pop star and being generally dorky like literally every other boy in this show. You barely know him. You took like ten episodes to be friends with Ruby. WHAT. IS. THIS. MADNESS!? Finally Neptune supposedly likes Yang...despite hitting on every girl he saw, including Weiss, but apparently will pick Yang. Now unless Yang adds more to this horrible dramafest of a goddamn cliche high school trope, it ends here. 
 
Of course this is the same Yang who has mentioned the hot boys in her dorm in season one episode three, encouraged Jaune in season one episode four, season two episode three, and season two episode five to keep trying for Weiss, and doesn't seem to express her no-nonsense independent attitude nearly as often as she appeared to in the trailer, so I'm not entirely sure at all what to expect from Yang Xiao Long. How do you predict her? She has little development so far and also little consistency. I do want to like her. She's technically my second favourite, but like 90% of that is due to fandom. GODDAMNIT YANG. DO SOMETHING. And please not a romance thing. Gah. SHE DID SOMETHING! AND IT WAS EPIC! REJOICE!!! YANG XIAO LONG FOR PRESIDENT!
 
You can see my distress here.
 
Usually my compromise is no romance at all. My favourite characters in Negima were all uninvolved with the harem. (Aside from one, but she was sane/naive enough to fall for an older version of the protagonist, so while tragic at least she isn't crushing on a goddamn ten-year-old boy) Romance is entirely absent from Touhou and while rampant in fandom, due to the female population dangerously reaching 100% levels, it's all delicious, delicious yuri. And finally my last example is complete and utter spoilers, but I give up on keeping it tight-lipped. Most of you will never play Dangan Ronpa, and even if you do this one tidbit isn't going to ruin the story or anything, just a few characters if you're that testy with spoilers (which I MYSELF AM, but I give up) SO LOOK AWAY NOW IF YOU WISH TO BE UNSPOILED.
 
-IN WHAT WORLD DID I THINK SPOILING PEOPLE OF MY FAVOURITE CHARACTER IN SDR2 WAS A GREAT IDEA GODDAMN THIS HAS BEEN SNIPPED FOR YOUR OWN GOOD-
 
Sure I can fantasize about AUs all I want for any of that to work, but that's fandom stuff. That's why there's a ridiculous amount of shipping and gay fanfiction and all that crap because where else can we find a nice domestic story about two guys or two girls together struggling to make ends meet or something like that, without having stupid prejudice issues the real world already has constantly butting in? In fanfiction my favourite character will not be called a slur or punched in the face or looked down upon for their sexual orientation. In fanfiction my favourite character will not spend eight hundred chapters figuring out why they don't care for the opposite gender. IN FANFICTION ALL OF IT IS THE NORM AND NONE OF THAT EXISTS.
 
THAT IS WHY SHIPPING IS SO RAMPANT. THAT IS WHY SHIPPING IS PREDOMINANTLY SLASH OR YURI.
 
This has been Spotto. Fuck proms, fuck canon, fuck high school.
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Nonetheless, in the sense of tradition, I updated my murals crappily printed and taped to wall images from the internet. Have a looksee under the cut!

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 Woke up....started remembering everything I ranted about Negima.
 
To this day I still shake my head at what went down. Yes, it is indeed called Negima, but so many of my grievances towards the manga was beyond even that. I began reading the manga after enjoying the Mahorafest and the arcs before it immensely. While I only tolerated the fanservice, I found the mixture of romantic comedy and shounen quite refreshing, something I've yet to see in other works I had followed to that point. While Negi was indeed the main character, we are never to forget the existences of the students and how important they are to the story.
 
Then the Magic World arc happened.
 
At first it seemed like quite the intriguing storyline, everyone stranded across a world no one knew much of, in dangerous climates surrounded by dangerous people. To boot, they all had a bounty on them, framed and shamed as they struggled to survive the hazardous environment. A master plan was involved, gathering the Ala Alba team members and powering up the miniature teacher to take on all obstacles so they could earn their way back to their own world. Indeed, it was a storyline you'd wish to see the end of, to see how our heroes could accomplish such a monumental task.
 
Then another task befell our heroes.
 
Yes, they had to save the world. The world they knew very little of, its only significance being a land Negi's father often trekked through. Our heroes self-righteousness did not allow them to return home letting an entire population be wiped out by the evils of the enemy. But as chapters continued to be released, it became quite obvious that only one character had the potential firepower to do anything against the mammoth that is the enemy. Everyone else, especially those fighters, before they could've been relied as backup, those who could fight as well, hold off the frontlines for our hero to dive through, but soon what role they could play diminished and diminished.
 
They were no longer main characters...and they could be barely called supporting characters beyond one or two, they were side characters now. Our previous main heroine no longer by the side of the hero, instead being held captive for a hundred chapters. When the much anticipated fight between Setsuna and her devliish irredeemable "rival" began, the fight was quickly glossed over for once again, plot. The reveal that Zazie had some part in this gigantic plan was too glossed over, for again, plot. Negi is the only reason this story continues going right? Him and his precious students, who cannot be harmed in any way because that would interfere with their fanservice shots. He continues his plan to defeat the well-intentioned extermist at the end, or at least that's what I would've called him had he actually continued being one.
 
You see, when Fate first arrived to the plot, so to say, he had no qualms about harming Negi or the students. For whatever reason, perhaps convenience, his first act of petrification was not the permanent kind he was supposedly so eager to use. He attempted to impale young Negi twice, once almost successfully killing him and during that same Gateport battle, was about to end Setsuna's movable existence forever. Why would he do such things? All for the sake of "saving" this world, the magical world, from its inevitable doom. He is going through extreme measures to do so, with no hesistance to do such things like aiming for the medic or wiping out the mindreader first. But by the time the final battle arrives, apparently he and his minions have no desire to do any of that messy killing, even of the targets he first pointed out as so very dangerous. His mindset has developed into that of a shounen rival, whose only desire is to fight Negi. They were to complete their duty without any fatalities...that was when the "extremist" left the room.
 
And while that is happening, the usefulness of our beloved students began to wane. Perhaps I should've expected this the moment I realized the majority of the cast is present because they locked lips with the protagonist. They were fine up to the final battle. Their intelligence and teamwork paid dividends when they confronted Godel in the ball. Every student save a few unlucky ones were able to survive in the harsh wilderness that is the Magical World. Chisame rarely needed her pactio card to be of immense use to Negi. But the final battle, when an anticipated fight between Setsuna and Tsukuyomi is glossed over, and Mana is taken out of the fold having to fight Poyo...we are left with Kaede as the sole muscle. Ku Fei, despite her supposed advancement of her abilities is still holding the middleground of our cast. The majority of Negi's team is either intel, medical, or just plain weak.
 
But luckily Fate also had a party of weak minions for them to fight it out and stall a few more chapters. These characters only existed to be comic relief and to give Fate a more sympathetic backstory because even a cold emotionless doll can become a shounen rival. Our final hope, with Negi out of commission, lied on the group tasked to save that pesky princess from the hands of the enemy, with a meek and overlooked character heavily relied upon for yet another artifact coming from the actions of lip-to-lip. And they do it! They honest to God successfully do so.
 
...then a bunch of Fate clones show up and RUIN EVERYTHING.
 
Why? Just so Negi can wake up and KILL THEM ALL, with one Fate takes out to fully show us, the readers, how much he totally isn't an extremist anymore! He even saved his rival's females!
 
Kaede is taken out (but manages to get ahold of the key) quite easily, and several of our non-fighting friends fall as well, despite how supposedly bloodthirsty these clones are, who have none of the hesitance Fate holds, their damage to said girls are neligible. They'll be conscious in a few chapters with no permanent or even temporary consequence. Apparently saving the world only gives you a few bruises and bumps, especially when you are hopelessly outpowered by psychotic doll clones. Everyone's favourite man saves them all afterwards. Then he and the no-longer-a-bloodthirsty-extremist rival duke it out until Fate, because of how much he has softened, merely surrenders, giving in to Negi's idea of saving the world. Yes, let's rely on a ten-year-old boy who has zero experience in politics everybody! He's such a prodigy he'll manage it anyway! Meanwhile our female heroines, who as we can tell have absolutely zero power to really do anything in the actual fight, decide to save Asuna the sappy shoujo way, by holding hands and thinking of all the funtimes with our unconscious-forever princess. This is what these girls have been reduced to. This.
 
But then the rest of Cosmo Entelecheia show up and RUIN EVERYTHING! Again!
 
More impalement that literally can't kill Negi this time because he is some sort of immortal vampire like Evangeline! (Such nonexistent suspense!) These older guys show up and finish what Fate never could but luckily even Negi is saved from the likes of such beings by ALL THE TEACHERS AND EVA and Rakan who revives because he can, (or Asuna already used the key to reset button I forget) and defeats all those terrorist bastards. Evangeline particularly, when she decides to freeze them FOREVER. 
 
Yet again, someone shows up to ruin everything.
 
The CREATOR himself shows up, worfing basically EVERYONE in vicinity...until Asuna (with Negi) decides to smack him with a sword, and then we are revealed he is possessing Nagi's body, and then he disappears.
 
FINALLY the Magical World arc ends. Finaly. 
 
Idealism. There is nothing wrong with idealism. TTGL has a brilliant display of idealism, despite all the hardships and everything that may happen, you still continue on, head high, and believe you can do what you want to do, to challenge and defeat everything that attempts to surpress your immortal willpower. Negima's idealism is bullshit. Everything is at stake, absolutely everything, and half the cast waltzs through this predicament as if it were just a game. Meanwhile, we are treated with various shots and angles of these jailbait females naked because idealism and fanservice go hand-in-hand. The antagonists seemed to have softened this era for the sake of not harming those poor little students one bit, else their bodies be unfit to show the gazes of the readers. In the past era of Nagi and such, it was all no-nonsense, straight to the point. People died. Consequences were permanent, wars left orphans. The reason it's so dark in this era is because the heroes are not porcelain females but grizzled men. 
 
But now we can fix everything with a RESET BUTTON!
 
I'm not even going to go into the ending of Negima...we all know the response to that. This rant is just the summary of everything I had a problem with. The plot itself; the focus on one character and one character only. Kotaro's a pretty lousy rival if he gives up and actually calls himself a supporting character during the tournament. His goal was to be Negi's equal! He should still strive to be so no matter what. This even includes other characters who call themselves supporting characters in-canon. Though Negi's all like "you are the main character of your own story" their stories AREN'T THE STORY. What Negima feels like is Akamatsu wanting to do a shounen and a shounen only. So he starts off with the romantic comedy harem to fool the editors/publishers, then fully and completely transitions into a shounen, almost abandoning the characters of old from before. My favourite part of Negima was not the beginning or the end, but during that transition, when there was a delightful mixture. But we all know from the Magic World arc that wasn't his goal. 
 
And so the inner anger continues, forever to live on due to the great disappointment that is Negima.

This may be my last rant ever on Negima, unless something drastic occurs.
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Blowing off steam because Simcity 4 (playing a multiplayer-region with Ed) is seriously annoying me.

So I'll do something utterly pointless to calm down! AND THAT IS THE COMPARISON OF THE HAPPY MATERIALS:

 
Yes, Happy Material, a very catchy song and the theme song of the first anime for Negima. Do not believe what others say, Negima is a terrible anime, but an especially decent manga if you ignore the last fifteen chapters or so. Nonetheless, despite the mediocrity of the animations, the music is actually quite good, or at least some of them are. Sadly this does not include the music from the Live Action because 80% of that music is plain amateurish and bad, like the Live Action itself!

Moving on, if you don't mind listening to six or seven versions of the same song, continue reading! Happy Material is a very happy (as the title says) song, kind of poppy or techno-y...or well, I'm terrible with genres. Anyway for the sake of including all the class members, there are several versions sang by a different set of students organized by seat number. That means characters will sing with other characters you never thought would, like Chisame and Evangeline! This post is basically my ranking and especially of such rankings of which Happy Material is the best sounding. As always, shameless bias is present.

Let's start with the original, the good ol' original Happy Material likely listened to the most, what with being the original. Being the first song, the singers are the first few students in the class roster going by alphabetical order. Now already there is some bias floating in my head and likely most people's heads because being the original, it is the one you hear first, the most often, and therefore the one you expect...so obviously one will like it more already. There is further bias on my part because four out of my top five favourite characters sing this version, not only that but a previous absolute favourite character AND someone heavily associated with my favourite characters meaning I do not dislike and do in fact care about each and every singer, including their voice actresses. For the last one, do blame Aoi-dono for that just like everything else.

So yes, it looks like we don't even need to look upon the other versions what with that insane amount of bias already, but rather than just moving on without explanation, let's listen to the song as objectively as possible. It's not only the singers that we're used to, but how the music itself is played. The other versions have some variety in having different instruments and trying to differentiate itself from the original. So the original even sounds like the original, nothing added that may or may not catch you by surprise or anything that will annoy you if you hear it too often (example, a sound in the song like the intro or some character yelling something being very gimmicky and therefore rather tiring on repeated listens)

As for the singers themselves, not only do we have a nice variety of singers, this original also enjoys the privilege of six and not five singers because of the odd number of students for even further variety. The next bit of variety is where and what part the singers sing, it is actually different throughout every version and not static. If you're confused, say Yue sings one part of the song solo, whereas in the other songs that isn't actually a solo, but sometimes sung by two people at once, or the entire group, or only half of it is a solo, etc. I think the original is also benefited that the singing shared amongst the singers, and where their solos are placed are well balanced in comparison to the rest of the versions.

Now we can actually talk about the quality of the singing which will obviously, unless it's live, try to sound the best it can via the wonders of technology, but there are faults. While the voice actress of Yue, Natsuko Kuwatani is an amazing singer and perhaps one of the best in the entire cast, others aren't quite as brilliant as her. I will have to harp on my favourite character's voice actress, Ayana Sasagawa who can't seem to reach high notes at times, in particular her last solo before the song ends. That is a bit of a weak point in the song but luckily only half the song is in the opening of the Anime and Kazumi's solo there sounds fine, even cute and very fitting. Everyone else sounds average and can reach their notes properly. Akira's solos are nice to listen to and we are also luckily to have voices that harmonize well and aren't generic. While Ako's (non-fake) singing can be very ordinary, she is the only ordinary-sounding singer within the song due to Sayo, Yuuna, Kazumi, Yue, and Akira all having either very unique voices or excellent range in their singing or even both. Yue is both, but Akira is an example of the latter. 

 

So after that pointless analysis, I give this Happy Material a 9.5/10. There are a few faults, but the composition is done well enough that you can easily overlook such faults. Everyone's solo makes sense and sounds nice, so there we go. I can't really comment on the lyrics (the second verse is different each version) but even if I did know the words or cared enough to go look it up, they're all probably rather generic anime lyrics anyway. The final thing I must add is that while this song is the original and therefore there are no deviations, there is one. Near the end of the first chorus, you can hear Yue trailing off a bit from the others yelling "Go!" or some such, which is actually quite cute and a bit of an easter egg since people not paying attention can easily miss it unlike the other deviations in the other songs. So let's move on to the second Happy Material!

This one is sung by students Misa to Madoka. I must start off by saying it is unfortunate two cheerleaders are lumped in this one because due to the SHAFT Anime they were almost treated as one entity and spoke at the same time constantly, which made their voice sound very, very generic (just "loud" if anything). This is highly unfortunate because Madoka is supposed to have a "husky" voice in canon (obviously didn't happen) and Misa's voice actress, Shizuka Itou, is a very highly regarded seiyuu and for her to be reduced to such a role in Negima is wasted potential. Oh well, it's not like the casting directors knew the cheerleaders would have incredibly flat personalities when they were deciding on who to play who. Anyway, also thanks to having two cheerleaders in this song, the deviation for this one is everyone yelling GO! GO! whenever they're meant to only say GO! So...not a bad thing or anything, but the deviation might be annoying through repeated listens. (Not that anyone would actually be listening to this repeatedly unless they're doing a pointless analysis like I am at the moment...)

The second version also features the main character Asuna, so you'd think it might sound a little more special in some way, but it does sound oddly generic compared to the original. Madoka not having a husky-sounding voice actress does not help. Chachamaru, though often has wondrous singing (yay for Akeno Watanabe!) is singing at a higher octave and thus not utilizing her beautiful powerful singing like in 1000% Sparking, and so doesn't really sound as different as she could be. Asuna while has a fine voice isn't helping much with her voice range, and there's Misora (Bandou Ai) who sounded absolutely splendid in Infinity Love 2U but again has the Chachamaru problem of a higher octave. So unfortunately this version sounds like a mishmash of various Japanese female teenagers as opposed to the brilliant variety present in Happy Material 1.

Not only that but there appears to be less solos in this version...wasted potential is pretty much this song, but well what can you do if you happen to have a group that doesn't sound all that different from one another? And the singers that can REALLY sing are limited by the song itself due to their natural voice range from sounding like anything beyond cute. So I will have to grade this an 8/10. We move on to a bunch of characters well-loved by the fans...

From Ku Fei to Makie we have the yuri pairing that dominates all fanfiction, Konoka and Setsuna, plus a Haruna thrown in for good measure. Once again a majority of the characters sound like children or really hyper teenage girls...and I guess they are both. The difference here is that even the high voices do have a bit of individuality in them. Makie is of course voiced by the singer Yui Horie and Ku Fei has the very underwhelmingly enthusiastic if performed live Hazuki. They have decently unique voices despite sounding high. While Konoka does sound unique when she speaks and when she sings her own solo songs, she is slightly difficult to make out when singing with Ku Fei in this song. Not only that, she too has a high voice, so when you mix these three together you get a mix of highness that unfortunately overtakes Setsuna's very hammy, very boyish, and very unique voice. Haruna is in the middleground, so whenever there aren't solos it's once again a choir of hyper girls singing a song.

So thanks to several high-tier seiyuus, the quality of the song is nice and you can even make out the solos! The group singing while sounds nice, falls a bit in the variety department but I certainly prefer listening to this one over and over again as opposed to the second Happy Material. How very fitting that Yu Kobayashi sings the "original" line in the song. I'm not really sure where the obvious deviation from the original part of the song is, it's not too different from the original. So I guess in that case it ranks well in repeated listens. A lot of people probably listen to this one as well thanks to the popularity of the characters and the popularity of Makie's seiyuu. Haruna's voice while the middle-ground probably would've fit better in a group of singers with more variety to be able to enjoy her voice more efficiently. Too many high voices in this one drowns her out. The solos are a bit lacking here as well, which is unfortunate because I'd loved to have heard each singer by themselves much more than together. Also Makie's singer falls a bit flat in her last solo just like Kazumi's, but she has no excuse because SHE IS A PROFESSIONAL.

Anyway I'll end that review with a decent 8.5/10. Hurrah!

We lead into version four, from Sakurako to Chizuru...which is like the opposite of the last two versions. Everyone has a very unique but very few of the characters have high childish voices, oddly enough. If some of them were mixed into the previous versions the songs would have a far better balance, but perhaps that would make them all too similar to the original? Who knows. This one unfortunately features even less solos for whatever reason and seems to like giving Kaede extra singing time. Nothing wrong with that, what with her voice actress being a professional singer and her voice being decently unique, but it would probably be more necessary if she was the only one who sounded normal amongst a bunch of females on helium like on the other songs. 

The most unassuming voice is sadly Chizuru's though, which you don't often expect because you're thinking of a more onee-sama type of voice when she sings, but that's only reserved for her speaking. Mana and Kaede make an excellent duo in singing, and Sakurako despite proclaiming a love for karaoke really doesn't sing as much as she should. I much prefer Chao's singing voice in the SHAFT version, what with it being a different actress because her alto (or is it even lower than that?) singing in 1000% Sparking is absolutely GORGEOUS. Here she sounds relatively normal, not her normal voice when she sounds all high-like while speaking thankfully, but not as beautiful as when her new voice actress sings in the other opening.

Perhaps I've listened to this song too often in a row but I can't seem to decipher that much a difference between the music. Oh, different enough and thankfully more variety (I need a thesaurus! :D) than the 1000% Sparking versions, but still. Nonetheless I rate this a flat 8/10 that while they do not sound excruciatingly high or like generic Japanese females, they aren't extraordinary in the singing department and their voices are a bit too unassuming besides Mana and Kaede. Moving onwards!

We have the twins to Evangeline...oh dear, just as I begin to listen I can hear an extreme techno-y difference in the music which somewhat grinds on my probably very sensitive ears at this point. Not only that, but in this song we have very little difference among the characters: three lolis and two nerds. Chisame normally has a deep-like talking voice, but her voice actress has the Chachamaru syndrome (and is probably singing closer to like a Chiu) and so sounds JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE in this song yay! Hakase has a high voice as well, and the only voice NOT attempting to be cutesy is Evangeline's, which while still high seems to have an ounce of dignity in it. (If you can have dignity being a five hundred-year-old vampire singing a very silly song with a bunch of classmates you despise) I mean I guess ramping up the music to match the singers' tempo makes sense but egads it just makes everything worse.

The uniqueness of this song comes from the energy of both the twins and Chisame for some reason in Chiu mode. So they continue their lines a bit more with cheers or energetic cries or whatever to increase more of the taste of diabetes in your mouth. I know I complained about versions two and three sounding like immature brats on helium, but this is absolutely absurd. It's like you ate two pounds of pixie sticks and then began to sing with other people hyped up on pixie sticks while bouncing on a bouncy castle leaking helium. 

While Hakase sounds generically high, the twins are overboard cutesy and high, and Chisame seems to have a little bit of originality in her voice, not sure how to describe it besides "not irritating" and then we have the rather misplaced Evangeline. I wonder how Yuki Matsuoka felt when she recorded this song with the others? Her voice is definitely drowned out in the group songs and I cannot make out anyone whatsoever when they're singing in smaller groups. This group is the opposite of the first group, thanks to the twins singing together a lot (and not really having much difference in voice anyway) it's more like only four people are singing this, and there is very little that stands out as well! Of all the versions so far this is the worst. It's not bad, but I would not listen to it repeatedly, egads. 

HELIUM, I rate it 6.5/10.

So we come to version six, Nodoka to Zazie! And chills just went down my spine despite listening to the same tune dozens of times by now...

Because these five singers are perfect.

FREAKIN' JUNKO MINAGAWA and MAI AIZAWA are backed up by the uniquely sounding Mamiko Noto along with the voice you never hear Yuka Inokuchi with the very cutesy but not obnoxiously high Naomi Inoue! Arguably the best singer of the cast (contests with Yue) we have Ayaka who seems to sound amazing despite whatever octave you force her into. Natsumi's singer is actually very surprisingly good because you expect her to be normal and unassuming like Natsumi herself. It is no wonder she was cast as Mio in Nichijou.  While there isn't anyone with a husky or low voice here, Nodoka, Zazie, and Satsuki manage to still sound different so without their voices being THAT different from one another the group actually sounds especially harmonious and the remix of the music aids this mood very well. I don't even get chills from the original song because the original is just the original, but it seems like the music producers kept trying and hit the right note with this version. (It probably helps they got an amazing group to boot!) The lack of extreme techno is so soothing to the ears.

The solo parts are fitting and while again not as numerous as the original, still has just enough. Everyone sounds amazing together or on their own, and they can sing very well and there is a beautiful diversity. This song is like they put all the nicest characters together to sing, WHICH THEY DID! Satsuki is basically flawless. Ayaka gets shotacon jokes but she always has genuinely innocent and meaningful intentions in the end. Zazie may be the most polite demon in existence. Natsumi is unassuming but never puts anyone else down and is, well, nice, and well, I don't think I need to say anything about Nodoka! It also helps that none of these characters are annoyingly energetic like a majority of the class. (I say this while having Yuuna as one of my favourites...herp derp, she's lucky she has a backstory and an incredibly unique voice!) The complete opposite of version five, as opposed to being a clusterfuck of horribly high voices this one is just splendid and wonderful and if you were to choose any version to listen to over and over again for the rest of your life because of some horrible oddly specific curse, choose this one! (Yes, even over the original!) Everything that deviates from the original fits perfectly and isn't forced. 

10/10.

Yep, it defeated my bias. Oh and the unique part of this song aside from everything was that one part after the instrumental where Satsuki said something in a non-overenthusiastic nice voice. Yay.

Apparently there is one last version...the one sung by the teacher and his sort-of family kind of....Negi, Nekane, and Anya version time.

Ah this intro is very interesting, slightly jazzy or whatever...I'm terrible with genres and...LOL.

Sorry, was distracted by the description of this version. The uploader can't figure out Anya's last name...Anya Coconuts. Pft. Anyway the intro was quite unique and I very much enjoyed that sound to start off. Three singers means a lack of variety, but at the same time way more opportunities for solos and such. Rina Satou, being such a veteran in this whole voice acting business, sounds fine. She could not sound any worse or better, very fitting. I could complain that she doesn't sound very Negi-like, but then I'd have go back through this entire rant and mention that for a third of the class, so whatever. Maybe it's not jazzy but kind of acoustic-sounding? Blah. This song is also like 20 seconds longer than the rest huh. Anywho with one singer being an older sister adult lady-like, one supposedly a ten-year-old boy, and another an eleven-year-old girl (who sounds deeper than half of Class 3-A, hahaha) we have an insane amount of variety here despite the lack of singers, so that actually isn't a problem! And the longer length is due to more of the instrumental playing about which is fine and dandy with me, I like the instruments on this song.

Nekane's voice is quite soothing and fitting, Anya's isn't typical moe cutesy little girl like (THANK GOD) but still fits. Negi's higher than normal for the purpose of this song, but they all sound wondrous. Nothing too much to say besides that, dunno what the unique niche of this one is and due to the low amount of singers commenting on the variety is actually quite pointless despite already doing so! I think I'm gonna run into some sort of pointless circle here if I keep that up. I give this one a 9/10!

There are actually more versions like a Konoka version or one with all of them singing but I'm not touching those. So I guess that means our final tally is like this, if you feel like listening to this song go with them in this order:
Happy Material 6 - 10/10
Happy Material 1 - 9.5/10
Happy Material 7 - 9/10
Happy Material 3 - 8.5/10
Happy Material 2 and 4 - 8/10
Happy Material 5 - 6.5/10


The acoustic version is very nice too. 


And that is my pointless post for this lovely blog. I am starving and will once again attempt to fix the roads in my Simcity in futile.


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Because woah I never got around to watching it. All I did was hear all the horrendous reviews and decided that I was done with the franchise (especially after that manga ending)

But the other day I was organizing my trusty external and moving a whole bunch of series I've gathered into it. I found a whole bunch of old Negima stuff, so I decided to finish watching the last OAD and movie I never got around to watching. I was going into the movie with low, low, looooow expectations and told myself to STAY CALM AND COLLECTED while it I watched. So yeah, now that I'm finished with it...REACTION.

First of all, due to watching Nichijou and falling in love with Mio's voice, I paid extra attention whenever Natsumi spoke. Interestingly enough she did get some decent amount of screentime compared to the others (especially my favourite and lovable MISCELLANEOUS group) But anyway the movie starts off ZOOMING PAST all the actual canonical action throughout a dozen or so chapters in the manga, just summarizing it all like a silly slideshow or something. Basically everyone dies but then Negi shows up and everyone is okay again and then he’s friends with Fate and they beat up that Lifemaker dude and then Fate dies but no one cares and then three months or whatever later we’re back in the classroom HOORAY!

It’s graduation time.

Negi is called into the Headmaster’s office and Kazumi is accompanied by the annoying twin duo to go eavesdrop. The big news? HE MUST CHOOSE A PERMANENT PACTIO PARTNER if he is to become Magister Magi, and those who are not chosen lose their memories of magic foreeever. So a majority of the movie is spent angsting about this consequence. The fighty people go fight Negi one last time, the lovey-dovey people go kiss him one last time, the main main characters discuss and wonder what it’ll be like with some classic Ayaka/Asuna action ho yeah. For some reason several characters who are not known to be jumping on top of and thus molesting Negi in some dogpile of sexual harassment doom are doing so. Near the end Chachamaru and Ako are part of this group for some reason, which I don’t see them doing so I’m going to wager a guess that SHAFT does not give a crap about keeping characters in-character.

Anyway after all that happens Mars suddenly appears, decides to wreck havoc thirty years earlier than Negi had planned for the ultimate fix of the Magic World. So in order to stop it from eradicating all life as we know it, he must destroy its fancy barrier and then fuse Mars into Earth. I actually have no clue what hell kind of BS plan this is, but in order to have enough power to do so this instant he needs to choose a permanent partner NOW. So Negi decides to choose everyone because IF HE CAN’T HAVE HIS HAREM, THEN THE WORLD IS NOT WORTH EXISTING. So then they jump on a giant magic circle of doom and try to stop Mars. Every student who has offensive pactio powers aid in Negi’s giant beam of doom (for example, Makie’s incredibly crazy gymnastics ball! THAT IS SO GOING TO BREAK A PLANET’S BARRIER!) which indeed implodes the barrier but the whole fusing Mars into Earth thing unfortunately fails.

So we get a few minutes of OH MY GOD WHAT DO WE DO and then Chao appears! Hooray! Because Chao is here, and therefore all of Negi’s students, they are able to do the fusion spell and save their worlds! Everyone is then happy, we go to their graduation and then it ends! Huzzah!

You know, as terrible as all that sounded I think I preferred it to the end of the manga. I think I was bitter for weeks after the end of the manga. I’m somewhat more relaxed about it since it ended in such way due to Akamatsu’s dispute with his publishers, but I dunno, I think part of the reason Negima can’t get a faithful Anime adaptation and that the manga ended like it did is the fault of the mangaka himself. He didn’t see through that companies wishing to adapt his manga would do a good job or not. He let them milk all the money possible and destroy all resemblance of his characters and even he could not do justice to the manga he created. See that’s the thing, with the adaptations of Negima I already expected it to be bad or at least not faithful. The saving grace was always “at least the manga’s still good!” So when the manga ended with quite possibly the worst type of ending ever, it of course would be rage-inducing. I had nothing left to fall back on because the source material itself failed.

Oddly enough the movie itself is actually quite an appropriate conclusion for all of the existing animated works of Negima. The beginning where the movie scrolls past all the canon manga stuff is a parallel to the OADs, which while mostly faithful shoved a lot of stuff into such a small time-frame, just like it was in the movie! The ending with everyone using their pactios to achieve a great cause reminds me of the retarded ending of the XEBEC Anime. The bathhouse scenes call back to the incredibly fanservicey OVAs, and everything else is the SHAFT Anime, since the SHAFT Anime threw away all plot and just used the characters for its own plot, which is exactly what the movie is about.

Nonetheless, it did give some decent closure. Basically my review of this movie is “IT WAS BAD” but it could’ve been worse because us fans of Negima are used to WORSE, what with being everything else. At least we get to see some of our favourite characters in their pactio outfits, and some decent action along with it. I found Ayaka at first fighting over Asuna with the possibility of Negi picking her was fitting, and then right after that when Ayaka wanted Asuna to be picked, what with everything that has happened...that was very in-character and sweet of the class representative. I also like Natsumi’s scenes with Kotaro, She brought up a good point that even if she didn’t forget, the memories are pointless if everyone else forgets. It was another pretty touching moment, I must say. I don’t care about the love octagon triangle harem thing at all and also I didn’t find Yue and Nodoka’s scenes all that deep so I have little opinion of that. The fight scenes were good, but maybe my memory is bad...wasn’t it only Ku Fei that wanted to duel Negi? Why would Mana and Kaede want to? I don’t remember those two having a rivalry with him. With each other yes, but not with Negi.

That leads to...miscellaneous! They just threw every other character with each other, and funnily enough my favourite characters are among this group. (Chisame, Haruna, Chachamaru, Eva, and the Konosetsu scenes were largely kind of meh) Because this movie is only an hour and fifteen minutes long (even less so in the initial screening, eesh) we can basically crush and press the rest of the characters together into ONE CHARACTER. They are the generic students who like Negi! They don’t have their own personalities or problems or insecurities or anything like that! Oh no not at all!

Okay, I might be exaggerating there. We do have Yuuna acknowledging her father for about two seconds in the movie. Kazumi just does usual journalistic scoop stuff, but really these characters are pretty shafted in the movie. Oh well, largely expected. I wish they had a budget, a company and a creator that CARED so this movie could be hundreds of times longer and actually have some resemblance of proper plot and care thought into every single character. Did Zazie only get one line? Is the fat girl’s only purpose to serve food? Misora might’ve been the most forgettable student there! Sayo’s voice actress is quite the veteran and I think she probably could’ve been paid five dollars for her service in this movie.

See, when I started reading this manga there was one issue that never escaped my mind. THERE ARE SO MANY DAMN STUDENTS. How was Akamatsu going to go through them all and give them all unique characterizations!? Then more and more other characters are introduced for the purposes of the plot, and half the class is left forgotten in the wastelands of Mahora. Then the story ends, so pretty much my issue never got solved in the first place. I am always against anything that has too many characters. I thought the first season of Digimon had too many chosen children, but they managed to pull off a pretty good show anyway.

Anyway let’s go to my superficial comments on the movie!

Due to the bathhouse scene, several characters are shown with their hair down. Including Yuuna, who while looked very odd with her hair down in the manga for whatever reason, looks quite swell in this movie. Here is an actual quote said by me during the viewing:
“Yuuna should really have her hair down more ...wait Negima ended. FUCK!”
Yes the only reason I want to see a continuation is more Yuuna with her hair down.

And while every other character could’ve been dropped off the face of the planet and no one would’ve noticed, I have one thing to say to this movie. You have Natsumi going through her troubles. You have Ayaka going through her troubles. Chisame, Haruna, Chachamaru, going through their troubles. But! Do not get me started on a certain character who almost died of a terrible disease, had to sell herself and her friends into slavery to afford the medicine, get treated harshly by the enslavers and shocked (at first), discover the one person she’s emotionally dependent on and in love with does not exist, watch the new friends who eased her experience suddenly die off and...you know I could keep going with this...and YET STILL only have a minor role in the movie with no closure at all.

One problem I’ve always had with Negima and the endings is how idealistic it is. I myself am a very idealistic person, and I thought this manga/anime/whateverthehellitis was too damn idealistic for me. No one dies. All your enemies become your friends. No one is actually bad, just well-intentioned extremists. No one will ever get hurt, just stripped. If someone gets impaled in the chest they will get better. If someone gets impaled in the chest it will never be one of those untouchable classmates. If they happen to actually get hurt the blood is actually fruit juice. If someone suffers through a horrific ordeal they’ll end up in the permanent status of “Angst? What Angst?” when they should seriously be suffering some intense form of PTSD. Everyone who was “killed” is merely stoned or turned into fluffy feathers and you can find a reset button for everything. If you graduate it’s okay, your teacher is teaching English the next year too! You might be a ghost but the reason you’re a ghost is never revealed because that would be too sad for the perverted children reading this manga or watching this Anime. If you have to be put to sleep for a hundred years for the sake of the survival of a world you can just leap into a separate timeline and continue your happy existence there. If you share a love interest with several other girls there will be no permanent jealousy or consequences that will ensue because your love interest will never ever reveal who he actually likes ever, and even if he does you will be okay with it despite your life revolving around this person for years. The one person in the class who is not a pedophile is instead subjected to horrible horrible abuse, then relegated to a role of being a Negi Molester #4 with little or no closure whatsoever.

...Negima's pretty sexist, huh?

Welp, that was the movie. The end of the end, no more Negima to come because that is all. Manga is over and animated Negima is over. The plot was bad and the plotholes were many. The animation was kind of iffy, but I think all the negative news that came about with the SHAFT crew seriously screwing up with the deadlines of the movie and then only releasing 2/3rds of it in theatres was already troubling as is. I can’t understand how badly they handled this series. It wasn’t just mediocre bad, it was really, really, really glaringly and blatantly horrible. I think my experiences with Negima is the reason why I never ended up watching more Anime because the experiences were so disappointing I preferred pursuing a different medium. I must stop now because if I don’t my rants on this series will be ENDLESS. So this has been Spotto, good day, and that is all for the movie, OAD, Anime, and manga that was Negima.
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My first exposure to Touhou was not the fighting games, nor well-known PVs like McRoll or Marisa Stole the Precious Thing.

It was in fact this silly PV, posted in 2008 and parodied with Negima characters.

And of course it never got me into Touhou because when I saw that video I liked it mostly because it was associated with Negima. When curiosity led me to watch the original I didn't gain anything. Mostly because this remix of Love Coloured Master Spark sucks and makes it sound like some sort of overly cutesy shoujo-like Anime for children and the monotony and repetitive nature of the song was not outstanding whatsoever. If I knew Love-Coloured Master Spark could sound like this and delved into the ridiculously expansive genre that is Touhou music I'd probably have dived in. Also thanks to Hetalia I saw a parody of Marisa Stole the Precious Thing BUT IOSYS IS TERRIBLE. That is why I didn't get into Touhou earlier, both those vids are by IOSYS and they drove me off rather than pull me in!

And Kero Destiny is far better, but alas I suppose I'm not very good at getting myself into things. In fact back then I do not believe I realized what Touhou even was. I think I even recall saying "It's that IOSYS thing" or something or another. Oh how ignorant you were past-Spotto. I did indeed watch McRoll but didn't find it all that amazing or anything like that. In fact, while I do love UN Owen it's not my favourite theme and if anything UN Owen were to get me into Touhou someone should've showed me this video because oh my god that is one of my favourite vocals of all time. The picture always helps, but Kero Destiny and Silver Forest as an extension (though I have no idea if they also did the video, or if someone else does it. Or if they hire some artist to make the PV to promote their song or whatever! How does it even work? Does Noya work for Innocent Key!? I know IOSYS does their own videos I think maybe!

And even when I'm already in Touhou, I have seen the stage where one of my fandoms parodies Touhou and I already know it. So rather than watching the video on the left here first I saw the one on the right long before and therefore my judgement and bias is already showing. Though objectively Bad Apple really is better. It even got on CNN once. I wonder how someone made it animate so smoothly? Must've taken a long time, yet not because they didn't have to have details. Well either way, in terms of the song I hate singing Bad Apple and I like this humorous version of Bad Apple, or this 3D MMD version. The MLP one has awesome custom lyrics and singing though, far better than I can ever hope to do.

But yeah this post was pointless @_@ So we'll end it with Backstreet Boys.
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So..
TTGL >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> GUNDAM WING

No contest. No comparison. I won't even explain why. It's so obvious and my opinion of GW is actually lowered now. 

You know, there's something wrong with me.
Or perhaps, from your point of view...something right with me.

As every year passes, I keep resenting my young teenage years more for my rather questionable tastes. I don't know. I really don't know, but as I grew older I keep wondering why I like to ship characters. I keep thinking now that doing something like that kind of ruins the original material, the passion and essence of the show or movie or book itself. But such a thought process is unacceptable because if people want to ship or change how the canon is like in their heads they can. Everyone has their own opinions to what they like and believing that they are wrong for doing so when it's merely something as minor as TV Show is wrong and yet, the more days that pass I question further why I would do that. 

I've ranted before that love should never be introduced into the Mane Six of MLP. The show is all about friendship after all, and should love as a topic ever be brought up, should be a problem amongst minor characters and never with the main characters. Yet despite that, I still ship PinkieShy. I think it's adorable and I don't mind looking at images at it, in fact squee like a little girl when I do or read fanfiction of it. But does it not go against the spirit of the canon? Does it not break the friendship dynamics of the six friends we've come to love and go beyond that? So why do it? Why ship? Why can I not resist d'awwing at every picture I see, watching them boop noses or cheer each other up? Is it some sort of subconscious psychological desire? It's not like I want the pairings I ship to be canon, that would be pretty awful and quite the jump-the-shark moment if it ever actually happened, but still...should I not enjoy the show the way it is, with the message it provides? Isn't that the point? Why does my brain desire to see two of the main ponies hooking up? Why does my brain desire to see this for any pairing from any series I follow? What is the purpose of Korea and Hong Kong being together? They never even communicate, yet I want to see it. Do I have inner carnal and shallow desires for something as completely one-dimensional as this!? I DON'T GET IT. I love Kazumi and Sayo as the best of best friends ever yet I do not mind and even enjoy them going beyond! WHAT IS SHIPPING EXACTLY!? Why is it something yearned after by so many people, and why does it have such hypnotizing properties sending normal everyday men and women into raging walls-of-text justifying their ship to another and wishing death threats upon a fictional character for dare breathing next to the character they do not belong with!? What makes one type of person love shipping but others not!? What is the appeal of something as ridiculous and outrageous as this!? I DO NOT UNDERSTAND!!

But...I will continue to do it, against all logical thought. Is it really as simple as "they'd look hot/cute together!?" Isn't an explanation as simple as that kind of insulting to the human mind!? Why are emotions so incredibly powerful!? Why do they twist and turn our brains and make us do things that don't seem normal or with proper thought!? 

...well, with that out of the way, Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann.

Yeah I watched it. I watched it all in one day, one episode after another the moment I woke up. I said I would watch it at some point in my life, eventually I said. I know I am very anal about watching or experiencing anything because I like clinging onto what I have and only moving on until I scrape the bottom of the barrel of all substance of everything I like, but the other reason I might end up watching something longer than a movie or a game that requires effort is when I am sad. The Canucks lost Game Seven? WATCH PONIES. That I did, and that I do not regret. It gave me great happiness and allowed me to cope with the loss a bit better, what with basically all of North America judging my city and the fans of the team to be horrible, immature, and ridiculous people for rioting and causing one million in damage in utter idiocy, when in reality the people who did this is a huge minority, half of them probably not fans at all. The recent trade and my utter disappointment in Negima was getting a bit much, so I decided I needed some hot-blood into my life. I knew TTGL was amazing and changed many people's lives, but I did not want to watch it until I had a reason to. As stupid as my methods are, it's how I work unfortunately. I could've watched it five years ago, but I prefer to save the epic until I can take in the epic, so that I haven't gone through 150 Animes and raged at 80% of them because they were bad or ended stupidly or whatever.

Nonetheless, opinions! 

What can I say about TTGL...hmmm. I can't necessarily say it changed my life or anything like that...but I do admit it was quite possibly the greatest Anime I've ever watched. While it is known to be a highly-praised Anime anyway, I don't have a lot of Anime at all in my watchlist, so my opinions aren't quite as legitimate I suppose. For TTGL I am pretty much satisfied. I don't want to enter its fandom or really have anything to do with it because I feel the original material will be lessened if I try to indulge in any fan-related creation regarding it. Simply because anything fans could ever possibly do cannot surpass the quality of TTGL itself. Perhaps that is narrowminded thinking, but I don't want to accidentally see a Yaoi doujin of two of the manly characters or something. I am not condoning looking at such material at all, but I found the Anime so great that I don't really want to see different interpretations or even alternate universes. Maybe I'll check that manga out, but unlikely.

A common rant I have around here is how cheap death is and how often I watch or read anything where people simply do not die, or if they do it's some minor character or an old man or whatever. Negima is a huge offender. They kill absolutely no one. I understand it's meant to be a light-hearted manga, but in that case I will expect none of the class or Negi dying. The rest however is a crapshoot, if there's going to be a huge war and tons of political drama and Negi being fucking skewered through the chest with a giant stake with blood everywhere, then that tells me the universe they are in are dangerous enough where people will probably die. Yet no one DOES. Not even the fucking bad guys, they all get revived and then killed..no wait, FROZEN FOREVER. The people supposedly "dead" are all MASS-REVIVED. So whenever Negi or Fate got stabbed through their stomachs I frankly could not give a shit. There was no danger at all, not to anyone at all. I don't want to look for some show with a realistic or cynical tone for people to die. In such a series it's obvious and expected...I want to see where when a major death happens it's necessary and develops the other characters. I bet 75% of 3-A are still idiots who can't take a thing seriously because no matter how dangerous it got in their little war nothing that changed was ever permanent. Even Asuna, who was thought to sleep for a hundred years gets to experience a happy life too by being TRANSFERRED TO AN ALTERNATE UNIVERSE, like sacrifice means nothing at all! It really, really, really REALLY bothered me! Can you tell that it bothered me!? BECAUSE IT FUCKING DID. Why are you so cheap Ken Akamatsu? What's the point of those chapters where everyone is sad? Were you trying to incite cheap tears from your fans for a few weeks before everything is reset again? IT DOESN'T WORK THE TENTH TIME!!

Anyway I watched TTGL and its message is quite idealistic. The tone of the show itself is very, very straightforward and rather happy. It's not a depressing war-torn show with tons of angst amongst whiny teenagers, but people still died...and not random mooks or red shirts or characters no one cared about (but they died too, naturally) but important characters as well! Lots of important characters! MORE THAN I EXPECTED! Yet even with such setbacks that would obviously put down all the characters and make them feel as though they cannot go on, they DO...and that makes everything all the more powerful

I really don't have too much to say about TTGL. It was great...what more is there to say? I suppose there were oddities like episode four but everyone and their mother has discussed this series already and probably analysed it to death, what with its popularity. Doesn't have to stop me but I can't seem to think of anything to say. I also watched the movies and enjoyed the differences, though overall I think the plot and what happens in the Anime is the best. (I can't deny that the combination of everyone's Tengen Toppa-versions of their mechas wasn't cool or the fist-fight with the anti-spiral or anything, but everything was paced better in the Anime...you know, what with having much more time to do stuff and all) 

You know I came in the Anime wondering many things, many common instances that are ridden in other franchises or shows. For example I wondered which character everyone would hate, or what might actually happen or the symbolism, or whatever. For me I love every single character and that usually never happens with me, at least not a first showing. Usually if I watch something and like it, I still have problems or qualms about some character and then warm up to them later but I don't feel any of this for TTGL. I knew Kamina was super awesome and amazing. I already knew beforehand that he'd die too. (it was like Snape Killed Dumbledore, hard to NOT know that by now lol) I knew a lot of things already but also wondered a lot of things. When Rossiu was introduced I found him adorable. When he grew up I saw him making mistake after mistake, and I kept wondering "No! HE HAS A XANATOS GAMBIT UNDER HIS SLEEVE! HE IS A MAGNIFICENT BASTARD! HE'LL SECRETLY RELEASE SIMON! HE PURPOSELY GAVE THE GANMAN TO LEITE TO SCRAP BECAUSE HE KNEW SHE WOULDN'T! IT'S ALL A CLEVER, CLEVER PLOY!!" So yeah, I wanted to justify everything he did but in the end he was being quite the bastard, still. I don't hate him, but I'm not surprised he has a lot of haters. Someone has to take this role, sadly.

Oh wait why am I talking about Rossiu so early? What of the other characters...like the actual main ones!? I actually have nothing to say about Kamina. No, not a bad thing. It's just everyone in the world loves him and everyone knows what he did and everyone knows everything so what do I say? Nothing because it has been said! I need not add to the tire-fire of GAR! Yoko was pretty cool as well. I was pleased to discover that she is not just walking fanservice. I find her logic in wearing barely anything for comfort kind of odd, but whatever. Simon's character development throughout the series was awesome, and as FUCKING AWESOME as he is, by the time he gets older and has all the confidence in needs I didn't really care about him at that point. We already know then that he will accomplish everything he needs to do (the exciting part is the execution of how he does it!) but his character at that point is like The Ace, or Superman...so while he was dishing out quite the awesomeness in the most beautiful of animation ever his character itself at that point...eh, not too interesting. 

Oh wait that reminds me, Kamina isn't actually a one-dimensional dude with blinders on the side of his head with only the ability to look forward. You see, there's a REALLY good explanation for him and it makes Kamina an even better character because of it! The fact that he himself isn't all that strong but still has that spirit within him, all so he can get Simon to keep going because Simon is the one with that potential, even if he himself has nothing else at all and Simon is the one getting him out of trouble...it's really admirable. I really understand the lovefest with Kamina, from not only the in-universe characters but the fans as well.

Yet he is not my favourite. *hit by tomatoes* 

I CAN HAVE OTHER PEOPLE AS MY FAVOURITE! *hit by more tomatoes*

Fine, let me tell you my favourite. I don't have a single favourite, but I absolutely, absolutely, ABSO-FREAKIN-LUTELY love LORDGENOME and NIA. These two. They are something.

You know my problem with manly men these days, especially in animation is how incredibly clean-shaven they are. I see those shaving commercials and I'm like "WHY" If you have testosterone you need to have hair! I am so sick of all these females in love with all these really, really girly-looking men! Look at Twilight for example! I love werewolves myself, BUT NONE OF THOSE SHIRTLESS DUDES ARE WEREWOLVES. Werewolves are HAIRY. THEY ARE NOT HAIRY AT ALL. And when they transform they don't even turn into werewolves they just maintain a wolf form after transforming in an instant. THAT IS SO INCREDIBLY LAME. LOOK AT THIS VIDEO. That is a werewolf transformation. I have a problem with the guy not originally being hairy but still! It should be traumatizing and painful and really badass! (and now you know why I find werewolf!Fluttershy the best thing ever) 

So then I see Lordgenome...at first I have no opinion. He's just there to be the antagonist, the mystery guy sitting atop his little throne, seeing his minions run out and kill themselves. Then you finally see his body. He's muscular, but he's so much more toned than all the manly men you've seen yet. And then that final battle with Simon...OH MY GOD. This dude, he's so fucking manly it's insane. And it's mirrored in his personality and attitude. At no point does he lose confidence or even his cool! He looks epic DYING. A MANLY MAN IN A MANLY MECHA! The staggering amounts of mecha Anime these days with these THIN AS TWIGS PILOTS and their GIRLY BISHOUNEN FACES IS TOO MANY I SAY!! HAIR ALL OVER HIS BODY! None on his actual head which makes him even more insane. That CRAZY beard. his SPIRAL EYES. Fuck I love this dude. HIS CMOA in the Lagann-Hen movie was FREAKIN' AMAZING. His POSTURE too! Agh! THAT HACKING SCENE. It's no wonder he spent most of the second half of the series as just a head! If he had his entire body during that duration EVERYONE'S HEADS WOULD'VE EXPLODED OF IMMENSE GAR. EGADS!

Yes, I love Lordgenome. This Anime is actually perfect for my art-style. Whenever I try to draw ponies they look too old or chunky or the eyes are too small/the head is too small because I'm so used to drawing super serious manly things. Whenever I doodle I often attempt drawing a manly male torso and I always give them mean grouchy looks! It's why I enjoy drawing Wolfe the most in my SI doodles because I put hair all over him and make him very manly. I prefer drawing manly stallions like Big Mac over any other pony, yet my favourite are the girly ones. (The pony I draw most is Fluttershy though. I just keep drawing her it's not funny. I guess I keep trying to perfect her as I draw!)

You know I just realized I forgot all about Viral, hahaha. Well he's cool, not a favourite of mine. His dream in the Lotus-Eater thing was actually rather depressing, but apparently, according to mecha people (don't ask me, I am completely ignorant) he is a "Char" clone...makes him feel less unique when they say that. Leeron surprised me, but at the same time I also...wasn't surprised. Kind of hard to describe really, I was surprised such a flamboyant character showed up in such a series, but at the same time the tone of the series (especially early on) him being a character didn't really feel out of place either! So yeah. I'm not about to describe every bloody character ever or something. Kittan was awesome, and when I saw the "second" OP I was wondering who those kids piloting the mechs were....they were the orphan kids from Rossiu's village, grown up. Shows how much I pay attention. >_>

Then we have Nia. Why do I like her exactly? I actually don't get it because I don't think I would've liked her as much if I watched TTGL five years ago. But anyway, it's not like she's an advocate of strong women who break social norms and stereotypes or anything! She is found, knows nothing about...well, anything, and then has to be saved a few times and takes up cooking. (I correctly predicted that her cooking would be horrid! I was like "Watch her suck at cooking. It's always like that. Girl seemingly perfect wife-material CAN'T COOK!") I think a big reason is how she just..is...she really reminds me of Koishi for some reason. Like, if Koishi were dropped into a universe powered by spiral energy, this is what she'd become...doesn't help that she actually looks it, and I fucking love Koishi, so yeah. Also it's just her whimsical airheaded moe nature, it's like "Nia, we should get married" and she's like "NO WAY" with a happy cute face and I'm like "YES I LOVE YOU YOU ARE AWESOME" Actually when I found her being introduced practically directly after Kamina died I feared that she might become some sort of replacement scrappy but as the episodes went on I was like "WOW, you cannot possibly hate this girl and have a soul"

The fact that she is the daughter of Lordgenome is awesomer. That ridiculous manly gritty contrast with the innocent moe girl is...wow. 

Besides the characters, another great thing I love about this series is that everybody gets a mecha. Not every soldier or manly men or action-person, EVERYONE gets a mecha. That LITTLE GIRL ORPHAN you take from that gloomy underground village will be piloting a MECHA! Nerdy people can pilot mechas too! In fact the only people I never see pilot a mecha are the mechanics, why not try out one of the things you built/fixed up man!? :C Plotwise you go from underground village city thing to breaking through the fabric of space-and-time jumping through multiverses...how ridiculously incredible.

You know, I don't understand the critics...people who find it too hot-blooded or ridiculous. It's like hating Pinkie Pie! I don't get it! HOW DO YOU DO THESE THINGS LIKE HAVING SUCH NONSENSICAL OPINIONS? Do you not feel emotion!? Ah well, this has been Spotto... I am not going to quote anything so ha. Looking forward to the Fluttershy episode tomorrow due to the preview clip...and TTGL is surprisingly relevant to the topic of the tomorrow's episode (being assertive!) so yeah, somewhat of a coincidence! That is all.
spotto: (KAZUUUU oh and sayo)
WHY THE FLYING FUCK HAPPENED TO NEGIMA

NO SERIOUSLY

THE MOVIE

 

THE ENDING

 

FUCK

 


REALLY

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THIS IS A FUCKING JOKE


spotto: (Stage One.)
Negima might be ending soon. I'm not sure. I don't even know if it will be or not because I cannot tell.

I haven't been able to comprehend anything that's been happening in the manga lately. So many plot points, so many twists, so many big-damn-heroes moments...everyone being revived (including the bad guys) and all that...the ending of the Magic World super-arc was really really...well, not necessarily disappointing. I wasn't disappointed because to feel that way you need to be excited to begin with, and my enthusiasm for Negima died off in the middle of the entire arc because I found it too complicated, boring, and ridiculous to care. It kind of sucks to care about any character within that manga not named Negi or the few main girls attached to him. Thirty-one girls in a classroom and a 10-year-old teacher...that premise, I always wondered: how the hell would he handle such a huge amount of characters? It was inevitable some will end up less developed than others.

But then a time-skip happened...5 months to be exact...straight to graduation.

I wasn't expecting that. Not only that but he opens up his class-roster, and tons more notes showed up. All these notes detail events that were never shown in the manga, new things we simply skipped over but were ripe for storytelling. More information on lesser-known characters, on characters we've been yearning the background to for forever, including Sayo. For all we know it's all been skipped.

Really?

Even if we somehow touch upon those later, Asuna is being sucked up away from the story for a hundred years...and she's kind of important to the plot. Then again we spent like a hundred and so chapters with her not in the manga so it might not be the same, but...everything just feels so contrived... I know I gave up on the story a long time ago, but I always had the hope, I always came back to catch up just to see...Will they give us some backstory to some of the other characters, particularly those I'm interested in? I've always wanted to see that, but it doesn't look like it'll come to be.

If this is the end of Negima...the ride was terrible, and I have no hopes for the ending either. The beginning was pretty awesome, but that's all I enjoyed. 
spotto: (FLUTTERSHY)
This post is shockingly NOT all about ponies! But let us start with a pony picture anyway.
 
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I would wear a pony shirt if it had Tux!Pinkie on it. FOR SERIOUS.

This week on the pony, or the not pony! )
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HALLOWEEN EDITION

So much to say, so little I'm actually going to publish.

Well first off, since it's Halloween my door actually has this adorable picture of Ex-Keine on it right now. I would give her all my candy if she showed up at my door. EVERY SINGLE PIECE OF IT, and I will ensure that she'd share with Mokou. It would be wondrous.

Apparently Buddhists do not celebrate Halloween.

Here's a song that is fitting for the day.



Nue, a creature feared by humans for one simple fact, the Nue is a being who's true form is still unknown, is that loli we see before us her real form? It makes me wonder, is ZUN tricking us humans once again, and laughing his ass off?
She was sealed away in the depths of hell, but all the ruckus Chernobyl caused broke her free, releasing along with a bunch Unidentified characters a horror unknown to man. Shape shifting, corpse morphing, they are all truly fearsome powers. -Excerpt from the description


Yeah. UFO was horrifying. Those UNIDENTIFIED SPACE SHIPS AND LIKELY THOSE ADORABLE MINI-ALIENS PILOTING THEM IT IS SO SCARY HOMFG I had to hold back ALL my fear to collect them because they gave you free things like candy. Though in terms of progress I actually reached Shou on EASY MODO! She proceeded to destroy me. (Which is funny because I got through midboss Nazrin with no problem) I can perfect Nazrin and Murasa now (no it's not because she's my favourite and I practiced her forever in practice mode) both Kogasa and Ichirin still give me trouble, in particular their last spellcards. IF ONLY I HAD THE BOMBING REACTION. But you know what? Nue is a troll, forcing me to risk my VERY LIFE to manoeuvre through all the bullets attempting to collect that red life UFO ONLY FOR IT TO TURN BLUE THE SECOND I TOUCH IT--FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

So due to it being Halloween this week/month's edition is going to be discussing the internet's fascination with the genre: Grimdark. Every single one of my favourite characters have been subjected to such a genre, though some made more sense than others. (I demand more Murasa grimdark. SHE IS A MASS-MURDERER FANDOM! Do something with thaaaaat! Oh and she is also a ghost. And no, Stripe-Pattern's desire to gorify everything using psychopathic Sanae does not count, nor does Byakuren letting a little girl be eaten by a youkai!) One particular favourite from Touhou that isn't Flandre is Koishi, due to her disconnecting herself from the youkai world by having a few arteries not plugged into her brain, or something. I even did an entire post about this, with the strangely-popular Youtube series: "Koishi's Heart-throbbing Adventure" This little adventure isn't just Koishi decapitating everything (rather, she is the one who is decapitated oddly enough...and Yukari, but that's spoilers! Oops.) I have not been following it because it subjects poor Shou as a victim and that just tortures my heart to see Shou like so. (By the Myouren Crew too. :< )

But yes, the internet is now fascinated with that which is grimdark. I'm not entirely sure why (or maybe I am late and it has been in forever) but people simply like making characters as miserable as possible that goes far beyond that of emotional trauma. They are after all fictional characters, so no real people are being hurt except maybe offended people on the internet. But no one really cares about people on the internet unfortunately. I highly enjoy fan-made creations that are incredibly sad. I love reading tragedies and occasionally angsty-stories. (Those that don't tread into wangst-y, at least) So what makes grimdark even more fascinating than already a genre that tugs at your heart strings, attempting to stab you every time you open your eyes? I must admit I am not completely against grimdark, so long as it's well-written and has some sort of point. (And yes I realize most fluff has literally no point but at least it makes you D'AWWW which is important! Senseless grimdark kind of does nothing really, or disgust you. But who wants to willingly be disgusted?)

And well most grimdark I've run into wasn't the type I'd like unfortunately, since they are all senseless. The aforementioned Stripe Pattern is one of them. I'm not going to go into the heart-throbbing adventure since I had an entire post devoted to it before, but I have these Stripe Pattern doujinshi on my computer, and I got to say. So senseless. Of course if you make it like Taoism propaganda it'd be far more hilarious, except the part that depicts Nue as a hero. (In which case Nue would be some sort of amazing historical figure we'd all hail) One of the biggest most noteworthy of scenes is when Byakuren leads a bunch of youkai (who all look like horrible ugly disfigured demons and not the pretty loli youkai you regularly see) and they walk into a village. One of the youkai eats one of the little girls, and Byakuren does nothing to stop it, in fact encourages it. The most aggravating parts of the story isn't so much the scenes despite how horrific this one is, but the fact that the circle uses actual quotes from in-game to describe Byakuren's beliefs, throwing it completely out of context. It truly does seem like a propaganda doujinshi. Stripe Pattern hates the UFO characters, and had Sanae brutally massacre the group. 

I too have even written grim-dark, if that one story of mine where a nuke falls on China causing the death of the entire population leaving Max missing a hand means anything. I am not proud of that story, in fact I quite despise it. The fact that I use such a touchy situation to justify for the shipping I have in the story is awful. I've also written imprisoned Negima characters with regular tasings and fights, also a way to write out a shipping. I don't know what was wrong with me then, but I do believe I had a fascination of grimdark myself. I think a lot of teenagers go through this phase, it's like being emo and wanting to cut yourself (but not actually cutting yourself...I hope) thinking that the entire world hates the fuck out of you and nothing is fair. You know, the whiny teenager stage. I think a majority of my past Livejournal posts are pretty much either fandom squeeing or whiny teenager stage, so... (yet I still keep them around for nostalgia purposes)

But some of them are again, rather interesting. I think half the reason I fell into the Hetalia fandom is that you could depict actual wars with the characters, and use that character as a symbol of the feelings the entire nation feels. Yes I realize some people might be offended by reducing an entire population to a shallow anime character, but you got to be brutally honest about these things. While a death toll with a gut-wrenching high amount of numbers is pretty devastating, you probably don't know anyone who actually died since mass death occurs in a third-world country much more often, but many people were in tears when they found out Steve Jobs passed on, a single person. It's a lot easier when there is only one face. The face of a poor girl who was murdered near a University a few weeks back is a lot more emotional than a number. We don't have time to look into the histories of a devastating catastrophe then a single person whose future was so very bright or of a man who revolutionized technology of the current era.

But yes, how did we get to that from grimdark? The problem with most grimdark out there is that it doesn't seem to have a point besides making you disgusted unless it's actually involved in some sort of plot. South Park is often considered something like this, but still has elements of humour in it to keep plenty of people watching, but grimdark never really has humour for some reason. Perhaps I'd look into it more if it did. Also I could talk about the MLP fanfiction Cupcakes on here but eh, despite its notoriety I don't think I really need to discuss it. Really, what is there to discuss of a one-dimensional fanfic? Pinkie Pie dices up Rainbow Dash! There.

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On another note since I am on an MLP tangent recently, I am going to defend the haters of Pinkie Pie from episode 4, the Halloween episode. There aren't that many actually, but the idea that there ARE people annoyed by what she did in that episode frankly annoys me as well because that episode made me like her even more. 

People should not go into this show thinking it's a generic everyday baby show. I'm sure the humongous population of people watching it is evidence enough, but for some reason Canada decided to air this channel on Treehouse TV, a toddler channel. It has such shows like Timothy Goes to School and Franklin. I was actually rather shocked when I heard they censored the word "losers" on that channel. If a show has to be censored to be on a PRESCHOOLER CHANNEL it does NOT BELONG THERE, not to mention several episodes that might be too complicated or terrifying to children. I'm wondering what they'd do with Fluttershy snapping a bear's neck from episode three. I was quite surprised that episode got through to airing with such a ridiculous scene. It is on par with Bubbles beating the shit out of a bunch of monsters and wiping blood off her mouth. Not to say it wasn't an entertaining scene, but Jesus Christ are those ratings folks even paying attention? Lol.

Anyway onward to episode four! The Nightmare Night episode, bringing back a character that was long missed during season one. (Well, according to a ton of fans...I didn't really care.) I found her hamminess quite glorious, especially since it wasn't intentional. When I saw the costumes first-hand before the episode aired I found Pinkie's a little unoriginal at first. "Really? The ridiculous character in a chicken outfit? That's not original at all!" In fact in terms of first impressions I actually didn't like any of them, though Applejack's was okay. When the episode aired though, all my disappointments were addressed!

Twilight wasn't MERELY a wizard, but of Stars Swirl, an obscure historical figure. It was so in-character. I can't say much about Rainbow Dash's because although being a Wonderbolt isn't original, being a Shadowbolt comes out of nowhere seeing as all it was was Nightmare Moon attempting to deceive her loyalty. I suppose it was fitting considering her pranks. Applejack was not really touched upon either, and both Fluttershy and Rarity got nothing. Throughout the episode I saw Pinkie Pie screaming in terror from Luna, unknowingly making her night rather miserable. I at first wondered why she'd do that, due to two things:

1. She was there and helped reform Luna with the power of RAINBOWS!
2. Her 'Giggle at the Ghosties" song.

So while wondering if she was just off-character or the writers were being stupid again (they tend to be in occasional episodes) at the end of it she explained that "sometimes being scared can be fun" or something like that. That was in-character too, just like Twilight's costume and her chicken outfit spells it out perfectly. She was being a chicken! You also have to remember that Nightmare Night comes EVERY YEAR and EVERY YEAR you're supposed to be afraid of Nightmare Moon, it is tradition, JUST LIKE THE ROYAL VOICE! She's not going to switch from last year, and again she didn't realize she was making her night miserable. After all, they almost had a truce at the end there if not for Rainbow Dash. People who denounce her for being a selfish prick just baffle me. I can only shake my head. Misunderstandings happen in everyday life too. 

It reminds me of people disliking a character because they were doing something from their point of view because we viewers know everything and expect everyone to act as what we know. For example a character might be acting like a bigoted sexist bastard in the past, but we are watching from our time-travelling heroines' view. Anybody that actually doesn't act bigoted is a goddamn Mary Sue. (If they act HESITANT and eventually break the norms then it's okay (it's called character development!), but they are not going to magically decide that the world they grew up in is completely and utterly wrong) 

Yeah, people who denounce her for this episode are as aggravating as people who hate Rarity. (As you can tell Pinkie is my favourite character)

That is all! Enjoy all your candy or spiked punch if you're attending parties, and Happy Halloween! I also have a WoT entry being prepared if I ever decide to post one! Stay tuned for that! Maybe.
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This is not actually a post about the subject because that's been discussed to death. In fact the real topic probably is also discussed to death, but is related to the subject. 

First, let me start by saying I prefer Sheik female, simply because I find it more interesting. I don't actually follow Zelda games that closely, having only played one and was introduced to Sheik through SSBM, so there might be canonical reasons that she/he is male, but in a strict personal and perhaps storytelling standpoint, she is far more interesting as a female.

But why?

I don't know why, really. I suppose it's because of his/her oufit, which covers her/his body, and the fact that her/his face is covered as well. So many female characters,and I really mean it, so many are portrayed in an all too-common way that nowadays is really beginning to annoy me. There's a video game with high attention to detail, stunning graphics that make it as if you're merely guiding the hero through a whole movie, and then they meet a female. What does the developer do to denote that the character is indeed female besides the name or voice, if there is voice-acting? Why, give her boobs of course. And because the audience is nothing but a bunch of perverted dumb fucks, make sure there's plenty of cleavage so they can see those boobs and therefore determine that she is indeed female. After all, all females look and dress like that! 

The ironic part is if Sheik is indeed portrayed as female, her outfit being tight to her skin, will show us all her lovely beautiful curves. Isn't that great?

But the one solace I have at least, is that her face is covered. That gives us a sense of mystery, that even though most characters in fiction have the same goddamn face, maybe her face isn't of a sweet delicate girl, but of a hardened-warrior. Maybe her face is covered due to scars, or covered because she's trying to disguise herself...actually the biggest reason is that we don't have to see her lips. It's not really quite as obvious as giant breasts and womanly curves, but mere coloured lips seems to automatically dictate that this creature is female! Unless you're Frieza. Or his dad. Or his brother.

I DIGRESS.

We've seen in Anime that most males, or at least relatively young ones of the teenage and young adult age look rather feminine. They're not always muscular men with body hair and gruff voices, and in fact even muscular men don't need to have gruff voices, or those with gruff voices do not need to be muscular. I am only asking for the same for females, who should not, especially in the West, always be so exaggerated. I suppose it's one of the oldest tricks of business though, no male fans if there are no sexy women after all. Even then, they don't all have to be like so!

But even still. An example is Negima, many different body types and kinds of females with several different personalities. Great, right? Finally something that portrays people of different heights, skin-colour, body-types, personalities...same faces still, but you get the point right?

...nope.

And it's all because of one thing. Because of the fanservice. Because the majority of the cast is female and having them all be the same would be rather dull. If there was ever a series where the female is the minority, she'd just be female. Not a character, just female. I'm sure there have been many, many rants about that, of the Smurfette Principle. Let me give you an example of the other way around.

The only male character shown in canon in Touhou is one Rinnosuke Morichka. He's not manly. (Canonically, of course) He's not strong. He's not the center of attention or the subject of a harem. (Canonically, of course) He's simply minding his own business, running his own store. He's not a buttmonkey for being the only male. He's not shirtless. (Canonically, of course) He has a personality besides being male. It would not matter if he were female anyway, but nothing in Touhou is affected or changed in him being male, besides het-fics actually existing beyond that of <character>/ZUN. Even though all that time before he was ever introduced males were either non-humanoid or dead/disappeared forever. But why is he male? What is the purpose of making him male if the entire population is female anyway?

Well a theory of why everyone is female is that ZUN can't draw males. This still holds up, since Rinnosuke only appeared in the mangas drawn by other people. That can be the same for any other creation or work out there! If you can't make a good female character, don't even bother with one. Stop trying to attract other demographics if you're just going to do it poorly, and surely not all male fans are horrible lost causes in terms of sexual appeal. Why can't a female be attractive without wearing practically no clothing? Why can't a female be interesting without being stereotypical? I'm sure males would be interested in a strong female character too. 

Let's stretch it further. WHY does the generic default character have to be male? Just create a character, do not worry about their gender, and give them a gender. It wouldn't matter if they were female or male, at all. If at some point in the plot the sex of the character must be brought up and be relevant, then fine, give them the appropriate gender, but why does it matter? Because guys don't like shows with main female characters? What the hell is My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic then? I assure you guys like that show not because they are furries or deranged, but because the show is legitimately good. (Of course, there are always those very deranged vocal minorities!) And look, they're ponies, not girls with well-developed bodies! (or alternatively, completely undeveloped bodies for those people) Their personalities and the setting make it more so that the ponies are young adults, as opposed to children, since they have responsibilities. Life in Equestria just tends to be rather idealistic because after all the main demographic is children.

And yes, this stretches to a few of my berserk buttons in the Touhou fandom. Like Murasa canonically not wearing shorts. I like shorts. I like how most fanartists keep the shorts. Most people see her as a dull forgettable character (and awesome people see her as an awesome captain with plenty of potential! /notbiasedatall) so why not throw her the bone and make her a little more identifiable, like being the only character with shorts. It gives her personality and it's practical in the seas. (I wouldn't wear a skirt in the seas or the skies, what with that wind...) If all females in a type of media is female because they all wear dresses, that'd be highly monotonous. (Unless of course it's in a time period where females are restricted to a type of clothing) Just like if all females are basically a pair of jugs, or if all females are high-pitched annoying people, or if all females...

You get the point.

Moving on, my clan friends (or Ventrilo friends, or friend people male...things. What do I call them now?) assigned each other with various DBZ characters. No one really assigned one to me, so I did it myself, but I'm not entirely sure who to be since I don't really care much for the female characters in DBZ. I went with Dende since Namekians produced asexually so they're not really male or female even if their appearance is very much male. Also Dende is cool. Then I asked Akira who her favourite female character was, and she responded Chi Chi.

You know, at first I was like "Why?" in my head. Because in my memories of watching DBZ as a child, Chi Chi was rather annoying, but after rewatching some of these episodes today...I can kind of see why. And most people who accuse her of being annoying and stupid to me, are just immature teenagers who don't understand her character. Sure, she isn't without flaws and can be rather annoying, but ultimately she is a mother, a caring mother who only wants to see her children thrive and succeed. Fighting, although very awesome and entertaining to watch, and no doubt very important to the safety of the world, will not help Gohan through life in terms of careers. Though I would think the world owes quite a bit to the Son family and the rest of their group for saving the world so often, but they're such nice people they don't even take credit for it.

And she isn't without development, either! She began to train Goten in fighting, when Goku was dead, finally realizing that not allowing Gohan to train as much as he could was foolish as well, but how was she to know before then that the Earth would be the target of evil aliens time and time again? Her wish to keep her children safe, even if she is by no means in any position to having the power level of a mere human is admirable. I found her death scene to the hands of Majin Buu actually rather shocking. She stood up to the villain after her son was allegedly dead and her husband definitely so. It was actually really stupid, but still...you really realize she's just a mother trying to protect her children. Not watching Gohan or Goten to fight such powerful monsters is instinct. It's like the world wars, where all the men have to go fight for their countries. Surely all the mothers, wives, daughters, sisters, etc. just want their family to come home! They don't want them to fight, to face real danger even if it was necessary to stop dictators and empires and whatnot. They just want them to live.

Speaking of her death, Goten was there to witness it. I actually found that a lot harder to take than Gohan losing his father several times or Gohan watching Krillin plus the other fighters die several times, etc. I'm not saying Gohan had it better either, it's just that there's a difference between a man risking his life dying and an innocent civilian. There's a difference when someone who has died once already dies again and someone you don't expect to bite it since they're non-fighters. It's also because Goten seems a lot more innocent at that point, having experienced far less than Gohan, so suddenly seeing someone who you're very close to, not even a person meant to fight die right in front of you is kind of troubling...

Anyway I actually lost that rant but Dreamwidth magically saved it after I thought it was gone forever. +1 for DW.

spotto: (hong kong *STAAAAAARE*)
I may be out of the Hetalia loop (but not the Negima loop! Just caught up) but Hong Kong's personality is actually quite AWESOME. (I read Hetalia Bloodbath :X) His character section on TVTropes can list it in a nutshell but basically he's a lot well, looser than most people I know expected? I remember following an RPer for HK who did his personality somewhat similar to this, and it was my favourite interpretation. He's better at annoying China than Korea! YEAH.

Speaking of Negima...well what has happened somewhat surprised me yet at the same time hasn't. I didn't expect such a completely cheesy conclusion to his conflict with Fate, but then everyone from Mahora popped up to act like Big Damn Heroes. I'm rather disappointed the fights between Setsuna and Tsukuyomi and Poyo and Tatsumiya were cut short and really never elaborated on EVER. I wonder how often he and Fate can get shot through the torso without dying. My largest complaint is probably how cheap death is...as in it never happens or only pseudo happens or happens to INCREDIBLY minor characters, not even minor minor characters die. Not even VILLAINS die! I just can never see the sense of danger in this manga because they don't ever show anything ever biting the dust. 

I've mentioned this fan-manga/comic/series thing here a few times already, but I feel like regarding danboou warning Chirei De as its own entity now. It's just that good. I believe it's going to end soon and that's already making me quite sad. I just cannot believe how good the writing, the artwork, the expressions and style this artist has. It's better than that commercialized official manga in the above paragraph, and has infinite more depth than the shallowness that is Hetalia. (I still like those two, but I'm just saying that this is...REALLY GOOD.) The best mixture of sadness, of happiness, of sappiness, of adorably cute and dark. Never too much of either and somehow done in this intricate art style I never thought had so much flexibility. I have never seen the artist handle something awesomely evil or cool or whatever like Nuclear Fusion Utsuho, who will show up pretty soon, but I have high hopes. After all, everything else is near-perfect!
 
 

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