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spottoSo lately all my entries are just posts of my story or other things about my fandom (and occasionally squishable hamsters) so why don't I attempt to write something about MESELF? XP (Hopefully before I fall asleep)
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Okay, maybe not. I can't think of anything to write, what a life, huh? XD Unless something HAPPENS this Summer I doubt I'd have much to write until school starts. (Senior year, holy crap O_O) Oh, speaking of which I have been avoiding the TV to not hear the early "Back to school" commercials and then I hear one from my room because my brother's got the TV on so loud...=_=;;; and then I bump into a lot of "Back to school" stuff on the internet (even Livejournal has it on its front page, >>;)
So fah, it's hard to avoid. I mean unlike all the years before I'm actually not caring whether or not school's coming or not, since it's my LAST year in a high school but I still don't want to be reminded of it. This is my last summer to be free, and I seriously need a job or something before next summer, and to get a license like everybody else is. (Being the minority is FUN!) I've also been having very interesting dreams...I call them nightmares, and I don't believe in the "what is the meaning of said dream" stuff, but it's true than I'm in love with my best friend, woo. (Which makes no sense because I never spend time with her over the summer anymore...our friendship is almost dead!) Or granted, I'm a bad friend and lazy...but...she should call me for once. >> (Of course this attitude is how I lost the first friend I ever had...okay now I made myself sad...xDDD)
Oh, and I really suck at being social. I know I was warning my other friends to take care of their damned new hamster responsibly but telling them tips and advice made me sound like a bitch. If I were taking this stuff from myself...I'd hate myself! Seriously! This is why I suck in friendships, xD. I'm better off expressing myself in words than in a voice like on the internet. I think I'm more of those "I look like I never say anything because I'm antisocial and I hate you" but I'm really "I'm too shy to talk and don't want to say anything stupid, which I probably will." That's why I prefer typing words out than my horrible voice (and even that isn't so perfect, I know a few internet friends I've pissed the hell out of before)
Interesting how I said I had nothing to say and then all that exploded out. I actually came here to talk about potential Negima spoilers. But I dunno, I'll leave that to the eeeeeeend.
In real life I really am one of those people who will not approach you, you must approach me. If you never talk to me I will never give a damn about you and just go on with life. (Which is why I ended up making no friends whatsoever in kindergarten, and then in 1st grade some second grader came up to me and we became BEST FRIENDS....then she moved in third grade) In fourth grade I met this other girl who always picked on me (but ironically we became BEST FRIENDS, why am I never in a group of friends, huh?) And...it's been almost 8 years, XD I'm a pretty horrible friend, oh well.
And of course I also look antisocial to my relatives, TALK MORE they say, my parents go TALK MORE TO THEM, why are so quiet? And then they talk about their family and give me examples of say my cousin who is very polite and talks nice and loud and seems very friendly. But if I'm in my house with the closest family to me, instead of TALK MORE, I should SHUT UP more, because I seem loud and stubborn and bitchy, ha. The different sides of life.
And yet I feel I'm too nice. I seem to be unable to figure out how to make those friends of mine become the BEST FRIENDS FOREVER like so many people before me have done. Apparently no matter how nice I am, if my personality, which seems antisocial and I don't give a damn (seen my grades? I don't give a damn) it doesn't appeal much. So here I am, a shy person who tends to say stupid things who doesn't give a damn, but is oh so incredibly nice. That doesn't fit a sagittarius at ALL! Or...does it?
The people in real life only know of my shell. My shyness seems to disappear a bit when I come onto the internet, in a different world, with a different life. Most people call this geeky, and that people like I have no life...maybe our RL isn't going so well, so we escape to the virtual place of the internet, where there are many friends all around who live on the other side of the glove, and yet...I am happy. If there was no internet, my shell might not be there but actually be myself, instead of the happy optimistic young girl who loves to talk and wants lots of friends. There's a reason why I love dogs so much...it's because of their companionship...all the stories of "man's best friend" saving people from a fire because they don't care about your looks...they're just happy to be there for you...and I don't understand how people can hate animals like these. There was once a saying in a comic where someone said, "I wonder why god let us run the world" when dogs seem like such a better candidate with their personalities and friendliness. We will never know.
There is that pattern that people with a lot of friends hate their family a lot, particularly siblings or overprotective parents, but I love my family....even, yes, my brother. Lots of you hate maybe your older sister, your younger brother or something, but my brother is like a role model to me. He taught me many things, and I have some tastes similar to him as I grew up. Largely my personality is like so because of him. Of course we're not perfect, there are times I wish he were dead, but I don't ever really mean it if you think about it, and that's what life is about.
Anyway....I want to discuss Negima spoilers now. I'm not sure why, but there is this Japanese blog a forum of fans found and one person tried to translate it. It had many spoilers and a lot of people believe the mangaka wrote it for some reason. (Maybe he did?) Anyway, for some reason I'm a tad disappointed. Not because... (Aoi, you BETTER not read this, xDDD)
RAH! SPOILERS!
Ako will have something to do with the Wales arc, or things like Zazie's mystery will be revealed at the very end but something about Kazumi's pactio he wrote. Something like, "Rushing to draw her card." Except...her cards already there...so it could mean he's rushing to GIVE her a pactio in the story.
RUSHING? That's like the same story of how Haruna got her pactio...OUT OF NOWHERE! There is barely any character development to rush, and to not do it in some amazingly desperate situation where Ojou-sama, Ako, and even Sayo are kidnapped and held for random reasons, while everybody else shockingly can't do anything, but doing out of nowhere is just like how he did Kazumi in the whole damned festival arc (which was BLOODY long, by the way)...announcing. ANNOUNCING DOES NOT DEVELOP THE CHARACTER.
Please for the love of all things holy, don't rush her pactio...
RAH! END SPOILERS!
Of course there is absolutely no proof whether or not that was Ken who wrote it, but there were many drawings of the Negi-pas uncoloured and stuff there...so I suppose that gives some evidence...
And to end off this entry, I give you a GIF I made today!
The first Anime is what hints at ChisameKazumi the most... (but yay KazuSayo! [This pairing MUSH name was coined by Lefty, praise her] )
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Okay, maybe not. I can't think of anything to write, what a life, huh? XD Unless something HAPPENS this Summer I doubt I'd have much to write until school starts. (Senior year, holy crap O_O) Oh, speaking of which I have been avoiding the TV to not hear the early "Back to school" commercials and then I hear one from my room because my brother's got the TV on so loud...=_=;;; and then I bump into a lot of "Back to school" stuff on the internet (even Livejournal has it on its front page, >>;)
So fah, it's hard to avoid. I mean unlike all the years before I'm actually not caring whether or not school's coming or not, since it's my LAST year in a high school but I still don't want to be reminded of it. This is my last summer to be free, and I seriously need a job or something before next summer, and to get a license like everybody else is. (Being the minority is FUN!) I've also been having very interesting dreams...I call them nightmares, and I don't believe in the "what is the meaning of said dream" stuff, but it's true than I'm in love with my best friend, woo. (Which makes no sense because I never spend time with her over the summer anymore...our friendship is almost dead!) Or granted, I'm a bad friend and lazy...but...she should call me for once. >> (Of course this attitude is how I lost the first friend I ever had...okay now I made myself sad...xDDD)
Oh, and I really suck at being social. I know I was warning my other friends to take care of their damned new hamster responsibly but telling them tips and advice made me sound like a bitch. If I were taking this stuff from myself...I'd hate myself! Seriously! This is why I suck in friendships, xD. I'm better off expressing myself in words than in a voice like on the internet. I think I'm more of those "I look like I never say anything because I'm antisocial and I hate you" but I'm really "I'm too shy to talk and don't want to say anything stupid, which I probably will." That's why I prefer typing words out than my horrible voice (and even that isn't so perfect, I know a few internet friends I've pissed the hell out of before)
Interesting how I said I had nothing to say and then all that exploded out. I actually came here to talk about potential Negima spoilers. But I dunno, I'll leave that to the eeeeeeend.
In real life I really am one of those people who will not approach you, you must approach me. If you never talk to me I will never give a damn about you and just go on with life. (Which is why I ended up making no friends whatsoever in kindergarten, and then in 1st grade some second grader came up to me and we became BEST FRIENDS....then she moved in third grade) In fourth grade I met this other girl who always picked on me (but ironically we became BEST FRIENDS, why am I never in a group of friends, huh?) And...it's been almost 8 years, XD I'm a pretty horrible friend, oh well.
And of course I also look antisocial to my relatives, TALK MORE they say, my parents go TALK MORE TO THEM, why are so quiet? And then they talk about their family and give me examples of say my cousin who is very polite and talks nice and loud and seems very friendly. But if I'm in my house with the closest family to me, instead of TALK MORE, I should SHUT UP more, because I seem loud and stubborn and bitchy, ha. The different sides of life.
And yet I feel I'm too nice. I seem to be unable to figure out how to make those friends of mine become the BEST FRIENDS FOREVER like so many people before me have done. Apparently no matter how nice I am, if my personality, which seems antisocial and I don't give a damn (seen my grades? I don't give a damn) it doesn't appeal much. So here I am, a shy person who tends to say stupid things who doesn't give a damn, but is oh so incredibly nice. That doesn't fit a sagittarius at ALL! Or...does it?
The people in real life only know of my shell. My shyness seems to disappear a bit when I come onto the internet, in a different world, with a different life. Most people call this geeky, and that people like I have no life...maybe our RL isn't going so well, so we escape to the virtual place of the internet, where there are many friends all around who live on the other side of the glove, and yet...I am happy. If there was no internet, my shell might not be there but actually be myself, instead of the happy optimistic young girl who loves to talk and wants lots of friends. There's a reason why I love dogs so much...it's because of their companionship...all the stories of "man's best friend" saving people from a fire because they don't care about your looks...they're just happy to be there for you...and I don't understand how people can hate animals like these. There was once a saying in a comic where someone said, "I wonder why god let us run the world" when dogs seem like such a better candidate with their personalities and friendliness. We will never know.
There is that pattern that people with a lot of friends hate their family a lot, particularly siblings or overprotective parents, but I love my family....even, yes, my brother. Lots of you hate maybe your older sister, your younger brother or something, but my brother is like a role model to me. He taught me many things, and I have some tastes similar to him as I grew up. Largely my personality is like so because of him. Of course we're not perfect, there are times I wish he were dead, but I don't ever really mean it if you think about it, and that's what life is about.
Anyway....I want to discuss Negima spoilers now. I'm not sure why, but there is this Japanese blog a forum of fans found and one person tried to translate it. It had many spoilers and a lot of people believe the mangaka wrote it for some reason. (Maybe he did?) Anyway, for some reason I'm a tad disappointed. Not because... (Aoi, you BETTER not read this, xDDD)
RAH! SPOILERS!
Ako will have something to do with the Wales arc, or things like Zazie's mystery will be revealed at the very end but something about Kazumi's pactio he wrote. Something like, "Rushing to draw her card." Except...her cards already there...so it could mean he's rushing to GIVE her a pactio in the story.
RUSHING? That's like the same story of how Haruna got her pactio...OUT OF NOWHERE! There is barely any character development to rush, and to not do it in some amazingly desperate situation where Ojou-sama, Ako, and even Sayo are kidnapped and held for random reasons, while everybody else shockingly can't do anything, but doing out of nowhere is just like how he did Kazumi in the whole damned festival arc (which was BLOODY long, by the way)...announcing. ANNOUNCING DOES NOT DEVELOP THE CHARACTER.
Please for the love of all things holy, don't rush her pactio...
RAH! END SPOILERS!
Of course there is absolutely no proof whether or not that was Ken who wrote it, but there were many drawings of the Negi-pas uncoloured and stuff there...so I suppose that gives some evidence...
And to end off this entry, I give you a GIF I made today!
The first Anime is what hints at ChisameKazumi the most... (but yay KazuSayo! [This pairing MUSH name was coined by Lefty, praise her] )
