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Nov. 14th, 2010 06:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spotto I'm gonna be a total whiner this post, so...please ignore! Like usual.
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Starcraft 2
Why am I starting to hate this game? I bought it for 59.99 a few days after it came out. I played massive amounts of team games on it afterwards with friends, then custom maps. I seldom played 1v1, and when I did it was usually among those I knew. I started to cast it and I have over 80 videos of me babbling away about the game on livestream.
But lately I haven't felt the will to cast. Perhaps it's because everyone has decided to play zerg, and basically every game I cast is either PvZ...occasionally TvZ. And then the game itself, it tends to be unremarkable. If I cast one player with a high skill level playing someone new to the race, how interesting is that going to be? One attack and someone's dead, whether it's after a boring turtley battle or early on in the game, and I guess I'm falling to that as well myself in my own play.
Yet as luck would have it, when I decide NOT to cast and do something else, a few times people have these amazing drawn-out games that I miss, and that just makes it frustrating. Casting is fun when it's done live, when you can hear the people playing being annoyed or yelling at the other player to get out, to test how well you can catch something happening as it happens, not during a replay by yourself, already having known what will happen. That just becomes predictable and boring.
But I mean, I'm not a gamer. People say I am, and tell me I'm a gamer, but I'm really not. I just don't have that passion like everyone else. I envy people who can find a passion for something, whether it's a hobby or a career choice or even a game. I feel like a person who is the jack-of-all-trades in this sense. I have interests in tons of things, but I have absolutely no passion for one over the other. It makes me mediocre at everything rather than supremely good at one thing, and then I'm like "wait....what do I do when I grow up? What career choice do I go into?" The one I chose now is simply something I was supposedly good at...but, it's not something I'm passionate about. I feel like where I'm going I'll either enter a job I hate or be in limbo forever, getting part-time-jobs constantly and never really going anywhere in life.
I just don't want to spend the rest of my life doing one single thing just to keep myself afloat. That's extremely dull. A teacher who deals with kids every year, teaching the same thing every single year. How the hell do they do it? They must have an enormous passion because that job doesn't even pay well. Maybe they just geuninely want kids to have good educations? Seriously, you're in the same classroom with the same paint job, with snot-nosed preteens and this is your fifteenth year teaching. You're going to tell them about Romeo and Juliet, and make them read the book. Well by this point you've probably MEMORIZED the entire play and know exactly what everything means. Does that NEVER get boring? EVER?
Well, I suppose I'm feeling the same for SC2. Everyone is zerg. All I do is PvZ. All I do is cast PvZ. Everyone has different opinions of the state of that matchup itself, whether they think protoss is underpowered or overpowered. It gets to the point that I don't even want to hear the argument behind it. I know my opinion. I'm probably biased. I am biased, but I think protoss is underpowered. It's EXTREMELY hard to be unbiased when you're protoss, you never win, and all you play is PvZ. Your own skill level is miles behind everyone else. All you can do is cast PvZs. Whenever I hear someone say that protoss is actually overpowered, that just makes me sad. I don't want to argue against it though because at this point I've just given up. Everyone will be stubborn and believe what they believe, it'll get to that unsatisfying bittersweet conclusion where after walls and walls of text or minutes of babbling to "we each have our own opinion" which just...solves nothing. Why even bother to argue if we're just going to agree to disagree in the end because we, like we already predicted, won't be able to bend the other person's opinion at all?
And it's not like anyone CARES about protoss. Sure this is getting extremely whiny, but all I've heard in the SC2 community is TvZ TvZ TvZ constantly. Then, every single tournament ENDS in TvZ in the finals, and if I do hear if protoss it's "protoss is overpowered in this sense" and really, Blizzard nerfing Protoss because of its performance in the LOWER levels of skill is ABSOLUTELY RETARDED. So let's say we have two adults and two babies. The two adults play SC2 and zerg wins more than terran, for example, BUT BECAUSE THE BABY'S TERRAN KEEPS BEATING THE OTHER BABY ZERG, we should nerf terran! OMG.
When I finally FIND a thread on TL where they're simply questioning why protoss was doing poorly in a certain tournament, it explodes into a protoss balance war with some opinions that I thought seemed very educational and rational sounding, yet all the opposers simply say all the protoss players just suck, not because toss is underpowered or anything. It's not even the whole" one unit is stronger than another" kind of argument, just the entire way protoss is built is really stupid and limiting that makes it appeal to newer players since the race is supposedly easier and more straight-forward. Why did no one argue that with zerg or terran? IS IT SIMPLY A COINCIDENCE THAT ZERG "started to develop and grow as race" after the stupid goddamn patch!?
And you know why I'm whining on this blog? I suppose it's because I'm too much of a wuss to go into an argument with all the zerg players I know. I just...don't care about this game enough to wall-of-text constantly against a bunch of other people as stubborn as me, and will just leave a bad taste in my mouth afterwards. Nothing is accomplished, time is wasted. I see something that seems rational and well-thought out, share it with a friend, and they will try to justify the opposing side. Then I feel stupid because apparently my opinion is wrong and I am dumb, and if I try to stand up for it it again explodes into a giant debate, and I hate debates, where nothing is accomplished.
And well, if you can't beat them, why not join them. The thing is my pride is keeping me from switching to zerg. Protoss is the race I liked and enjoy playing with....if I no longer enjoy playing as that race, why switch? I suppose I feel too loyal to a stupid game race to really switch, but that might kill my enjoyment with the game. Or maybe it's because I lose constantly and so have become this.
I don't know. I just wanted to let it out I guess.
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Starcraft 2
Why am I starting to hate this game? I bought it for 59.99 a few days after it came out. I played massive amounts of team games on it afterwards with friends, then custom maps. I seldom played 1v1, and when I did it was usually among those I knew. I started to cast it and I have over 80 videos of me babbling away about the game on livestream.
But lately I haven't felt the will to cast. Perhaps it's because everyone has decided to play zerg, and basically every game I cast is either PvZ...occasionally TvZ. And then the game itself, it tends to be unremarkable. If I cast one player with a high skill level playing someone new to the race, how interesting is that going to be? One attack and someone's dead, whether it's after a boring turtley battle or early on in the game, and I guess I'm falling to that as well myself in my own play.
Yet as luck would have it, when I decide NOT to cast and do something else, a few times people have these amazing drawn-out games that I miss, and that just makes it frustrating. Casting is fun when it's done live, when you can hear the people playing being annoyed or yelling at the other player to get out, to test how well you can catch something happening as it happens, not during a replay by yourself, already having known what will happen. That just becomes predictable and boring.
But I mean, I'm not a gamer. People say I am, and tell me I'm a gamer, but I'm really not. I just don't have that passion like everyone else. I envy people who can find a passion for something, whether it's a hobby or a career choice or even a game. I feel like a person who is the jack-of-all-trades in this sense. I have interests in tons of things, but I have absolutely no passion for one over the other. It makes me mediocre at everything rather than supremely good at one thing, and then I'm like "wait....what do I do when I grow up? What career choice do I go into?" The one I chose now is simply something I was supposedly good at...but, it's not something I'm passionate about. I feel like where I'm going I'll either enter a job I hate or be in limbo forever, getting part-time-jobs constantly and never really going anywhere in life.
I just don't want to spend the rest of my life doing one single thing just to keep myself afloat. That's extremely dull. A teacher who deals with kids every year, teaching the same thing every single year. How the hell do they do it? They must have an enormous passion because that job doesn't even pay well. Maybe they just geuninely want kids to have good educations? Seriously, you're in the same classroom with the same paint job, with snot-nosed preteens and this is your fifteenth year teaching. You're going to tell them about Romeo and Juliet, and make them read the book. Well by this point you've probably MEMORIZED the entire play and know exactly what everything means. Does that NEVER get boring? EVER?
Well, I suppose I'm feeling the same for SC2. Everyone is zerg. All I do is PvZ. All I do is cast PvZ. Everyone has different opinions of the state of that matchup itself, whether they think protoss is underpowered or overpowered. It gets to the point that I don't even want to hear the argument behind it. I know my opinion. I'm probably biased. I am biased, but I think protoss is underpowered. It's EXTREMELY hard to be unbiased when you're protoss, you never win, and all you play is PvZ. Your own skill level is miles behind everyone else. All you can do is cast PvZs. Whenever I hear someone say that protoss is actually overpowered, that just makes me sad. I don't want to argue against it though because at this point I've just given up. Everyone will be stubborn and believe what they believe, it'll get to that unsatisfying bittersweet conclusion where after walls and walls of text or minutes of babbling to "we each have our own opinion" which just...solves nothing. Why even bother to argue if we're just going to agree to disagree in the end because we, like we already predicted, won't be able to bend the other person's opinion at all?
And it's not like anyone CARES about protoss. Sure this is getting extremely whiny, but all I've heard in the SC2 community is TvZ TvZ TvZ constantly. Then, every single tournament ENDS in TvZ in the finals, and if I do hear if protoss it's "protoss is overpowered in this sense" and really, Blizzard nerfing Protoss because of its performance in the LOWER levels of skill is ABSOLUTELY RETARDED. So let's say we have two adults and two babies. The two adults play SC2 and zerg wins more than terran, for example, BUT BECAUSE THE BABY'S TERRAN KEEPS BEATING THE OTHER BABY ZERG, we should nerf terran! OMG.
When I finally FIND a thread on TL where they're simply questioning why protoss was doing poorly in a certain tournament, it explodes into a protoss balance war with some opinions that I thought seemed very educational and rational sounding, yet all the opposers simply say all the protoss players just suck, not because toss is underpowered or anything. It's not even the whole" one unit is stronger than another" kind of argument, just the entire way protoss is built is really stupid and limiting that makes it appeal to newer players since the race is supposedly easier and more straight-forward. Why did no one argue that with zerg or terran? IS IT SIMPLY A COINCIDENCE THAT ZERG "started to develop and grow as race" after the stupid goddamn patch!?
And you know why I'm whining on this blog? I suppose it's because I'm too much of a wuss to go into an argument with all the zerg players I know. I just...don't care about this game enough to wall-of-text constantly against a bunch of other people as stubborn as me, and will just leave a bad taste in my mouth afterwards. Nothing is accomplished, time is wasted. I see something that seems rational and well-thought out, share it with a friend, and they will try to justify the opposing side. Then I feel stupid because apparently my opinion is wrong and I am dumb, and if I try to stand up for it it again explodes into a giant debate, and I hate debates, where nothing is accomplished.
And well, if you can't beat them, why not join them. The thing is my pride is keeping me from switching to zerg. Protoss is the race I liked and enjoy playing with....if I no longer enjoy playing as that race, why switch? I suppose I feel too loyal to a stupid game race to really switch, but that might kill my enjoyment with the game. Or maybe it's because I lose constantly and so have become this.
I don't know. I just wanted to let it out I guess.
