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I AM WORKING ON THIS AU

IT HAS EIGHT TEN DOCUMENTS WITH IDEAS AND ACTUAL PARTS OF THE STORY SCATTERED ABOUT IN ALL OF THEM

AT LEAST THREE OF THEM ARE COMPLETELY SCRAPPED

THE FIRST DOCUMENT IS DATED NOVEMBER 25th, 2013

I HAVE BEEN WORKING ON THIS FOR ALMOST A YEAR AND IDEAS HAVE CHANGED SO DRASTICALLY, BACKSTORIES CHANGED, ROLES SWITCHED AROUND

FOR A FEW MONTHS I ADDED NOTHING TO THIS STORY UNTIL SOME PLOT REVELATIONS GAVE ME IDEAS (what of course it's a fanfic in what world do I ever come up with completely original shit myself?) THOUGH AT THIS POINT I MIGHT AS WELL TURN IT INTO AN ORIGINAL CONSIDERING EXISTING CHARACTERS CAN SOMETIMES LESSEN SUSPENSE

IT TOOK ME EIGHT MONTHS TO INCLUDE LESBIANS 

I HAVE NEVER IN MY LIFE PUT SO MUCH WORK INTO SOMETHING I PROBABLY WILL NEVER FINISH CONSIDERING I AM WRITING THINGS COMPLETELY OUT OF ORDER 

I HAVE WRITTEN 10K WORDS OF THE FIRST ARC, SCRAPPED A FEW THOUSAND WORDS OF IT PREVIOUSLY AND PROBABLY PUT MORE EFFORT INTO A LONG SCENE IN ARC THREE THAN ANYTHING ELSE EVER

THAT'S RIGHT THERE'S AT LEAST THREE ARCS, PROBABLY FOUR OR MORE, MY MIND IS ALREADY DEVELOPING IDEAS FOR THE FOURTH GODDAMN ARC

SO HELP ME GOD HOW DOES ANYONE PUT IDEAS INTO STORYTELLING WORDS WHEN MY PACING IS SO DAMN SLOW 

I WRITE AT A NOVEL'S PACE BUT I'M TOO IMPATIENT TO ACTUALLY WRITE A NOVEL

WRITING IS HARD WAHHH WAH WAH